How many time?

How many time do i have to say sorry? I don’t know why I’m the one who said sorry every time my ex texted me. What did i do wrong? Did i cheat like he did? No. But why do I have to keep saying sorry? Is it because i break up with him while he’s cheating behind my back? Do I have to say sorry every fucking time he send me a text that’s he misses me? Please stop haunting me. Im scared, fr. I’m wrong for breaking one’s heart, but who’s responsible for my heartbreak? No one. Please stop i’m begging. I always want my ex to be my friend, no matter how we end it. I still love them as a friend but this guy haunt me like a ghost that I don’t want to mention that I’ve ever been with him. The aftermath is a mess💀

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Where have been to for so long??? I am not okay here. I feel like I am all alone. Hug me tight please.

Never be the same

Thought I’ve moved on. Thought u have nomo potential over me.Thought I’ve alr got u out of this place of mine which is called “heart”. But lookin back at it, I still found myself search for you everywhere I go, skimming through all the photo of u I saved,

Painful scars 12th April

I know that your life is so different now from mine. I know that you may never forget about us, but you have forgotten your feelings about me. I know that you have somebody else beside you And I know that you may be saying your i-love-yous to him in different ways. Something that is quite deeper, bolder, or even kinder. Or something that promises your stay still together. I’m just here to write this one for you as I couldn’t think of any better way to tell you how I truly feel until this day about what has happened to us. And to tell you, in case there’s a chance that you read this—that I’ve forgiven you, myself, our past; to say “thank you,” and bid you farewell for the last time. I wish there’s a better way to tell you how painful that night was for me. That night when you said your feeling fade that my mistake...i been thinking why somebody else has occupied your heart that fast while being with me for 1 year you being with me. You didn’t have any idea that while you were saying those words, my hands couldn’t stop shaking as I’ve never expected what was going to happen. I didn’t know that the few days before that night would be the last time that I’ll get to experience a pure bliss being with you. That I’ll never be able to genuinely smile again for a few years. And that I’ll crash and burn. I didn’t know that such deep pain would exist and I’ve underestimated the capacity of life to hurt me in ways that I’ve failed to imagine. I saw how a moment changes, how time is fleeting so fast right before my eyes. That one moment you were telling me that you wouldn’t hesitate to give the world or your life to me. And then another sudden moment came and you treated me like I was the most disgusting person you have ever known. They say time heals all wounds, but the wound you’ve caused me is way beyond having a bruised heart. My soul got wounded too, and it still cries sometimes for what was inflicted on me

Sunflower

We’ve broken up a little over a year now. Why do you want to act like lovers, but afraid to stay? Feelings remain and I don’t want to cut you off. I long for you... sometimes it hurts. You’re here but you’re not here… We still talk but nothing is clear. You know exactly that my arms are always open. You can keep on letting me down and I will still believe in you. I guess, I can’t build a man when you don’t want to be one. Anyways, take care while we’re apart. Hope to see you in June

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Love and Trauma

"Why did we break up?" It has been exactly 49 days since the day you told me that you feel off and you cannot continue this. I've been questioning myself and there were a lot of question marks in my head. Back then to day one, you told me I was your everything and your life would be hell without me. I told you that my previous relationship gave me a lot of traumas and I was scared to start a new relationship because once I love you, I commit and put 100% feeling and effort into it. You promise and you were being vulnerable to me. I decided to trust you and love you wholeheartedly. Our relationship was so pure, lovely, cute, happy until the very last day. The day that another part of me collapse. The day that every promise is broken. The day that you gave up on me. How could we suddenly break up? You gave me the love that make me feel everything then suddenly it dropped to 0. It is sting no matter how much many times I am trying to apply the medicine. It's difficult to picture it without that person because we were having a dream together and I already pictured you everywhere with me. I can't help but think about you in the middle of the night. I can't help but fantasize about a time when everything was fine. Again, I am living in a trauma that haunt me every single day. A trauma that told me that I would never be enough for someone even I keep hearing you deserve better but deep inside me told me that "IF I AM ENOUGH, HE WOULD NOT GIVE UP ON ME." Thank you for giving me love that I always want to feel but never want to leave. It gave me pain, trauma, and fear but I am glad that we come across each other in this lifetime. We broke up but "Once upon the time, my heart was yours." I love you, a_y

Being used

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