Unexpected dream

Dear mystery man, I still remember the trace of your hands that was slowly embracing me into your arms. It was such a wholehearted moment that I ever experienced, even though it was just a dream. The moment you hugged me, I immediately felt warmth from you already. I do not understand why nor remember your face however, the touch that you gave me in that dream was the best thing that ever happened to me.

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Is it just me?

Everytime I see a couple, I start wondering is it just me who never had good fate in love? How do people got in love so easily, how lucky are they to be around someone they love. Look at me, I never had a chance to be in that position, I wasnt able to imagine what its like to be in their shoes. Everytime I start to commit in a relationship, all the experience I got are rejection, betrayal and ghosting. Those experiences scare me. Every time I want to commit in a relationship, my memory flashback and little voice in my head keep telling me: "keep it for yourself, love is not made for you." I hate it so much. I just want to be normal 😪

A clown 🤡

(This is like a note to myself) There’s a quote said don’t expect the happiness from where u lost it and they’re right. No matter how much u still love someone or feel like u want to give someone another chance just because u feel bad about it, just don’t do it. It’s not worth it. If there’s moment when u feel like u should go back, just remember how much u have strived, how much u have tried to moved on from all the trauma, how hard u have tried just to get urself back up again. I have come so far just to get over all the trauma that he gave me, now that I gave him a chance, he flipped on me and now I have to go through the same process all over again. It’s hurting and it’s embarrassing at the same time. He making me feel like a clown, but thanks for the lesson.

Irreplaceable you.

You were the best, you were the one who i trully “Love”. The word ‘Love’ is a strong word for both of us to use. We cross path as if fate brought us together for a reason. We clicked so well, it feels like 2 broken pieces were placed to complete each other missing parts. We both have the same taste in Movies, Music, things that revolve around us, We like to spend quality time together. It gets to the point where the word ‘Love’ grows on me and It gets to the point where i can’t go on a day without talking to you. You are just as cold as the winter, independent as you are and i love you. It’s hard for you to show your feelings toward others, you said it’s lame to ask for affections. but we eventually part ways. Months have passed, I started to live without you, I couldn’t move on from you if gets to the point where i have to date someone to move on from you, for godsake i couldn’t you were there everywhere i go, on my mind like a lyric that stucked in my head and i kept repeating it over and over. Everywhere i go i see familiar faces, where they looked like you, same glasses, same length of hair, the same hair style, the same way u walk, everything just reminding me of you. I was a fool to let you go, everything leads to regret, i should have never left you in the first place, i should have changed for you. You loved me, you moved on. I’m happy for you. We both crossed path and i’m glad. Our time that we’ve spent it will shine like gold in my memories. Irreplaceable you, no one can take your place.

Tired of relationship

ខ្ញុំនិងមិត្តស្រីរបស់ខ្ញុំបានស្គាល់គ្នាជិត៤ឆ្នាំហើយ។ ពួកយើងកម្រឈ្លោះទាស់ទែង និងមិនដែលមានភាពមិនស្មោះត្រង់នឹងគ្នាឡើយតែមួយរយៈនេះ (ប្រហែល១ឆ្នាំ) ខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៏ថាទំនាក់ទំនងរបស់យើងឃ្លាតឆ្ងាយពីគ្នា និងមានអារម្មណ៏ថាហត់នឿយ ហើយពេលខ្លះក៏មានអារម្មណ៏ថាស្នេហានេះសោះកក្រោះមិនដូចពេលមុន។ ខ្ញុំបានឲគ្រប់យ៉ាងដែលខ្ញុំមានឲនាងអស់ហើយ អ្វីដែលខ្ញុំចង់បានគឺការយកចិត្តទុកដាក់ពីនាងដូចគ្រាមុនតែប៉ុណ្ណោះ។

Do broken people deserve love?

I went over to a camping trip sometimes ago and I felt in love with this one girl. We still meet each other sometimes. She was spectacular, the most amazing person I've ever known. She was compassionate, kind and understood me more than anybody ever did. She has shaken the my wall I've built up to never love anyone too much so I can never hurt. I want our relationship to develop further but I'm not sure about myself. I'm just a broken person, depressed, wasted. I don't want to fix this issue by having another person to fix me because that's not the right way to do. Any advices?

If only~

I always wonder what if we met each other when I'm mature, will things be different? I was too immature at that time and a hot headed person. I would be lying If I said I didn't love u. I felt the energy that u might be the one that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. It might sounds ridiculous but I totally felt like it when I first known u. I know u loved me too and trying to win me back too. When we broke up, I hated u and ignore ur message even though u tried to reach me. U added me back even when I unfriend u and that friend request stayed there until u finally moved on. I totally forgot about u when I'm focusing on my study and when I went back and see those messages u sent. My heart dropped but too late that I can't go back. I had things that I have to complete first and u told me that u'll wait for me. I told u countless of time that I won't change my mind no matter what. I'm thankful that u tried ur best on me Bong. I'm glad When I saw u finally moving on. I'm glad that I set u free and u found someone u could spent the rest of ur life with. Though many years had past, u're still the best person I've ever dated and I don't want anything beside ur happiness. Sincerely, I wish u all the best in ur marriage bong. #2017

Gone as stranger

I don’t know how to describe my feeling right now as it’s very complicated and mixed up so bad. We both are not lover yet our action/chat conversation made me feel like we ain’t just friend sometimes. It’s been so long that we don’t chat and It’s myself that start this cool war with you bcuz sometimes I feel that you are lost interest with me and don’t want to waste your time with me anymore. I don’t know if I should still follow you or leave you because you never want to text me back as before. I don’t ask for serious relationship bcuz I know that we both cannot make it happen for some reasons. But at least we don’t end up like this. It’s hurt me so bad when I don’t receive your texts anymore.

❤️‍🔥“B” - T

I think you don’t even know that “B” is the nickname I put for you, it’s like 3 in 1 “Babe, Bong and your name”. Now you’re just “Bong” like everyone else, you’re not my “B” anymore. You know I actually notice how you started to lose interest. I’m a person who always stay quiet so when I see that you act like that I started to detach myself but still it hurts, it hurts so bad when you finally decided to ask me for a breakup. I prepared for it for months but when it really happened, I still can’t quite grasp the situation. Honestly, I’m so jealous of other couples they share with each other everything while you.. you’re so closed off. Whenever I ask about sth you always divert the topic or just ignore the questions. FYI, when I asked i alr know the answer. (“FBI friends” I have them too 🤷🏻‍♀️) I act like I didn’t notice tho cus I hate arguing. Well, whatever I hope you’re happy. And I hope you’d at least give your next girl the bare minimum. Please treat her well. Don’t let her beg for your time and attention like I had to do. React on her posts, post her, take her out, you know the simple little gestures. From: T 🥰