I have been keeping many problems inside of me, not because I have no one,but there are many people who take care on me, always check up. The point I just want them live their happiness and I don't trust many people to speak out. People thought I'm fine I'm so strong, but I can't stop my tear when my soul mate hit the point. I tried to say "Oh I'm good, I'm fine". Sometimes, I disappear on social media also I stop connecting with friends, close people. Sorry for doing this, I need time to rest. Healing... Disconnected- may the happiness to my people.
I still love you even we are apart for a long time. I’m still holding up to you. I want us to get back together again just like how brave I texted you, but the word afraid appears every time I think about it. I afraid that we might end up not talking to each other again. I’m glad that we are friend for now even I know this kind of friend just a title.
(Please read this from the bottom to the top-) #5 and now What do you want from me more ? Everyone had to plays a bad guy role right ? Yes I toke it so that you don't have to lived two lifes in one body. Our journey was the best things that ever happens to me (there is nothing i would change including the day i ask u for a break up) You were not the person i was once knew. i was always the problem (No matter what isn't it?). I should told u what on my mind & what is going through my head everyday right ? so that u can tell your friend and those people would advice u to make up your mind with me right ? There was one person i really loves, she was the best thing, i could share anything with her knowing she will be behind me. Going on a trip with her, Explore new place with her, out of all things couple do- i would do anything just to be with her- BUT YOU WERE HER - right after that there only one thing u and her have the same in common (was the facial). I stayed single and rejected every girl because of one person. i want to see her in a better place first so that i can allow myself to love anyone else. Hello and Goodbye.
3 years after break up, I realized i miss her more and more. Is it too late? 😳 #K
I almost contacted you again, but everytime I almost did, I remembered how we're nth to each other. Everytime I almost did, I scrolled through our chats and I saw how pathetic I was. Almost begging for your love. Everytime I almost did, I remembered how you would let me go back home alone. How you had time for everyone else but never for me. How you forgot everything you said. How you told me you would do this and that for me but you never did. Every little things you said you would do. It's the details that matters and show me how much you love me. Turned out I couldn't feel the love at all. I remembered how hopeless and broken I felt to see you never want to give me the title, to never want to commit into the relationship, to never think of us. It was the last straw that broke me. Broke us. They said loving someone too much will make them stop appreciating you, I guess that's true. I gave up my pride for you for so many times. Let's keep this last one for myself. Take care.
ពួកយើងបានស្គាល់គ្នារយៈពេលបីខែហើយក៏ចាប់ផ្ដើមជជែកគ្នាលេងពេលដែលគាត់មានបញ្ហាអ្វីគាត់តែងតែមកនិយាយជាមួយខ្ញុំហើយពួកយើងក៏បានជួយគ្នាដោះស្រាយបញ្ហាមិនយូរប៉ុន្មានពួកយើងក៏បានក្លាយជាសង្សារនិងគ្នាតែងតែនិយាយនឹកគ្នាគ្រប់ពេល បន្ទាប់មកពួកយើងក៏បានជួបគ្នាគាត់ជាមនុស្សពូកែលេងសើចច្រើនពេលនៅក្បែរគ្នាគាត់តែងតែធ្វើឲ្យខ្ញុំរីករាយគាត់តែងតែលេងហ្គីតានិងច្រៀងអោយខ្ញុំស្តាប់រហូតពេលនោះគាត់បានធ្វើអោយស្គាល់អារម្មណ៍រីករាយម្ដងទៀតតែបន្ទាប់ពីយេីងទាក់ទងគ្នាបានមួយខែខ្ញុំបានដឹងថាគាត់នៅនឹកសង្សាចាស់របស់គាត់ពេលនោះខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ភ្ញាក់ផ្អើលណាស់ទាំងមិនដឹងថាគាត់មានគេទេតែគាត់បាននិយាយថាគាត់បានបែកគ្នាហើយតែគាត់នៅនឹកគេម្តងៗទេគាត់ក៏សុំទោសខ្ញុំសុំឱកាសខ្ញុំក៏បានផ្ដល់ឱកាសឲ្យគាត់ព្រោះខ្ញុំគិតថាប្រហែលមិនអីទេគេគ្រាន់តែជាអតីតមួយសប្ដាហ៍ក្រោយមកក៏មានរឿងនេះកេីតឡើងទៀតគាត់បាន Mention សង្សារចាស់របស់គាត់ខ្ញុំក៏បានឃើញហើយខ្ញុំស្ទើរតែមិនជឿថាវាកេីតឡើងទៀតពេលនោះខ្ញុំបាននិយាយថាអត់អីទេបេីបងស្រលាញ់គេនឹកគេមកទៅរកគេមកវិញទៅគាត់បានឆ្លើយតបថាបងអត់ទៅវិញទេបងស្រលាញ់អូនគ្រាន់តែអារម្មណ៍បងឆ្កួតមួយពេលទេគាត់សុំឧកាសជាលើកចុងក្រោយនិងមិនអោយកេីតឡើងទៀតទេខ្ញុំក៏បានផ្ដល់ឱកាសលើកចុងក្រោយអោយគាត់ម្តងទៀតស្អែកឡើងពួកយើងក៏បានទៅញាំអីជាមួយគ្នាពេលនោះគាត់យកចិត្តទុកដាក់និងខ្ញុំលេីសមុនធ្វើអោយខ្ញុំគិតថាប្រហែលវាមិនអីទេបេីតែដល់យប់ឡើងខ្ញុំឆាតទៅគាត់ក៏មិនតបខលទៅក៏មិនលើកខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ចាប់ផ្តើមប្លែកចិត្តមួយថ្ងៃក្រោយមកទៀតទើបខ្ញុំដឹងថាគាត់បានត្រូវគ្នាជាមួយសង្សារចាស់គាត់វិញខ្ញុំមិនខឹងគាត់ទេតែគ្រាន់តែមិនអស់ចិត្តហេតុអ្វីមិនបានមួយម៉ាត់សោះស្ងាត់ឈឹង
To a person whom I met online, Since I wasn’t brave enough to send you this paragraph directly, so lemme just leave it here even though I have no idea whether you’ll see this or not. You’re someone whom I didn’t expect I’d meet, then fall for you this hard. There’re a lot of kind people in this cruel world and in my world you’re the kindest one. I may be a person who rarely say NO when people ask for help, but still I never offer anyone the help first if they don’t ask except for my family and my small circle of friends. But you, yes you! We weren’t really close but every time I was struggling, you were the one who helped me even though sometimes I didn’t dare to ask for it. Tbh, I’m the type of person who easily get tired of texting and sometimes it takes me days to respond or not to respond at all, but you’re the exception. For the nine months that we’ve talked, I’ve never once gotten tired of having conversation with you even though sometimes I don’t really know what to talk about. I have no idea when I first started to have feelings for you nor the reason for it, bcuz there is no such reason for liking someone. You’re in every song I listen to and there are always the fake scenarios of us being together that I always make when I’m about to sleep. I didn’t have any courage to directly tell you that I like you, but I think my hints have been telling you enough that I really do. I really hate myself for being the only one who lowkey got my hopes up then ended up disappointed again and again. I want to ask you what you think of me so that it’ll be easier for me to move on, but I’m really afraid of rejection since I already know what the answer will be. Since these days you’re really busy with school work, I know that you’re exhausted and stressed, and sorry for not being of any help but to remind you to not forget to rest. I might not know how to comfort nor cheer you up but I’m always rooting for you and will always be here by your side if you don’t mind. I can listen to your unexplainable feelings any time. Last but not least, I’m so thankful for everything you’ve done and I truly appreciate your presence in my life. You’re the main character in my 2021. I was so enchanted to meet you.
Your story #KJ0010 changed my mind towards the term “ depressed ”. I felt like the you’re grieving and may even blame yourself for what happened. But I want you to know that it’s not your fault. You’re only human. You loved her the best way you knew how. You’re part of the legacy her left behind. The pain that you’re experiencing in her absence speaks volumes of how deeply you cherished her (and still do). And every moment you choose to live fully and love deeply, you bring a beautiful part of her back to life. Good luck on your path❤️ It's strange though, when I used to think of a "depressed" individual I stereotyped everyone into one mass of sad but i changed my mind after I knew the term “smiling depression” in other words is “high-functioning depression”. What I leaned from it is that the one who is always outgoing, most bubbly, smiling face, telling jokes and happy is the one who most likely to struggling with it. Outwardly, they do not seem to have a reason to be sad, they greet people with a smile, and may even be capable of carrying out pleasant conversations. However, on the inside, they feel down and hopeless, internally struggle day to day and sometimes, may even contemplate suic!d€. I highly recommend you listen to this podcast. https://youtu.be/N3-L7G5mImQ
I love you Cr! Can u luv me back? If I were you I wouldn't ignoring her love 🤣 I wish we will together 🥺