Why Yes?
Yes
I was born with the problem nothing they gonna stay by my side
Yes
I wonder how does it feel like to be loved and spoiled by someone? I wonder how does it feel like to have someone care and protect u at all cost? I wonder how does it feel like when someone say “ you are the world to me “ “ you are the reason I smile” I wonder how does it it feel like to know that after a long tiring day you actually have someone you can whines to? BUT I really can’t imagine someone actually love me . I can’t imagine someone having a crush on me. I can’t imagine someone thinking about me before they waking up or fall asleep.I can’t imagine someone getting butterflies in his stomach when I talk to or smile at him.I can’t imagine my presence make someone day brighter or happier. I can’t imagine someone smiling at their phone or get excited when we are talking . I can’t imagine someone want to see me everyday especially when their bad day. Cus this is ME. Why would they do that to or with me? I’m just ME. BUT IF I ever find someone someday. I can’t wait to spoil him too. I can’t wait to spend all the loves I have been saved for many years. I can’t wait to tell him how thankful I am for him. Maybe someday , Someday I can understand THESE kind of feeling too
It sounds stupid of me but I still want to share it. First of all, i dint know that he had a gf, and I dint mean to like him as well. But he always tried to be close to me. I didn’t know when I started to like him. From day to day, I liked him more and more. One day I got to know that he already had a gf. Yeahh!!! I was shocked when I first heard. Yet, I couldn’t stop this feeling even I know it’s a Kama to love s.one else’s bf. You know, he acted like my bf. Always called me even he had nothing to say, made a video call to show me what he was doing, teased me, helped me with a little thing and etc…He even showed me of his younger pictures and his family members. At that time, I felt like I was in a relationship. I knew that it was impossible to go further but you know I just went with the flow even I knew it would hurt me but I still wanted it. I admit that I was selfish cuz sometimes I also wanted him and his gf break up and I always thought he would choose me over his gf. Unfortunately, he disappeared without noticed. Since then, we had no longer contacted to each other for almost two years now. Since we hadn’t followed each other on social media, so now I don’t know anything about him. If this message is happened on his new feed, I hope he would notice it. And I want to confess my feeling for him right now that I still have feeling for you but I don’t expect anything from you. I just want to show my feeling. That’s all from me. And lastly, I just wonder did u have any feeling for me a little bit?
Where should i start with? From which part should i start telling? Hi! I am a 19 years old girl who still get beating by a dad if i ever stand up for myself, asking for my right. I am an 19 years old girl who still to all the scolding, mocking, cursing even tho i earn my own money for 3ys already. I never feel the love that a parents should be giving to their child. They only end up make me feel insecure about myself, losing confident from time to time and end up locking myself for 1 years 6months in the house. Each time i got hit by my dad my mom stood aside watching and sometime she act like nothing happen. She never teach me to fight back she only told me to keep shut and let my dad hit me and same go to my brother when he get hit by my dad. Dad often told me he love me that why he yelling and do violence on me. He never compete his role as he dad. He never even know what i am doing each day never even appreciate my success nor being happy with my highest score, rate in any competition and class..... What can i say? Ik i'm strong and smart. But i am a girl who lack of love. Tbh i sometime feeling to proud of myself bc looking to everything i did. There never a help from my parents.
I have crushed on him for months and one day I decided to confess. As a result, he didn't reject me and said "Let see how it's going on." It was the sentence that gave me hope to work harder to take his intention. But next next day, he told me that he didn't want to think about something yet and I said okay even my inside hurt me a lot. I cried for whole night and felt like the whole world was collapsing. After this hard situation has gone, I kept talking to him as normal and acted like nothing happen. After then, I have invited him for a gathering but he rejected since he had his personal matter. I also understood about that situation. However, since that day, I didn't text him anymore plus he also didn't text me so I decided badly to MOVE ON. It is so hard for me to suddenly give up on him but I know clearly that no matter how hard I try, I still can't be good enough for him because I am not his type and his intention is not for me. Anyway, sorry for not saying Goodbye and telling you that I have give up on you because I afraid that when I text you, I will fall for u again. I hope you meet someone who you love and she will love you the way you love her. Time will cure everything. 🥺🥺🥺
"You deserve to be treated like the way you treated me. I'm sorry I can't treat you like that."
Thanks for always taking a good care of me Thanks for always stay by my side when time get hard Thanks for understanding me Thanks for loving me Thanks for everything U’re the best . Yet u leaving me now and I still didn’t know how to move on yet . IF leaving me made you feel good , DO IT baby . I pray for ur happiness everyday and night . I’m glad by Seeing you happy even with or without me 🙂
I know we started from stranger and now we also ended up as a stranger again. But before we ended up, you said you love me so much, you said I am a precious thing you have ever had, and look at us now you’re happy with someone new and you broke me into pieces. I used my pure intention yet you used your feeling to play with my pure heart:/ I am just not good to talk it out, but this time I feel dead inside, You made me think all guys are bad just like you. First you did goo to me, after I fell for you, you started breaking me. And now I just hope you will be doing alright after I’m gone, and also hope I will forget you as fast as I could:/