Words : BFF

Now, I understand what is mean BFF. Since from 2019-2021, I had 2 friends ( Girls ) as my BFF . I love them as the persons that I can share every story with them and trust them that they not gonna tell to other peoples. Back to 2019-2021 , we are really close to each other. We went out to eat something, we call on phone tigger , talk about our problem , listen to each other . It seem like we are really Love each other. You know I put two of them as my beloved one . I always think them first . I want to make their birthday special. And I thought, they will love me as I love them. Because my action never change for someone that I love and call them BFF . BUT since 2022 , both of them are far away from me . We are not close friends as before . I don’t know why , why they do that action to me back . I really sad , mad , cry and hurt because of their action. I really unexpected 🙂. + For Person A : From 2019-2021, all the time I chatted to her, she always replayed me on time or late just around 1h -2h -3h or more than 4-5h . But since from 2022 when I chatted to her , she replied me in 1-2 days . Sometimes in 20h . Sometimes in 10h . She so changed. All the time I asked her to go out with me eat something. She always busy. First I thought that , maybe right now she are more busy with her study in university. But her action keep doing again and hsuan until today . I thought that she is my BFF . But right no . Because she never asked or chatted to me go to eat out . But she can go with other friends. Yessss , she have new friends. So their New fri is important than me so far . I chatted to her ask her to go out 20 times . She never chatted to me and me to go out even 1 times . I am the one who chat to her , because I want to keep in touch and our relationship friend forever. But her action it seem like she so cool that everyone like her , be good with her and always get good luck and gift from other people . And right now when end conversations or though that chat is not important. They just read my notifications messenger and not seen my chat till I chatted to them again . Your action so Perfect my friend. + For Person B : she also the same as person A . Since 2022 , she never read all my chat and seen my chat . But she can post story and share news or status on FB . But she couldn’t reply my chat or seen my chat since our conversation is not really end . I don’t that she totally forgot or she totally busy so much . But at least you have a Icon on app that show you which your chat you haven’t seen . I don’t know what she think who am I . Her action so me that I am not important friend anymore, because she have many friends that care and stay with her all the times . I am her BFF nearly 7-8 year but she never post a story with me or tag me . Sometimes she never mention from me when I tags her . But she can post story with her new fri in university. She can mention her friend when they tag her . But she never did that with me . So This is how we call BFF ? . Dear to my both Friends. That for teach me how to understand words BFF and thank for let me show how good and bad you are with me . You didn’t respect with and see how I love both of you . I hope you enjoy with your new friends and have a good relationship till last . #thanktotheownerofpageknongjitforleTmesharemystoryThathurtmesomuchfrommyBFF😃. #thankbeforehandadmidforpostthis.

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