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2025-08-14

I think it hits me again…

I think the dep hits me again. I noticed by when my heartbeat started to go fast, sometimes I feel suffocated, I couldn’t catch my breath, I couldn’t concentrate, my hands get shaky, my body feel weak, I got lost of interest in making any decisions, my weight started to lost again. I hate to fall into the conditions but I couldn’t help. I tried asking for help but it doesn’t work, it only makes me feel like I’m different, especially when they try to be too careful with me (it looks to fake, I could see it) It is amazing how my mood changes too quickly, I was just laughing and talking a lot yesterday, but today everything become a sorrow story again. I used to think of getting a therapist, asking an expert on my conditions, but the fact that I was under control by my family and that I couldn’t ride or drive any transportation method at all, make me feel even more bad and useless. I also used to think about reaching them via email or phone calls, but I was too scared, it was too hard for me to make myself do it, so I decided I gave up seeking for mental specialist. I chose to be healed by my own. (I really did heal myself but there was a lot of time the demon hits me back and forth, sometimes I feel really happy and the next minutes I feel like k*lling myself) I don’t know what else should I do. Are there anyone who will be the light for me?

To someone I shouldn’t miss

Hey So….., how are u doing? I still miss you, miss how we talk, how you sing to me at night, how you asked me about everything. I just want to hit you up again. Shall you give me a chance? I know this message seem so toxic but I really miss you…

I don't know should I move on or still waiting for him?

I saw you usually react and read all of the confess in this page so, I hope you see this. I've been waiting for you for a long time without getting any messages from you. What do you think about me? Do you want me to waiting for you or want me to move on? Please let me know dear. I'm stuck. I want you to know that I love, I don't want to lose you. I can waiting for you if you ask me to wait.. but if you want me to move on, That's okay I can accept it. ☺️

To the Girl Name Samphors

I know it's been a while since we have broken up but every night I still thought of you and how you have treated me....I don't really know the real reason behind the breakup but I really want you to know that I always have your picture in my wallet as a lucky charm and also I miss you so much. if there's a right time in this life I hope we can meet again

Influence

Do you think, being with someone who is depressed, will turn you into someone like them too? You’re being tortured emotionally by them to the point you just want to suicide with them, but still, you have to be that someone comforting them and tolerating with everything. You changed from someone who is so optimistic to pessimistic, and damn the world is never pink again.

Mr. Leica

I know you don’t have such a feeling and thought about me like I do to you. Yet, I think you deserve to know that someone out there considers you’re special to her. I haven’t had feeling for anyone for years. Then you appeared and began messing up with my head. I don’t expect anything from you because I’ve been spending too much time alone that I’m not sure whether this is the feeling of “fall in love” or it’s just some entertaining feeling to my boring life. Besides, I’m not even capable of loving anyone, so I don’t want waste my time on this stupid and hopeless idea. Yet, I just want you to know that I really appreciate and cherish that one precious day you gave me. I hope you can find someone you truly love and return it back to you the same way. From now on, I’m going back to my world, and I just hope that you still consider me as a friend. —t.o.

to the moon

I know you're here. I am sorry about what I have done to you and I hope you will find yourself in the future. I am sorry I hurt you and I am aware that the actions I have done to you were beyond unforgivable. I was too caught up being in my own element forgetting there was another person who wanted to be by my side too. I am sorry a million times and there is no other way for you to be happier than just letting you go and find someone else. I am sorry once again. I hope all the pieces that have fallen apart will come together once the right person appears in front of you. the person who wants to be with you 24/7. the person who genuinely loves you for who you are, and most importantly, the person who won't make you question your self-worth because you are more than enough. I am sorry I could not be that person for you. I wish things worked between us too 'cause there's nothing I wouldn't do to make you stay, but I guess it wasn't supposed to work out that way. You can get through this, I believe in you. I'm sorry again and again. (question for the admins, will u post if someone submits a confession of them barking?)