Maybe that’s who I am

So, I rejected my crush after he conveyed his feeling to me. It’s funny how the result should have made me happy, yet it turned out to be something scary to me. I want him to receive the sincere love from me but I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to love anyone properly. It feels like all I can do is just let me live with this feeling alone and he can just ignore me. Because it’s always better to never get started rather than having to leave him in the future. I don’t want him to be hurt. At least, right now he can forget about me more easily. -t.o.

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ហត់

ខ្ញុំហត់នឹងការធ្វើមិនដឹង មិនឮទៀតហើយ។ អ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាយល់យ៉ាងម៉េចបើកទូរស័ព្ទសង្សាខ្លួនឯងហើយឃើញរូបអ្នកផ្សេង? មិនត្រឹមតែប៉ុណ្ណោះ មានរូបអាក្រាតកាយគេទៀត។ គ្រាន់តែគេLikeរូបខ្ញុំច្រើនដង គេប្រច័ណ្ឌហើយ តែពេលគេវិញគេសុំទោសហើយឲ្យខ្ញុំលើកលែងទោសរួចបំភ្លេចវាចោល។ ហើយវាក៏មិនមែនជាលើកទី១ដែលវាកើតឡើង ខ្ញុំហត់នឹងធ្វើមិនឃើញ មិនដឹង មិនឮតទៀតហើយ។ He’s the one. I swear to god that he’s the one. But now what? Staying with someone who you don’t know how many nudes he sees and saves just for the next time he jerks off or worrying he’ll fuck around when you’re not around. And you’re telling that i can’t trust him enough that he won’t do it when I’m not around? Kill me now.