i love you but the fear of not being good enough is keeping me from staying by your side. i wish i didn’t have the insecurities that i do, i wish i felt more confident, i wish i didn’t have to be afraid everyday about being less than perfect, i wish i wasn’t out of your league.
My bf… I need you guys advice… Everyone around me been telling me that he a walking a-red flag… what he did in the past… hurt many girl cheat on many girls… flirt with many girls… however currently, he been treating me really good.. like literally everyone in his school knew him about what he did in the past.. i’m sorry i’m so stress i’m rambling around… i need your advice
On the bed, there were my friend, my ex boss and I. They were kinda drunk and I’m kinda tipsy. We sleep on one bed. He went to the toilet then I kinda wake up as I’m the light sleeper but I can’t wake up cuz the of many shots tequila. He came back to the bed hugging me and laying his hands on my body. Then he started to move his hand and slowly touch me (my hands and my shoulder only). His whole left arm was my boobs while holding my hands so I hold his arm and and place his hand on boobs (he got big hands and I’m fucking weak for that). Not long after that, we got into cuddling position. He put his chin on my shoulder and softly touch my other shoulder then move to my collar bone then my neck. I was uncomfortable as my friend is on right side and he’s on left side and I can’t move but I decided to move and turn my back to him but I still hold his hand and stick to my boobs (I swear I don’t love him, I just like it when something is on my boobs when I sleep). He moved his arm slowly while laying it on me (we still in the cuddling position but this time is spooning). His face behind my back, he keeps moving his face that has newly grow mustache on my flesh. It felt good, really. Then suddenly he let go of me and went back to normal sleeping position (I was like oh shit, why but I think nvm I’ll go back to sleep). A few minutes later he came back, his leg on my body, his arm on my boobs and went back to cuddling position again. He hugged me from behind, his face next to me. (There’s more but I can’t finish it cuz I’m sleepy asf now)
Him: Would you still be with me if I came back to you that time? Her: Yes, I would. Him: Even after I left you several times? Her: yes, always. Him: why? Her: because I love you. Him: Now? Her: I have to love myself. Him: Maybe we would have been together if I were braver. Her: Maybe.
I’m wondering if he hates me that’s why he blocked me. :) loved him so much still do but what can you do when a person want to leave? And this pretending that everything is fine sucks. It’s been 6 months and I still can’t move on. Really hate this.
To my beloved bf Please always rmb I always love you but there are many things that I must handle on my own. I know we are one and we must get thru things together but this time it is too much. So let me suffering alone. I don’t want you to feel bad and need to get into these problems too. I love you always and still. I hope you are always doing good and I will be there always seeing you getting what you want. I can’t wait to see you success and it would be the day I feel happy the most. Thank you for loving me and taking care of me so far. I can tell you are perfect for me.But let’s do this, let’s me handle my problem first without bothering you. ily💕
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To my most favorite person, I don’t know where you are at right now. I promptly admit that I miss you so much especially your dry sense of humor, you being Dokey-talkative to me. Our big and small fights, LOL. I wish you were here with me. To tell me everything is fine, everything will be better. I badly need your love and comfort because I’ve been so tired of what I’ve been going through lately. I know I have no rights to tell you to stay, but seeing you disappear this time hurt me deeply. I thought I would be okay this time since we already said our goodbye and also had a proper closure even though we ended up in bad term again. In this situation, you probably hate me that much, think of me as a ‘never wrong and always right person’.it’s fine for me. I know I’m at worst. I want to do the same thing as well. Sadly, I can’t make myself hating someone who I’m so in love with. That’s not me! Despite your lies, you being closed-book to me, I’m still enchanted to meet you. I don’t feel any regret falling for you, I really mean it. You are the main character in my story. Your name has in every chapter of my book since May 2020 til now. Imma always feel appreciated and grateful because I found someone who showed me the real definition of ‘Action speaks louder than Word’. You are Jjang! You know what? I can pretend to be happy and laugh at others joke. I can go on other dates and meet new people as you wished me to, but at the end of the day, they aren’t you. We will always be unfinished business and it will always be you although I used to tell you not to cross the path again. Yet, deep inside of me keep hoping that at least we have one beautiful story which I never give up praying for. One small moment together as you knew that I expect less when it comes to you, right? ...
Do you think, being with someone who is depressed, will turn you into someone like them too? You’re being tortured emotionally by them to the point you just want to suicide with them, but still, you have to be that someone comforting them and tolerating with everything. You changed from someone who is so optimistic to pessimistic, and damn the world is never pink again.