ជាក្មេងដែលប្ដូរពីខេត្តមកនៅទីក្រុង។ តម្រូវឲ្យត្រូវមកផ្ញើរខ្លួននៅផ្ទះគេ ផ្ទះញាតិ "ផ្ទះម្ដាយមីង ដែលខ្ញុំហៅថា កូវ"។ "ផ្ទះគេ" ពាក្យតែ 2 ម៉ាត់ទេ តែបង្កប់ដោយរឿងឈឺចាប់ តូចចិត្តវេទនាក្នុងនឹងពិបាកបងស្រាយ។ រស់នៅក្រោមជម្រកគេមិនងាយស្រួលទេ បងប្អូនឯងក៏ដោយ រស់ដោយមើលទឹកមុខគេ រស់ដោយការព្យាយាមធ្វើគ្រប់យ៉ាងដើម្បីផ្គាប់ចិត្តគេ រស់ដោយត្រូវគេសង្កេតមើលគ្រប់សកម្មភាព ទាំងដើរ ទាំងឈរ ព្រោះគេក្លាចយើងនាំចង្រៃចូលផ្ទះគេ។ គេព្យាយាម control ខ្ញុំ សូម្បីតែលុយដែលខ្ញុំប្រឹងរកដោយកម្លាំងញើសឈាមខ្ញុំ ខ្ញុំប្រឹងរកស៊ីផង រៀនផង ធ្វើការផង គ្រាន់តែទិញសម្ភារៈដើម្បីផ្គាប់ចិត្តខ្លួនឯងក៏ត្រូវគេជេរ គេថាខ្ញុំខ្ជះខ្ជាយ គេថាខ្ញុំស្រីកញ្ជើរធ្លុះ គេថាខ្ញុំហក់លោទធ្វើចរិកកូនអ្នកមាន គេចង់ control ការចាយវាយខ្ញុំ😅 នៅច្រើនទៀត ច្រើននិយាយអត់អស់។ តែមានតែអ្នកធ្លាប់ នឹង កំពង់នៅផ្ទះគេ ដូចខ្ញុំទេ ដែលយល់ថាវាវេទនាពិនណា😄
ហេតុអ្វីបានជាត្រូវសួរសំនួរខ្លួនឯងជាច្រើនបែបនេះ? ហេតុអ្វីព្យាយារកលេសល្អៗសម្រាប់គេធ្វើអី បើគង់តែមានរឿងមកថ្មីទៀត តើនឹងហត់នៅថ្ងៃណាមួយទេ? តើពេលនោះគេនឹងចាប់យើងពេលយើងរបូតដៃទេ? តើមកពីគេមិនយកចិត្តទុកដាក់ រឺ យើងមិនសំខាន់ រឺ មកពីយើងស្រលាញ់ដល់ថ្នាក់ចិត្តចង្អៀតពេក? មិនមែនមកពីខ្យល់ជាអ្នកបក់ស្លឹកឈឺអោយជ្រុះទេ! ដើមឈើទៅវិញទេដែលដល់ពេលអនុញ្ញាតិអោយស្លឹកឈើចាកទៅ។
So, I rejected my crush after he conveyed his feeling to me. It’s funny how the result should have made me happy, yet it turned out to be something scary to me. I want him to receive the sincere love from me but I don’t know how to do that. I don’t know how to love anyone properly. It feels like all I can do is just let me live with this feeling alone and he can just ignore me. Because it’s always better to never get started rather than having to leave him in the future. I don’t want him to be hurt. At least, right now he can forget about me more easily. -t.o.
I have been keeping many problems inside of me, not because I have no one,but there are many people who take care on me, always check up. The point I just want them live their happiness and I don't trust many people to speak out. People thought I'm fine I'm so strong, but I can't stop my tear when my soul mate hit the point. I tried to say "Oh I'm good, I'm fine". Sometimes, I disappear on social media also I stop connecting with friends, close people. Sorry for doing this, I need time to rest. Healing... Disconnected- may the happiness to my people.
Your good morning text, your sweet talk, your arms, your chest, your lips, your hair, your everything is my favorite. I love it when you call me babe. I love it when you call me just to rant about how your mom treats you. I love it when you tell me how your day was. I love it when you text me saying I love you. I love it when you hug me. I love it when you kiss me. I love everything that you do. I love how you switch your drinks or food with me because I didn't like what I ordered. The ice cream place we went to. The drinks we ordered. The future we talked about. The random things we sent to each other. The dark humor you used to tell me. The dad jokes you told me. The heavy metal music you listen to before you sleep. Every little thing of yours is my favorite. I miss everything about you, but you hurted me, so bad. It felt so good somehow.
I knew all along that you probably hate me but I never realize you would hate me that much. I'm sorry for still thinking of you after all these years. Just so you know, it was never easy for me and I suffered just as much as you did. Years passed, I thought we're on good term and that's why I always have a soft spot for you but I was wrong after all. I'm sorry; I'll never leave a trace of me anywhere in your life anymore. Live well and be happy !
To you my priority, since the day you left, I’m certain that I’m not the same person as I used to be. I’m sure that my feeling right now isn’t okay and it hurts me the most. I wanted to let you know that, you’re the only one who made me know what love is, you’re the only one who made me feel warm and secure while I was with you, you’re the only one that my love for you is still the same since our first day until now, you’re the only one whom I have any plans for the future. All of the sacrifices, efforts, and times that I put in, I didn’t expect anything in return, other than your love and dedication. I did everything just to make you feel that you’re the only one that got all of those things from me, not everyone else. I did everything just to make you feel happy, warm, and comfortable. I’ve never stopped daydreaming about how I’m going to build my life, buy my first house, first car with you, and marry you one day. You know what? I see you every two weeks, and when I return home I feel as if I've lost something that no one or nothing can replace. I had the feeling that I was leaving something behind that would never come back. I miss you, I'm upset, I didn’t want to return home, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You’re the only one, when I’m having fun and all I could think of is what if you were right here with me? I’d go on trips and while living in the moment, I allowed my imaginations to get ahead of me and I was able to picture you beside me and I got that feeling of “how nice would it be for you to be here with me”. To me, you’re perfect. To me, you’re beautiful as always in my eyes. I’m grateful you came into my life, I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me. My love for you hasn't changed, and no one can take your place in my heart, my mind, and my brain. And I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to you. Sorry that I can’t keep you by my side. I’m still hoping everyday that you will come back to me again. You’re special to me. I’m so proud to have you in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your photo is still in my wallet, and your picture is still on my lock screen wallpaper. I wrote these letters with a song that I used to sing for you, When you’re home - Tyler Shaw. It’s 3AM now and I’m still thinking about you. I hope you will come back to me! #NL
Since I broke up with my ex bf in March 2021, I never had any bf until now. Not because I didn’t fall in love with anyone else. It’s because I used to asked s1 abt feeling during I broke up. And the answer is “ death both side”xD. And yeah at the time he’s the only person that I chatted with, told him how’s my feelings, sometime cried while sending my voice to him. Then we haven’t chatted for awhile. Currently, And he just text me and get on with each again.
This sunflower is wilting… so love you, for me. Take care of your heart and soul. Some couples just don’t work out and… that’s okay… I guess…. as long as your life works out fine. At the end of the day, you are still a part of me. Thank you for showing up back then… I enjoyed my time with you… hope you did too. If ever our path crosses again, I want to know that you’re succeeding in life. I want to hear about your dream come true. My darling, you are not cursed nor broken. You are just bent as you were adapting to life circumstances. You are perfect the way you are so let nobody tell you otherwise. Love you, for me.