The good guy

ធ្លាប់ជួបមនុស្សដែលអ្នកតែងតែប្រាថ្នាអត់? យើងធ្លាប់តែស្រឡាញ់មនុស្សម្នាក់ហើយ ចូលចិត្តស្រឡាញ់ម្នាក់ហ្នឹងក្នុងរូបភាពនៃការស្រម៉ៃរបស់ខ្លួនឯង ដែលយើងហៅថា "Falling in love with the idea of the person"។ ប៉ុន្តែអ្នកធ្លាប់គិតអត់ថាមនុស្សដែលអ្នកសម្រម៉ៃក្នុងខួរក្បាលហ្នឹង អាចនឹងជាមនុស្សពិតប្រាកដក្នុងជីវិតពិត? សង្ឃឹមតិចណាស់មែនអត់? អ្នកក៏ធ្លាប់ស្រម៉ៃថា បើម្នាក់ហ្នឹងចេះសួរសុខទុក្ខយើងរាល់ថ្ងៃ បារម្ភ ផ្ដល់ក្ដីស្រឡាញ់ នាំយើងញ៉ាំអីដែលយើងចូលចិត្ត សួរនាំពីអ្វីគ្រប់យ៉ាងដែលយើងចង់បាន លើកទឹកចិត្តយើងរហូតក្នុងការងារ ឬអ្វីដែលយើងធ្វើ...មិនដឹងយើងស្រឡាញ់ម្នាក់ហ្នឹងប៉ុណ្ណាទេ។ ជឿអត់ថាការស្រម៉ៃមួយហ្នឹងក្លាយជាការពិត? មិនដឹងថាទេវតាទើបតែស្ដាប់ឮពាក្យបន់ស្រន់របស់ខ្ញុំឬយ៉ាងណាទេ ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំក៏បានជួបម្នាក់នោះ។ គេមិនមែនស្រឡាញ់តែខ្ញុំទេ គេយកចិត្តទុកដាក់ទាំងគ្រួសារខ្ញុំ គេល្អមករហូត ព្រោះមិនមែនជាសកម្មភាពដែលយើងធ្លាប់ឃើញមនុស្សប្រុសល្អដាក់យើងតែដំបូងទេ។ គេបន្តសកម្មភាពនោះច្រើនខែណាស់។ ពេលវេលាចេះតែដើរទៅមុខ ទង្វើរបស់គេមិនមែនខ្សោយទៅៗទេ ប៉ុន្តែគេកាន់តែល្អជាងមុន កាន់ធ្វើឲខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ថា ម្នាក់នេះខុសពីអ្នកដទៃ។ ខ្ញុំចាប់អារម្មណ៍ដឹងថាគេជា មនុស្សដែលខ្ញុំតែងតែប្រាថ្នា ជាមនុស្សដែលខ្ញុំហៅថា "idea of the person I love"។ ពេលដែលខ្ញុំដឹងហើយ ខ្ញុំបានផ្ដល់ឱកាសឲខ្លួនឯងបើកចិត្តទទួលយកគេ ព្រោះខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ថា ខ្ញុំនិងគេដូចជា 2 broken souls ជួបគ្នាចឹង។ ខ្ញុំគិតថាដល់ពេលដែលអាចសាកទៅជិតគេជាងនេះ ស្គាល់ពីគេជាងនេះ ទើបពួកយើងបានជួបគ្នានៅក្រៅ។ ការដែលជួបគ្នានៅក្រៅ គេក៏នៅតែល្អចឹង និយាយទៅដូច បានជួបការស្រម៉ៃខ្លួនឯងក្នុងជីវិតពិតចឹង។ តែអ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាដឹងថាចម្លែកម៉េចអត់? អារម្មណ៍ខ្ញុំ!! គឺវា!! អត់មាន😞។ ឲនិយាយថាម៉េចទៅ?? ខ្ញុំប្រហែលជាអត់ស្រឡាញ់គេទេ!! ហើយអ្នកអានឆ្ងល់អត់ ថាម៉េចអត់ស្រឡាញ់បើល្អចឹងហើយ?? ខ្ញុំឆ្លើយអត់ចេញទេ។ គ្រាន់តែដឹងថាខ្ញុំបានប្រើពេលវេលា ព្យាយាមស្រឡាញ់គាត់ ព្រោះខ្ញុំដឹងក្នុងចិត្តថាគាត់ជាមនុស្សដ៏សែនល្អ ហើយខ្ញុំមិនដឹងពេលណាបានជួបមនុស្សល្អដូចគាត់ទៀតទេ។ ខ្ញុំចាប់ផ្ដើមកុហកខ្លួនឯង ថាប្រហែលជាមិនទាន់ស្រឡាញ់ ឬត្រូវការពេលបន្តិចទៀត...។ ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំអាត្មានិយមណាស់! បើអត់ស្រឡាញ់គេហើយ ម៉េចមិនប្រាប់គេ? ខ្ញុំអត់ទាន់ចង់បដិសេធព្រោះខ្ញុំចង់ស្រឡាញ់គេវិញដូចគ្នា។ អ្នកណាចង់បោះចោលមនុស្សល្អចឹង? មកដល់ពេលហ្នឹងទើបយល់ថាទេវតាឆ្លើយតបហ្នឹងការប្រាថ្នារបស់ខ្ញុំ ដោយឲខ្ញុំជួបមនុស្សក្នុងក្ដីស្រម៉ៃ ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំភ្លេចគិតថា ស្នេហាមិនមែនស្រឡាញ់តែម្ខាងទេ។ ខ្ញុំតែងសុំឲជួបមនុស្សដែលស្រឡាញ់ខ្ញុំ ប៉ុន្តែ ខ្ញុំមិនដែលធ្លាប់ប្រាថ្នាឲជួបមនុស្សដែលខ្លួនស្រឡាញ់ទេ។ យើងពិតជាមិនអាចព្រោះតែគេជាមនុស្សល្អ ត្រូវកុហកគេ និងកុហកខ្លួនឯងដើម្បីបោកប្រាស់ក្ដីស្រឡាញ់របស់គេទេ។ ចុងក្រោយគឺខ្ញុំសម្រេចចិត្ត និយាយការពិត ព្រោះទោះយូរប៉ុណ្ណាក៏មិនអាចឲចិត្តនេះស្រឡាញ់គេ ដូចដែលគេស្រឡាញ់ខ្ញុំដែរ។ ពួកយើងមាននិស្ស័យត្រឹមស្គាល់ បេះដូងគ្នា តែក៏មិនបានមានពេលវេលានៅក្បែរ ថែរក្សាយូរដែរ។ ខ្ញុំដឹងថាមនុស្សល្អមិនងាយរកបាន ប៉ុន្តែព្រោះតែអ្នកជាមនុស្សល្អ ខ្ញុំរឹតតែចង់ឲអ្នកជួបនឹងមនុស្សដែលអាចផ្ដល់ក្ដីស្រឡាញ់ឲអ្នកវិញដូចគ្នា។ និយាយដល់ចំណុចនេះទើបដឹងថា ក្ដីស្រឡាញ់គឺឋិតនៅលើយើងខ្លួនឯង វាអត់ឋិតនៅលើទង្វើរបស់ម្ខាងទៀតទេ ព្រោះមិនថាគេល្អយ៉ាងណា អាក្រក់យ៉ាងណា, បើស្រឡាញ់គឺស្រឡាញ់ បើអត់គឺអត់ហើយ។ រឿងនេះដូច តួឯកស្រី បដិសេធតួរងប្រុសចឹង។ អ្នកមើលឆ្ងល់ណាស់ម៉េចតួឯកស្រី មិនស្រឡាញ់តួរងប្រុសហ្នឹងចឹង ទាំងដែលតួរងប្រុសលះបង់គ្រប់យ៉ាង ហើយល្អគ្រប់10។ ពេលនេះខ្ញុំយល់អារម្មណ៍ហ្នឹងហើយ គ្រាន់តែរឿងខ្ញុំគ្មានតួឯកប្រុសទេ ហើយក៏មិនដឹងថា ថ្ងៃក្រោយតួឯកប្រុស ចេញមុខឲអ្នកទាំងអស់គ្នាអានឬក៏អត់ដែរ។ ដឹងត្រឹមថា I feel stupid for letting a good guy go, but at least I don't lie to anybody.

Feeling bottled up?

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What am I to you?

I've been trying so hard these few months to win your heart but I feel so tired now. Someday you make me feel like you wanted me and another day u act like I'm nothing to you. Yeah I've changed a lot for you. From a girl who easily get mad to be a calm one because you never give a fu*ck about my feelings. You never care if I'm okay or not. What u said to me always so mean and I used to cry every night about that but still choose to forgive and text to you first in the next morning. You said you don't want to lose me but why I see no efforts at all to me ?. I don't mind to be just friend to you as long as you care about me but you seem not. I will not be able to move on now but I just wanted to remind you that maybe one day I can finally walk away because the patient is always under limited. I tried my best to keep you since the first day until now but if you still act like this sorry maybe I have to lose you to find me. Dear my little star! From me @your bestie 😊

New peace, new problem

At times, people mention how time heals, and I used to wonder how easily they could say that without understanding what I was going through. My problems felt small in the grand scheme of the universe, yet they were enormous in my miniature world. Despite this, I pressed on, with an inner longing to experience the beauty and terror of life. It's remarkable how unpredictable our futures can be. The me from last year would never have imagined the life I am having today. I've found peace within myself and with those around me, but as things improve, new problems arise to occupy my thoughts. I remind myself not to let these concerns disrupt my newfound peace, knowing that when I look back on my current self a year from now, these little details will likely be forgotten. So, yes, time does indeed have a healing effect even if it doesn’t look like it would help.

dear you...

Trust me, if I could turn back time to the moment we're together, i would hold you longer, hug you tighter, kiss you more and tell you how I feel. Our moment might be short but trust me, you have a special place in my heart, always. Because everytime I look into your eyes, i could still see "us". I dont regret meeting you, i regret not be able to tell you how i feel toward you. Thank for all these moment we had. And in the end we're just stranger who know each other a little bit more than anyone else. A stranger with memories. </3

Block

Why you keep block and unblock me? What did I do wrong? Or what did you do wrong? What you feel? What you think? Are you trying to show you have move on? So you unblock. Then the guilt build up because you know you have hurt me, broke our bond for no valid reason? You can’t face me because you know what you did? You keep showing that person off, you keep saying you felt heart to heart not just appearance. You keep saying they accept you for who you are but all that person do is remain silent. Seem like their love have change you or you are trying to change yourself for them? Does anything remind you of us? But you can’t make yourself turn around, you keep putting up with your ego. So you’re going to keep fooling yourself that they are better? That you are better with them? and just going to block again? Or this person is the one you truly been looking for? And what we had was nothing? Even after all this time I did nothing, keep praying all the best for you, never intrude you with all the new people you try to build with, stand and watch my seat being displaced, the person I love switching to someone else. Is the present of me that irritating that you have to keep cutting me off?

Your new favorite person

You show that you love that person You being grateful you that person You appreciate that that person love you, accept you for who you are. But one thing you don’t realize is that you get to be with that person when you have a new fancy house, a nice luxurious car, bank acc, brand new phone and many more And one thing that you forgot or trying to forget is the person who chose you since you had nothing and will alway choose you.

At least we look at the same moon 🌒

We used to be best buddies but look at us now, we are stranger with unforgettable memories. You are now starting a new life with new people but me, myself and I still struggling with the pain you gave:) the love you gave, the things you gave, how much i’ve suffered because of you I'll count it as memorable moments I was with you❤️ We shared things tgt. We enjoyed a day tgt but at the end it’s only stupid me who’s waiting for you to comeback even though I know you’ll never comeback, I'm still praying for you from the darkest place you couldn’t see. You were my enchanté 💟

Freedom

Being in a relationships mean to understand each other’s need, love, affection and the freedom they wanted. But sometimes I wanted you to understand that I also need your love and affection back. There are days where I just felt like I’m in love alone. Everybody is busy, and I tried to understand that. And yeah, sometimes I know you’re just fake busying, I knew about it but I just stay silent so that you can have your freedom. But I don’t get why the type of freedom you’re doing is just to go around and flirt others, following new people on sns, text with them while you’re just ignoring me, who patiently waiting for your text. Should I let you go?

Attracted to Introvert is a karma

Fall in love with introverts is hard. Even you may know where they study or work, you probably can’t see them often. Even you may know their real name, they probably use fake name on social media. You can try stalking their friends or family members’ accounts but it doesn’t guarantee a success. They may not even have social media at all, or probably use a fake ones that not even their circle can know. They basically live in a cave and are probably carving art on the wall right now. Therefore, if you find any attractive introverts outside, don’t wait to get home and search for them on the internet. You may not see them touching grass for another months. So you should take a risk, approach them and don’t let the chance slips away (like me). If you’re lucky, they may let you hear their voices or more…adopt them. So, be brave guys, be brave but don’t be pushy (‘cause I’ve been there and it didn’t work). 🥴🥴🥴