Friendship

Hi, actually I don’t know where to start it such a long story and complex mind to describe it out. I confess here today just want to seek for the answer : “ AM I ACTUALLY A FAKE FRIEND HERE “ I’m a girl who has a circle of friends, but only 2 I count as the dearest to me since I can trust them. But there’s also another one friend who I luv as well it just that we had so many things that’s not compatible with each other and I don’t share her my secret. Let’s called her Angel. Even though I never tell her my secret but I swear I never want to hurt or dislike her in anyway. But the thing is that she counts me as her closest friend, she told me. But I don’t quite understand her and I feel bad for that as well. Why I don’t trust her?! Actually we know each other 14yrs already. She’s that type of person who talked about how she feel mad and upset about a person and within a minute she see them she smile and wave Hi as nothing happened. And yes, as the listener I feel guilt. And that’s one of the things I’m scare to trust her. Btw Angel is also such a sweet person tho, she always made gift to our classmates. But the things is she’s an over thinker and always upset. She upset because I hang out with one of my friends without her. But actually she always hang out with her friends as well and I never say anything. She’s also that type of person who would say “ I’m not a talker, I’m a thinker” but every time she always share about sad stuff and friends things with such a caption that made me think she talked about me or other friends by writing the caption with “ They this They that” ( I don’t just pick the shoes and wear it as Cinderella here don’t get me wrong she just throw it towards me) I myself never like to put myself in such a complicating situation. But she just share another post with the caption as if she always happy for me and I never happy for her. As if I’m a fake friend here. And I cmt on her post like the response is just as “ I know u talked abt me “ and u guess what after the beef at the cmt she text me and ask me to hang out with her like nothing happened. That’s all, actually I feel like I’m also in the wrong here myself. It would be such a pleasure if u guy can give me some advice

Feeling bottled up?

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