Same shit different day.
17.July.2022 Asking myself the same thing every single day "should I move on?" But everytime I see your notification pop up on my screen it always lit up the glimpse of hope inside me that one day we will be together.
I know we probably won’t talk anymore but I want you to know that I’ve a lots of things to tell you but I always left it unsaid because every times I wanted to tell you, you would act like i annoyed you. Every times we talks , there’s always been things left unsaid; day by day,I realized that we’ve lost interest in each other and the things I’ve left unsaid doesn’t matters much. I know I probably don’t cross your mind anymore but I hope someday, you see something that reminds you of me and our memories that we’ve shared. I can’t bear the feelings that you gets irritated with me and I don’t even know what did I do wrong. Lastly, no matter how things between us ends, thanks for being there once.🫂
17.July.2022 Asking myself the same thing every single day "should I move on?" But everytime I see your notification pop up on my screen it always lit up the glimpse of hope inside me that one day we will be together.
I’m clingy, moody, insecure, have trust issues, self doubt, and lots of mental breakdown, which people categorize me as “toxic”. I’m trying to change. I really do, because I’m not feeling fine and happy with all those toxic traits too. I stay up every night questioning my own worth and existing. I don’t know why am I like this. And I thought, you would stay. I thought, you were different. I thought, you would wait for me to heal. Eventually, it was all my thought. Don’t take this wrong. I’m not blaming you. I was just hoping you stayed. I hope it was you who would have been there for me, but you have never been there with me on my bad days, not even once. I’m too much to be handled. I always know.[newLine*]Let’s be honest with me one last time, what is your feeling for me the last few months we talked? Did your feeling fade away? Was it not strong? From the start? Or from when I started to show you my true self? My dark side? [newLine*] I miss you, a lot. However, I know being with me is too tiring for people, I love you so much that I don’t want you to suffer with someone like me. I hope you’re with someone better, healthier, happier. Someone who loves life, someone who will match your energy, someone who is normal.
Sorry for wasting your time and making your life miserable I wouldn’t do that if I could. I won’t stay longer than this and I am not sure how it would be, how it goes.. and of course I will miss you, I'm terrified of losing you, I really can't image my life , my body without you in it..., but I know that it’s time for both of us to move on, maybe to see who we are, what we’re trying to do , what we really need.. or maybe someday we will start over again!! I remember what you told me, if we mean to be.. it will be and it’s absolutely happen.. I don’t want to try this way, but I have no more rights to ask you to stay , to choose me, to not break this relationship up anymore.. When you are happy, I will be happy too.. Please always taking care of yourself.. Eat more, hard work, grow up and take a good rest, enjoy your day as always… stay healthy, and do whatever you want to… Cheer !!!
What does it mean when someone used to promise that we will be forever together. But then how long is that forever? Maybe I define it wrongly by myself….. his meaning of forever is different from mine…… Maybe I’m too dumb to believe in such words, such promise.
I really wish that was from you #KJ0227, You know We both follow “ Knong Jit ”. Cuz when we were on phone, you told me that you saw me follow this page already. And Since the day you’ve left, I keep checking every post if there is sth from you to me. Well…. Everyday, I still feel like sh*t without you being around and you know it clearly HOW HARD IT COULD BE FOR ME !! I MISS US !! I’LL ALWAYS LOVE YOU !!
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So we attend the school event together. And at the dinner time we all dressed with certain dress codes. She looks damn gorgeous🥺 I didn't tell her that tho, I might get caught. Then, there was a dancing session, and we got each other. I got to hold her hand and her jongkes as we danced to couple random songs. This was the best part of the event. I doubt she knows that I like her. Would you ladies like your classmates?🥺
Him: Would you still be with me if I came back to you that time? Her: Yes, I would. Him: Even after I left you several times? Her: yes, always. Him: why? Her: because I love you. Him: Now? Her: I have to love myself. Him: Maybe we would have been together if I were braver. Her: Maybe.