We used to know each other when we were young, but we didn’t talk much. As we grew older we’ve met again. This time it was different, we were so connected, understanding each other, having same opinion m, having same interest and having the same groups of friends. I wasn’t ready to start the relationship with him like the way he was, I was hesitate because I was scared that “ what if one day we broke up”. “ what if we were to broke up and things got awkward between us”. “ what if we had to go through pain”. These thought keeps me thinking every single day until one day he stopped. Everything ends because he had his own personal reason, he has choices to choose. That’s is when I realize I wasn’t the only one for him. Without doubt he choose someone else and this still makes me think how much I thought about “ us”. This is my story. If knongjit decide to post it please correct my writing because it is not that good and thank you I really can express my feeling without no one knowing who I am.
Dear mystery man, I still remember the trace of your hands that was slowly embracing me into your arms. It was such a wholehearted moment that I ever experienced, even though it was just a dream. The moment you hugged me, I immediately felt warmth from you already. I do not understand why nor remember your face however, the touch that you gave me in that dream was the best thing that ever happened to me.
Anyone want study buddy?
It might sound stupid, but there is something i been dealing with for awhile now. Its been 2 years since i last in relationship with someone. As a man, of course i want to get into a new relationship. but, i find it hard for me to date another woman even after 2 years of my last relationship. It's not like i miss my ex but, i just don't know how to love anyone anymore. How do i descript this ? - felt like u run out of love to give to anyone and all i have left is "Sorry , I don't mind being a friend with you !" #🔥🐼
So, I rejected my crush after he conveyed his feeling to me. It’s funny how the result should have made me happy, yet it turned out to be something scary to me. I want him to receive the sincere love from me but I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to love anyone properly. It feels like all I can do is just let me live with this feeling alone and he can just ignore me. Because it’s always better to never get started rather than having to leave him in the future. I don’t want him to be hurt. At least, right now he can forget about me more easily. -t.o.
Why I said it is green flag but actually it is a red flag? Yes, we both can see it is as green flag when we both call every night and it’s kinda understanding and sweet at first three months. The day I started talking to you, the chemistry feels so right, and a clicking. My brain started to pumping a serotonin and dopamine. But, I may click the wrong tap, not that you treated me wrong, yet you love me more than yourself. It’s real attachment and attention that you don’t want to untie. It’s red flag because you don’t love yourself enough. You love me too much that you upon your whole happiness on me. You get jealous easily. You wish me to be your shooting star all the time. Yes, I’m not perfect, I made mistake that I ignore you sometime and want my space a lots. You are overthinking what if chat to other guy? While I’m not. It’s unfair that we are happy together, but you are hiding those sad moment in your life alone. I love you and I want to know what’s going on too. It’s so hard for us to leave each other while we both still love each other. I hope this break up taught you to love yourself enough to discover the sun within yourself and shine in kaleidoscope ways, so you don’t need others’ dimly light to guide you. As, you finally can firmly stand on the ground and feel happy again. I’m always grateful that you were part of my life. Thank you for your pure love and understanding. Hope we meet again when you are able to love yourself more. I still love you, and wait for you.
Brings back the day that he asked me for an artist’s recommendation and i told him about keshi. He says that he also listens to keshi and his fav track is besides you. I secretly felt happy because it was my favorite song.
How many time do i have to say sorry? I don’t know why I’m the one who said sorry every time my ex texted me. What did i do wrong? Did i cheat like he did? No. But why do I have to keep saying sorry? Is it because i break up with him while he’s cheating behind my back? Do I have to say sorry every fucking time he send me a text that’s he misses me? Please stop haunting me. Im scared, fr. I’m wrong for breaking one’s heart, but who’s responsible for my heartbreak? No one. Please stop i’m begging. I always want my ex to be my friend, no matter how we end it. I still love them as a friend but this guy haunt me like a ghost that I don’t want to mention that I’ve ever been with him. The aftermath is a mess💀
I think I’ve built a very convenient Persona for myself to get by this world. Everywhere I go, Every group of people, or everyone that I met, I know what they see me but not in me, they find I’m a very polite, friendly, good manner person. I know this, because that is all my persona shows them. But their instincts would tell them to be care to approach me with their good intentions, maybe it’s a friendship or love. Their instincts would tell them, I’m not just they see, there are something more beneath that. And it’s right, I’m hiding myself under this forged amour because I can’t be who I actually want to be. How I was treat from a very young age had traumatized me to be myself. I’ve lived my life forged with lies that I tell myself, that now it makes me terrified to unfold the truth. Now at the end of everyday, I feel so empty, like an empty void that can’t never be filled. I named this “empty bin”, because that’s just how I am, loud but empty. I’m tired of this life. Even though I know life is pain and suffering, but how I still couldn’t get used to if? And it’s even more tragic if you live a life with full of self-deception. lately, all I could think of is, how to die and leave no pain to everyone around me. “How should this empty bin should leave?…”