Somebody
Most people can be loved by somebody in this world. It just doesn't mean that you're going to be together. But there's somebody out there for everyone.
I saw your post. Should you commit suicide? you failed as a son and boyfriend . Not just him anyone that felt like that. First I want to say you are lovable you have your own worth that's not everyone can see it . Person who values you will see you worth . However I know we want the affection especially from our closeness like family I was also the same . When I begin to stop ask for that instead love myself, value myself , in the end we only have ourself . I want to tell you that live on for your dream or travel to any place that you never before . If you don't have dream you will discover one . Secondly Learn to forgive who blamed you for your existence when you start learning forgiveness and want nth back . You will start to heal yourself . Remember you have your own value . Fight for yourself love yourself more . You never reward yourself then do it . Give yourself a rest . Thirdly, we are not perfect . We have our own imperfections . Learn from the past ,the mistakes, the trauma ,the misery. And forgive yourself accept those thing, learn it and improve yourself . For anyone who hurts you . You have two choices either keep distancing or be normal you still be yourself doing good deed just be yourself even you realise they never be in good term with you( they might take time to realise it ) But still it is better to distance yourself from them and give yourself growth. I think everyone know commit suicide is not solutions but sometimes we can't fight anymore we are tired emotionally , spiritually, physically . That's why you need to rest . You should forgive them and maybe distance yourself after you start to focus on yourself to heal . Love yourself π€. Afterall you only have yourself in the end . You was born alone you will die alone your sadness carry is alone . If you have no friends to share your story with . Write it down to book all the feeling,anger ,happy how is your day ? Planning things ahead . Maybe you should try to learn new things like arts, music discover yourself. One more thing read book or feed your brain with any knowledge if you are into any major feed yourself with it to build yourself . When you are busy with yourself you will eventually not care about other anymore . All your attention shift on yourself . Last but not least again .keep moving forward . You are so awesome human being . Please take care of yourself more and love yourselfΰ§(οΌΎ γ° οΌΎ)ΰ¨. From me Viramoon. sorry for my grammer . I'm still working on it.
Most people can be loved by somebody in this world. It just doesn't mean that you're going to be together. But there's somebody out there for everyone.
Disclaimer: If you're sensitive to any pessimistic contents, please skip this. You would not want anything to discourage you. I do not know where to start or what to write but here is my story. I'm born in good family, somehow i feel my life is not. I do not if i am overthinking or i am being too emotional. I am youngest child, my age is over 2 decades, my parents are over half of hundred. I am just still live by my parents, accomplish nothing but troubles. My parents spent nearly a million of dollars for my education somehow i feel to learn n.th useful to make them proud. My friends at this point, they made the name for themselves, they have a family. I feel like i am a lose. i fail as a child, as brother, and as a friend. I do a lot of things to disappoint my family. I know my family is well-known but this burden has pressure me more since i have a lot of expectation from people. In life, i want to have friends to hang out with but no one want to be near me, i had friends only in high-school that was because i see them everyday after that we cut off the contact. Even with my parents, i seem to grow distance, i could not do anything to help them. I want to be near them but i do not know how or where should i start. People might see me as out-going, friendly, extrovert but inside i am just a boring guy, emotional sh**, loner. I feel like darkness is my favourite place, like Batman but Batman is rich while i m poor. I just want to run off from home, and cut off the contacts just to free everyone's burden. I see myself with no real skill or ability even now i am just too afraid to be in love too, i know no one wants a useless guy. When people ask me, why do not i hang-out with my friends? I do not want to answer them, just because they do not like me, i do not blend in, or i have no friends. I know nothing beside being in the gym, fashion, and beauty. They are useless since I am not a model. It contributes nothing as incomes, only splurging. I need someone to understand me, lend me their shoulders, and telling me "Everything is alright", and somehow i just want to be alone. I sometime feel numb from sarcasm. I am also afraid to be in love since i got rejected on every of my confessions, i feel like i am not good enough for anyone, i just afraid to be in love, afraid to hurt someone too. I am just too insecure about everything. so far, i think i have reached my opinions. I do not know what to say anymore Thanks for reading
I really miss you and It doesnβt matter how long I have to wait for you 3 months,5 months 1 year, 3 years it doesnβt matter. I want the dream that both of us dreamt of come true. I know everything seems cloudy for the both of usβ¦ But remember everything is going to be fineβ¦. Until we meet againβ¦
You already had a girlfriend, why would the h*ll are you giving me the mixed signals dude ?
My ex is feeling proud thinking he αααmeααΆα but donβt worry baby ααααααα½α ααΆααααΆααα α’αΌαααααΌα ααααΆααα π₯°
I'm not about to keep explaining myself, my feelings, my boundaries, and my actions to somebody who is intent upon misunderstanding or ignoring me when I do. I cannot communicate with somebody who is not open to exchanging. Communication is what you do and how you behave, not just your words. Did you ignore me all day to play video games? Well guess what? This communicates with exquisite clarity that you values video games more than spending time with me. Does you ogle other women? youβre communicating that youβre disloyal. Communication with someone who is committed to misunderstanding you or taking advantage of you, is absolutely useless and youβre better off preserving your energy and moving on. Communication is happening 24 hours a day, whether the you realizes it or not. Everything you say, everything you donβt say, everything you do or donβt do...ALL of it communicates something important. Even the most nuanced micro-expression on our faces are also the forms of communication. Actions speak louder than words.
This is a story of mine. A story that I donβt tell anyone and never plan to but itβs been making me feel so heavy so, I decide to confess it here. Iβm a mentally ill person, since i was a kid (itβs a long long story). I didnβt get enough love and affection as i was a kid so since I became a teenager, i attach to people who give me affection easily. Long ago, i knew a man on internet. We started texting with each other until we fell in love. He was a really good guy. He loved me, always cared about me, checked up on me, helped me with everything, he was literally perfect plus heβs a good looking person, he was a man in every womenβs dream. He didnβt know about my mental state until we dated and it turned out he was also mentally ill, but my condition is worse than him. But things went so smooth, our relationship was super healthy and we were so deeply in love. After weβve been together for 1 year, thing started to happen, he started asking me to show him my body. I refused but heβd said I didnβt trust him or anything. So i showed him with the condition that there wonβt be a second time and he agreed. A few days later he asked me again, he convinced me and if I refused, heβd get upset after that. Thing went repeatedly. He asked me again and again and thereβs no the end of it. I loved him too much but doing something like that really made me feel so wrong and disgusted myself. I didnβt want our relationship to fall apart so i did as he told me to (i was stupid). Little did he know, i cried every time after showing him my body. A few months later, i felt like I couldnβt keep it going and going repeatedly like that anymore and i felt so wrong especially i felt like iβm a bad daughter and howβd my mom feel if she know that her daughter do something like that in such a young age. That night, he requested me again but then I refused and i told him iβm not gonna do it anymore, iβve done enough and I felt so wrong about it. But then he started forcing me. I started to cry but he didnβt change his mind and he promised it will be the last time. I was dumb enough to believe that so i showed him again while i was crying and mad at him. After he felt satisfied, he started to cry, he felt sorry for me and he said I couldnβt control his mind and it was so hard for him. After a month, i guess, he started to request me again and when i refused he always get upset and acted cold to me. I loved him so so much, i was afraid that our relationship was gonna fall apart so i do as he said but that time, he convinced me to masturbate myself. I did everything that he told me to. After one year and half of our relationship, the distance was started to grow between as. I was not a good girlfriend to him, being with a mentally ill person like me is so draining and he also had so much things to deal with, he was also suffering and he still tried to help me and comfort me. I fell into a deep depression that I started to think about committing suicide again. But then, we broke up for some complicate reasons that I canβt even understand. I was so attached to him, i did everything just for him to come back, I begged him and I couldnβt eat or do anything, i just cried and kept calling him over and over even he didnβt pick up. But at night, he picked up but we didnβt talk much since i only called him so i can ask him to be back. Until one night, he said he was still in love with me but i need to be strong, when I become strong, he will comeback, I believed him. We called for a few minutes for a few nights but during our call he always asked me to show him my body and masturbate myself. I thought doing it would make him stay and love me, i was so dumb that I sacrificed and gave him everything just to make him stay. A few days later, I felt like he doesnβt love me anymore because he was so fine, he didnβt care whether iβm okay or not, if i eat, if i cry, he didnβt care about me, he was just living his life normally. He ignored my texted and didnβt pick up my call the whole day until night time, he picked up and asked me to do thing as I mentioned above. One night, i asked him if he was still in love with me because his action showed that he was already fell out of love. βI donβt have any feelings for you since the day we broke up, i was just feel pity for you and afraid you were gonna do something harmful to yourselfβ, he responded. It really hurt my feelings, it was like someone stabbed me in the chest, I started to cry so hard and all he could say was sorry. I was literally so so depressed, i still texted him and called him after he said that to me (i was so thaok) but he didnβt respond or pick up. After a few weeks I started activating my social media account and acted like I got over it (I didnβt get any better actually). He texted me, i was less sad and asked him to fix thing but he refused again. Things kept happening until a month or 2 months (I forgot) I decided to stop asking to come back since he got a new gf already but i was still in love with him and think about him 24/7. And now, i still canβt get over him and i canβt bring myself to hate him either because he was so good to me even though he did hurt my feelings but he treated me like i was something special and a really important person to him. The only person i hate right now is myself. I hate myself so much, iβm so disgusting and i think I deserved everything that happened to me. Everything that happened in the past is haunting me, the more i get reminded of it, the more i hate myself. Even though i tried to get over it, to forget it, to start working on myself, to heal myself but none of it work. They say time will heal but actually, it doesnβt. I act like i moved on and happy because I donβt want my family and friends to worry about me. Theyβve been helping me a lot and i really appreciate it but it couldnβt help me somehow. Itβs all my faults, I know people will hate me if they know about this but what can i do to be forgiven. But how can i be forgiven by people when i canβt even forgive myselfβ¦
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