Her.

One of the hardest things that I’m doing right now is letting go of a person whom I never thought I would do. It’s the best for myself to be able to heal. I wrote my stories here probably a few times of how I love that person but in the end we’re just friends. I still have feelings for her and I don’t think I would ever lose those feelings, but the thing is I’m moving forward. I don’t stay in the same old place with the wonderful/painful memories. Honestly, she’s the first person that I’ve loved this much and I even told her that. Still, I need to accept the fact that it’s not gonna work and our connection can only be “best friend”. She told me that she met someone and she kinda loves that him too. So yeah. Sometimes you miss the memories and the times that you had spent with them but not the person themselves.

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2025-08-14

reply to #KJ0376

after seeing this post, i can sense immediately it's maybe from you! it doesn't mean that, after i got gf i ignored u or take this friendship for granted! you know, you should look from different perspectives, u should communicate or ask me directly because there're thing that u don't really know. i still care about you and checking up on u, but not everyone has energy to communicate all the time. we can't be that stable everyday, too! i still valued u and the friendship but please understand my side as well! i don't even reply my gf that fast too! even my few years of friendship, i didn't text withthem that much too! im so tired with my life lately, please understand that I need time for some break as well!
2025-08-14

គេមានជម្រើស

កំហុសគេគ្រប់យ៉ាងខ្ញុំបានឡើកលេងអោយព្រោះស្រលាញ់មិនចង់បាត់បង។ តែកំហុសខ្ញុំតូចមួយបានធ្វើអោយគេចាក់ចេញដោយគ្មានកាអាល័យ ខ្ញុំលះបង់អោយគេអស់ហើយចុងក្រោយនៅតែគេជាអ្នកចាកចេញ ចុងក្រោយខ្ញុំគ្មានតំលៃ។ អ្នកទៅសប្បាយហើយ ខ្ញុំវិញទុកសោក ចិត្តនឹកនៅស្រលាញ់គេបានត្រឹមនិយាយពាក្យសុំទោសរួចយកអ្នកថ្មី។ ដើម្បីក្តីសុខសំរាប់មនុស្សខ្ញុំស្រលាញ់បំផុត ទោះបីជាការឈឺចាប់មួយនេះគ្មានថ្ងៃនឹងរលាយបាត់ទេ។

2025-08-14

Always wish you from here

Sorry for wasting your time and making your life miserable I wouldn’t do that if I could. I won’t stay longer than this and I am not sure how it would be, how it goes.. and of course I will miss you, I'm terrified of losing you, I really can't image my life , my body without you in it..., but I know that it’s time for both of us to move on, maybe to see who we are, what we’re trying to do , what we really need.. or maybe someday we will start over again!! I remember what you told me, if we mean to be.. it will be and it’s absolutely happen.. I don’t want to try this way, but I have no more rights to ask you to stay , to choose me, to not break this relationship up anymore.. When you are happy, I will be happy too.. Please always taking care of yourself.. Eat more, hard work, grow up and take a good rest, enjoy your day as always… stay healthy, and do whatever you want to… Cheer !!!

2025-08-14

To the guy I love most, Sophea.

MY FLAWS. I thought we were supposed to talk about our problems and solve them together. You told me how you don't like me doing shitposting, being shady about you. I stopped. I didn't know it would bother you that much. All those shitposting and shady posts aren't about you, I swear. I know those are not reasons and I was right. It was my attitude. I thought you would talk it out but you didn't, you chose to leave me while I'm still in love with you. I didn't know I have such an attitude to make you lose feelings for me, if so I'm sorry. I was not pressuring you, I never ever or even think about making you love me the way I want. Maybe my actions or how I talk seem like that but I'm not that type of person. I told you I'm an attention seeker. Of course I always try to seek attention from the guy that I love, the guy that I prioritized first, the guy that I would do anything for and it's you but I know what is right and what is wrong. Who knows you got the wrong idea about me. I'm not trying to act like a victim here and I was never one. I'm just trying to tell you about what I wanted to say and how I felt.

2025-08-14

Space

I don’t know why and I don’t have much to say . I just know it burn my heart and I feel pain . He suddenly ask me for a space and separate stay . Have u ever experience this before ? យូរទៅកាន់តែយូរទៅ ស្រលាញ់គ្នាយូរយូររហូតដល់ យ្រូវការនៅដោយឡែកពីគ្នាខ្លះ សម្រាកខ្លះ

2025-08-14

Where I stand

Day by day, I started to know where I stand in everyone’s life. I’m that friend who is there when they need something. I’m that daughter who is responsible for every big and little things inside and outside the household. I’m that granddaughter who is just a female. I’m that sister who doesn’t deserve the respect. I’m that niece who got compared with the cousins’ parents and got hated by my own cousins. I’m that girlfriend who loves too much and also being a little too much that sometimes it suffocates him. Every eyes and words that look and say to me, make me feel small worthless. Whenever i try to explain what happen and both me, I got shouted back, not listening to me, first they comfort and still act the same. It’s hard coming home everyday and get the cold look from everyone and no one in the house actually talking to you. I have to repeat myself over 3 times to get the answer or someone attention. The only time I get someone to care enough for my well-being or existence is when I commit suicide.

2025-08-14

Lany - 13

29 Jan 2022, I saw her... It's been months since we last talked. A lot of things happened but memories of us still sculpted in my mind. I know that was solely my fault for pushing you so faraway that you and I have no idea how we could go back to the old us. It's ridiculous to say but despite my cold acts, I desperately want you to be mine although it's seemingly impossible. Being the third-wheel isn't my thing and me being a cheater would definitely out of the question. (Hey audiences, I know this sounds confusing. Lemme explain this, we both have our own partner) I don't know how to put this into word - the reasons why I chose to leave. However, I guess that was not a very bad decision I made, at least not to you. We both can focus on our own relationship. I'm so glad that you still can go on without my presence and be happy with your significant other and friends. You know what? I've been trying so hard to get you out of my mine. Countless attempts have passed, this time I admit that I failed... especially today. I was riding back home, listening to random songs on YouTube and thinking of you like I always do, and imagining how I would react and what I should say when we get to meet again... "the smell of you is way too much, not gonna put my heart through that... where did we go wrong? I know we started out alright" I was stunned. You were in front of me. Like 2m apart. You had your fav jacket on, the one that I tried to steal because you said your confidence dropped without this jacket. I saw some foods hanging on the hook which I thought that was for your mom because that's what you always did when we went back home after our unofficial date -- buying some foods home for your mama. I slowed down. My heart skipped a beat. That was unexpected, the person I'm thinking of and haven't talked to for months suddenly appeared in front of me, at the moment when our fav song played. I was stumbling, trying to figure out what I should do. Yet, nothing was done... Stupid, wasn't I? "Lately I've been someone and it ain't myself I'm spending all my time on somebody else I'm feeling all these feelings I don't understand You're the one good thing I ain't questioning Like ohh, if I knew that it would kill me I would still be there a thousand times over" This song came up next while I was secretly following her on her way back home. She rode too fast, without her helmet on (this girl is making me worried again). I really wanted to do something but I was not ready for this unexpected reunion. Finally, we seperated, not knowing when we'll officially meet again... même si je sais que je le regretterai plus tard. __________________ Hey, please take a good care of yourself. Untill we meet again. That time, I will be the one who comes to you first like when we first met :) though it might take some times, probably 2-3 years since I'll be going somewhere farway, but I promise I'll be back to pickup where we left off. Last but not least, be happy, even without me... and... I hope you think about me the way I think about you. And yes, it was enchanting to meet you :)

2025-08-14

reassurance from u…maybe?

Hey, I don’t care about the distance and sht. I can wait, I’m willing to wait, be faithful and commit to this relationship. Checking up on u everyday, support u through hard time, leave u space when u need, be the most understanding gf. I don’t even mind being a convo starter all the fcking time, fast replier even tho u left me on delivered for half a day or even ghost me out of nowhere for quite a few days, b’cuz I understand that u’re busy. I don’t even mind that u’re not interested about what’s happening at my side or how’s my day going, having u reply to my text is all I ask for. But if this keeps going for a few more months and I see no more effort from u, I might just assumed that u grew out of this relationship but is afraid to ask for a break… idk what should I feel about this relationship…