A piece of you

I'm scared because if no one makes me feel the way you did. but I'll be ok for a few days but then it hits me, I stop functioning and everything falls apart again. What hurts is that we never really said goodbye. We just kind of ended. And I'm afraid I'll miss you forever. But then again, you didn't say goodbye, and a part of me believes that means you're coming back.

Feeling bottled up?

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Because of her previous love makes her doesn't want to engage with love again.

Been loving her for years now even before she had boyfriend. (Almost half of my lifetime) I've been this far following her, waiting her to be ready to be in love again. And if she's ready to go again I hope that it will be me she chooses. She's already know I'm in love with her. I'm ready to take care of her, make her happy, comfort her whenever she's down. (She has problem with nervous breakdown) Well, I also think I've made her little happy sometimes. But she's an unexpected one, she seems happy today but then tomorrow she ignores me. It makes me feel bad 😐 ~It's kinda sad when I see people get to be in relationships with their dream person while I don't. Sometimes my instincts urge me to give up cuz the relationship between us appear that it would never happens. Thanks admins for approving.

It’s alright

I’ve seen a lot of post about suicidal thought and people trying to commit the act. I just want to tell those of you who are struggling out there that “it’s alright”. It’s alright, I’ve been through this before as well. Although I’ve never been that suicidal, the thought of “if my life ends, then many problems and burdens will be solved” did cross my mind. It takes a lot of willpower and strength to get through this phase as I would shut myself inside my room all day and night and on social media during my high school years. There were times I was upset with my parents, of them blaming me, and scolding me for various mundane things that happen in our everyday life. However, I want to tell you that it’s alright to run to your parents and hug them with all you have, they would not mind it even if you guys are currently in an argument. It’s alright to tell your friends and others “I cannot do this anymore. I’m tired and wanna be left alone”. It’s alright to feel overwhelmed and go through this phase, I believe we have gone through this teenage and young adult phase at least once in our lives. I am not telling you that suicide is wrong and you shouldn’t do it, I am trying to say that it should be your very last option. Wallow in your tears, your sadness, your stress, your burdens, your self-pity all you want. Most people blame themselves for not being good enough rather than actually addressing their fears and inhibitions. Perhaps it is easier to ignore all that is happening around you. I am not entertaining nor romanticizing suicidal thought, but if you still cannot find a better option or a better way to live your life, then it is alright to end it.

Friend-zone

I fell for you friendliness but things got complicated, we would flirt with each other, we went to places with each other and I thought we really had a connection. But the friendliness that I fell for became a problem, yes I became jealous. I thought I was special but I noticed that you treated other girls the same so I slowly back away and moved on. I dated someone else and slowly lose feelings for you, until it was our senior year that I fully moved on and focused on my study and relationship. Things were great until we met up again, I heard you’re dating someone new and you weren’t afraid to show her off. We stopped talking for a while and the next thing I knew, we get to talked again and open up about our feelings, you said you liked me too back then. But now it’s too late. To be honest, I’m quite happy for you. I wasn’t bitter or jealous but from time to time I wondered, what could have been if we were honest about our feelings. Then we lost contact again, I’ve broken up with my boyfriend back then and focus on my study, I didn’t plan on dating anyone after that but deep down a part of me still wondered to those good old days, the places we went to, and funny enough I forgot about you. I never got to say sweet words or appreciate your action but thank you for being the best year of my life, I was genuinely happy. A friendly advice to whoever is reading this, if you like someone please tell them, you either get accepted or rejected but at least make your feelings known to them<3

Always

we ended just like that. you know, when i look back on the memories we have, both the good and bad, i just realized it was the most vibrant and most alive i’ve ever felt. You said i’m a mature girl. You’d believe that i would feel nothing right now, that I’d be moving on with life. And I too, think that i would be fine for now. Maybe i’d cry later, for days on end. I know that i’ll break down every night, reliving you in my head. I would try so hard not cry when I see you. Then when i look back at this later, I’d break down all over again. I love you a lot, always will. I guess this is it. Our story ends here. I’ll wish you the happiest in life, always. L

Actually, I’m Jealous….

I would say that I’m a well reserved kid and always think it through before I take action. I’ve always thought that I’m strong enough to deal with all the problem. I’ve always thought that I am not jealous of anything or anyone around me. But, I realize I do care. I’m jealous that other family is having fun with their children. I’m jealous that their parents are always be there and give them the support. I’m jealous that others don’t have to deal with mental pressure. I’m jealous that things have never been well no matter how hard I try to fix. When will this end? I’m tired…..

Stubborn

I'm mad about the waste that happens when people who love each other can't even bring themselves to talk.

Upset

I’m a type of person that value friendship more than relationship , I rather not date anyone just so I have more time to hang out with my close friend. We share stuff no one ever know about us , enjoy each other’s company without saying a word to each other , inside jokes , hangout non stop…But then things change , third party comes in , she is still my friend but someone else has become her closest friend. They share conversations day and night , calling non stop , playing with each other all the time . I feel like I’m left out but who am i to be jealous of that , you guys seem to be enjoying each other company so much , why would i ruin that because of my feeling , I’m just upset that I can’t provide you that feeling , but it is what it is . I don’t know if you know that I’m upset with that but since I’m not good at opening up to you anymore, I hope the best for you guys even if we become stranger one day…

Do you miss me?

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