anxiety comes to me for the very first time
My parents don’t support me on what I’m doing, and this cause me anxiety day after day… what should I do in the future…?
I think the dep hits me again. I noticed by when my heartbeat started to go fast, sometimes I feel suffocated, I couldn’t catch my breath, I couldn’t concentrate, my hands get shaky, my body feel weak, I got lost of interest in making any decisions, my weight started to lost again. I hate to fall into the conditions but I couldn’t help. I tried asking for help but it doesn’t work, it only makes me feel like I’m different, especially when they try to be too careful with me (it looks to fake, I could see it) It is amazing how my mood changes too quickly, I was just laughing and talking a lot yesterday, but today everything become a sorrow story again. I used to think of getting a therapist, asking an expert on my conditions, but the fact that I was under control by my family and that I couldn’t ride or drive any transportation method at all, make me feel even more bad and useless. I also used to think about reaching them via email or phone calls, but I was too scared, it was too hard for me to make myself do it, so I decided I gave up seeking for mental specialist. I chose to be healed by my own. (I really did heal myself but there was a lot of time the demon hits me back and forth, sometimes I feel really happy and the next minutes I feel like k*lling myself) I don’t know what else should I do. Are there anyone who will be the light for me?
My parents don’t support me on what I’m doing, and this cause me anxiety day after day… what should I do in the future…?
Hi, actually I don’t know where to start it such a long story and complex mind to describe it out. I confess here today just want to seek for the answer : “ AM I ACTUALLY A FAKE FRIEND HERE “ I’m a girl who has a circle of friends, but only 2 I count as the dearest to me since I can trust them. But there’s also another one friend who I luv as well it just that we had so many things that’s not compatible with each other and I don’t share her my secret. Let’s called her Angel. Even though I never tell her my secret but I swear I never want to hurt or dislike her in anyway. But the thing is that she counts me as her closest friend, she told me. But I don’t quite understand her and I feel bad for that as well. Why I don’t trust her?! Actually we know each other 14yrs already. She’s that type of person who talked about how she feel mad and upset about a person and within a minute she see them she smile and wave Hi as nothing happened. And yes, as the listener I feel guilt. And that’s one of the things I’m scare to trust her. Btw Angel is also such a sweet person tho, she always made gift to our classmates. But the things is she’s an over thinker and always upset. She upset because I hang out with one of my friends without her. But actually she always hang out with her friends as well and I never say anything. She’s also that type of person who would say “ I’m not a talker, I’m a thinker” but every time she always share about sad stuff and friends things with such a caption that made me think she talked about me or other friends by writing the caption with “ They this They that” ( I don’t just pick the shoes and wear it as Cinderella here don’t get me wrong she just throw it towards me) I myself never like to put myself in such a complicating situation. But she just share another post with the caption as if she always happy for me and I never happy for her. As if I’m a fake friend here. And I cmt on her post like the response is just as “ I know u talked abt me “ and u guess what after the beef at the cmt she text me and ask me to hang out with her like nothing happened. That’s all, actually I feel like I’m also in the wrong here myself. It would be such a pleasure if u guy can give me some advice
Sorry for wasting your time and making your life miserable I wouldn’t do that if I could. I won’t stay longer than this and I am not sure how it would be, how it goes.. and of course I will miss you, I'm terrified of losing you, I really can't image my life , my body without you in it..., but I know that it’s time for both of us to move on, maybe to see who we are, what we’re trying to do , what we really need.. or maybe someday we will start over again!! I remember what you told me, if we mean to be.. it will be and it’s absolutely happen.. I don’t want to try this way, but I have no more rights to ask you to stay , to choose me, to not break this relationship up anymore.. When you are happy, I will be happy too.. Please always taking care of yourself.. Eat more, hard work, grow up and take a good rest, enjoy your day as always… stay healthy, and do whatever you want to… Cheer !!!
I've told myself to move on and give up on you. I've tried my best to forget you, to ignore you and to not talking to you. 🥺🥺🥺 BUT - Can you tell me why I can't take my eyes off from you? - Why I can't let you go? - Why my heart is hurting all the time that I miss you? - Why you don't care about me even a bit? - Why why and why? All the questions keep appearing in my mind every late night that I can't sleep. I am about to feel depressed with this stupid one-side lover. I am about to lose my happy signature because of you. I sometimes ask myself that why do you become this importance to me until I almost lose myself. The answer is loving someone without reasons called as real LOVE that's why I can't find any solution to solve this matter. Anyway, now I feel so hard, I wish you can comfort me and going on with me 🥺
I'm sorry that you have to deal with my bullshit. I didn't realize I have a lot of bullshit. I'm not that type of person, I swear. You raised your voice saying “ I'm dealing with your bullshit everyday, dealing with your bullshit is tiring. I thought you were not that type of person.”. I'm sorry, I was just telling you how my day was like how you always tell me about yours. I didn't mean to rant on you or maybe I sounded like one and if so, I thought you would listen to me and comfort me like other couples do but it's okay as long as you still love me, I don't mind. I was blinded by the illusion of you that I created in my mind.
Bae, I wish one day you can figure out that you can find a lot of stars that is bright as the moon but you’ll never seen the moon that is never give up on you in every the dark night. So thus, Take a good care of someone who truly when everything is still fine. Don’t leave them behind until they’re no longer love you, don’t be regret over the thing that you did. I bet once they left, They’d definitely never get back to somewhere that is full of pain. Can you remember there was a person who always beg and fight just for your attention? I guess, you obviously think that they just want the attention but the reality is they only want to spend sometime with you. You’ll never understand how hard it is trying to chase after theirs lover.
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Is it even real?