Last Goodbye!!
Finally, waiting for me was not in your dictionary anymore. Goodbye to my 3years crush, longest crush and also my ex. Last long!!
i love you but the fear of not being good enough is keeping me from staying by your side. i wish i didn’t have the insecurities that i do, i wish i felt more confident, i wish i didn’t have to be afraid everyday about being less than perfect, i wish i wasn’t out of your league.
Finally, waiting for me was not in your dictionary anymore. Goodbye to my 3years crush, longest crush and also my ex. Last long!!
I can’t believe we’ve come this far. We got to know each other; take care each other, share our things, favourite food/drink, favourite songs/movies, our gaols, what we love, what we want…. we also went on adventures together with happiness and love like people in relationship do. But… We choose to be senior and junior. The distance between you and me it never seems to disappear, you and our memories are frozen in my heart. There are many things I don’t want to remember, always remember. If we confessed our feelings before this happened, it shouldn’t be this hard. If you just told me the things you’ve been through, we shouldn’t be strangers like we are right now. 😔 I miss you.
បើអាចត្រលប់ពេលមកក្រោយម្ដងទៀត ខ្ញុំនឹងមិនបោះបង់អ្នកទេ គ្រប់យ៉ាងអ្នកធ្វើដាក់ខ្ញុំ ល្អណាស់ ដែលមិនធ្លាប់មាននរណា ម្នាក់ធ្វើបែបនឹងពីមុនមក ខ្ញុំសប្បាយគ្រប់ពេលនៅជាមួយអ្នក ត្រេកអរនៅពេលឃើញសារ និង notification អ្នកលោតមកលើអេក្រង់ទូរស័ព្ទខ្ញុំ ខ្ញុំសប្បាយចិត្តនៅពេលឃើញអ្នកបារម្ភ និងលើកទឹកចិត្តខ្ញុំពេលពិបាកចិត្តម្ដងៗ ចំណែកខ្ញុំវិញ មិនបានធ្វើអ្វីអោយអ្នកសូម្បីបន្តិច អាចថា ខ្ញុំងាយទុកចិត្តមនុស្សក៏បាន តែ អ្នកពិតជាល្អណាស់ ហើយខ្ញុំបែរជាល្ងង់បោះបង់អ្នក ដើម្បីមនុស្សម្នាក់ ដឹងថា ឥឡូវមិនអាចដូចមុន តែខ្ញុំក៏នៅតែចង់ប៉ះប៉ូវនូវទង្វើគ្រប់យ៉ាងដែលអ្នកធ្វើដាក់ខ្ញុំ 🙂♥️
It’s hard to “just be friends with someone you fell in love”…#S🪴
It sounds stupid of me but I still want to share it. First of all, i dint know that he had a gf, and I dint mean to like him as well. But he always tried to be close to me. I didn’t know when I started to like him. From day to day, I liked him more and more. One day I got to know that he already had a gf. Yeahh!!! I was shocked when I first heard. Yet, I couldn’t stop this feeling even I know it’s a Kama to love s.one else’s bf. You know, he acted like my bf. Always called me even he had nothing to say, made a video call to show me what he was doing, teased me, helped me with a little thing and etc…He even showed me of his younger pictures and his family members. At that time, I felt like I was in a relationship. I knew that it was impossible to go further but you know I just went with the flow even I knew it would hurt me but I still wanted it. I admit that I was selfish cuz sometimes I also wanted him and his gf break up and I always thought he would choose me over his gf. Unfortunately, he disappeared without noticed. Since then, we had no longer contacted to each other for almost two years now. Since we hadn’t followed each other on social media, so now I don’t know anything about him. If this message is happened on his new feed, I hope he would notice it. And I want to confess my feeling for him right now that I still have feeling for you but I don’t expect anything from you. I just want to show my feeling. That’s all from me. And lastly, I just wonder did u have any feeling for me a little bit?
To my most favorite person, I don’t know where you are at right now. I promptly admit that I miss you so much especially your dry sense of humor, you being Dokey-talkative to me. Our big and small fights, LOL. I wish you were here with me. To tell me everything is fine, everything will be better. I badly need your love and comfort because I’ve been so tired of what I’ve been going through lately. I know I have no rights to tell you to stay, but seeing you disappear this time hurt me deeply. I thought I would be okay this time since we already said our goodbye and also had a proper closure even though we ended up in bad term again. In this situation, you probably hate me that much, think of me as a ‘never wrong and always right person’.it’s fine for me. I know I’m at worst. I want to do the same thing as well. Sadly, I can’t make myself hating someone who I’m so in love with. That’s not me! Despite your lies, you being closed-book to me, I’m still enchanted to meet you. I don’t feel any regret falling for you, I really mean it. You are the main character in my story. Your name has in every chapter of my book since May 2020 til now. Imma always feel appreciated and grateful because I found someone who showed me the real definition of ‘Action speaks louder than Word’. You are Jjang! You know what? I can pretend to be happy and laugh at others joke. I can go on other dates and meet new people as you wished me to, but at the end of the day, they aren’t you. We will always be unfinished business and it will always be you although I used to tell you not to cross the path again. Yet, deep inside of me keep hoping that at least we have one beautiful story which I never give up praying for. One small moment together as you knew that I expect less when it comes to you, right? ...
Hi! So we been talking for kind of long too, i guess. We click so well and the energy matches. I guess there are similarities between us, especially in term of our personalities that's why we get along so well. But i just don't know should i continue this catching feeling thing or just move on with life. One day, they would make me feel like they like me, they have feeling for me and the other days, they make it feel like I annoyed them.
There have been countless times where I've made you feel all of those disgusting feelings knowing full well how much you loved me knowing how much I hated these but I couldn't bring myself to change so suddenly. So i gave up our connection even though I still loved you dearly. Maybe that's why it pained me to see you being all hurtful and anxious because of my thoughtless actions, the thought that only me matters in our relationship. I've pictured us in a family of many pets, pictured you being the best dad and the best husband a man could ever be. That at some point i was unable to picture my life without you. But gradually, I've realized my behaviors started to hurt you, my actions began to make you doubt my love for you, we kept misinterpreting and misunderstanding each other. I tried my best to be optimistic about the situation despite being the over emotional and dramatic person i am. I have thought that with love, we could overcome everything but i was naive. I forgot that love is just the topping to the already flourishing relationship. We couldn't take each other's words to heart, you have a complete different opinion and view and so do I. So how can we expect each of us to understand each other? I've resisted the urge to approach you multiple times already since we broke up, I've cried thinking about you, i just wanted to scream loudly so the whole world know i miss you. I've missed you but I'd rather pick your happiness over this. I'll still hold the belief that you'll find someone who can shoulder all the burdens you're carrying, always be the ear to listen to your thoughts, always have the heart to open to your everything. I'll pray for you. I didn't want to make this long, but it's already long. So I wanna close this with .... I love you. Sorry that your last person couldn't be me. I will forever cherish the memories we had. Please stay safe and healthy. From that girl who let you go away.