Sunflower

This sunflower is wilting… so love you, for me. Take care of your heart and soul. Some couples just don’t work out and… that’s okay… I guess…. as long as your life works out fine. At the end of the day, you are still a part of me. Thank you for showing up back then… I enjoyed my time with you… hope you did too. If ever our path crosses again, I want to know that you’re succeeding in life. I want to hear about your dream come true. My darling, you are not cursed nor broken. You are just bent as you were adapting to life circumstances. You are perfect the way you are so let nobody tell you otherwise. Love you, for me.

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Where I stand

Day by day, I started to know where I stand in everyone’s life. I’m that friend who is there when they need something. I’m that daughter who is responsible for every big and little things inside and outside the household. I’m that granddaughter who is just a female. I’m that sister who doesn’t deserve the respect. I’m that niece who got compared with the cousins’ parents and got hated by my own cousins. I’m that girlfriend who loves too much and also being a little too much that sometimes it suffocates him. Every eyes and words that look and say to me, make me feel small worthless. Whenever i try to explain what happen and both me, I got shouted back, not listening to me, first they comfort and still act the same. It’s hard coming home everyday and get the cold look from everyone and no one in the house actually talking to you. I have to repeat myself over 3 times to get the answer or someone attention. The only time I get someone to care enough for my well-being or existence is when I commit suicide.

2025-08-14

Never be the same

Thought I’ve moved on. Thought u have nomo potential over me.Thought I’ve alr got u out of this place of mine which is called “heart”. But lookin back at it, I still found myself search for you everywhere I go, skimming through all the photo of u I saved,

2025-08-14

Meeting you was a nice accident

It’s been 6 months since we've been apart. I’m happy for you two that you’re still getting in touch with each other. Do you know? things become worse day by day because the memories are killing me. I can say I cried a lot when I went outside without any of you. I always go to the place that we used to go, and I know it was a terrible decision how I ended the trio with my stupid reason.I hope you’re doing great living your best lives without me. Sometimes, I wanna text you guys and ask if you’re doing okay but I don’t want to bother you. I still miss our friendship, I miss how we used to sing together, I miss how we went to the café together. Take good care of yourselves. To my little crab eat your meals properly and to my big gorilla don’t always go to bed late. I love you guys and I will always do. I’m glad that I met you. #From_H_to_L_and_R

2025-08-14

silent…

he left at a time where i was still deeply in love with him. he silently left me without a word. he left without explaining. all my texts were unanswered and all my calls were never picked up. gosh, it hurts to be ignored. its been 3 long months and i’m still attached to him. no words could describe the damaged my heart felt. i felt betrayed i would’ve never treated him like that. i couldn’t wrap my head around why he left me the way he did. some nights, i would cry because i missed him so much. i can still see his smile , still hear his voice, still feel his warmth and still remember his words… i’m gonna wait and pray that maybe one day he’ll return back to me. i still have hope because i still love him.

2025-08-14

I am just a sore-loser

Disclaimer: If you're sensitive to any pessimistic contents, please skip this. You would not want anything to discourage you. I do not know where to start or what to write but here is my story. I'm born in good family, somehow i feel my life is not. I do not if i am overthinking or i am being too emotional. I am youngest child, my age is over 2 decades, my parents are over half of hundred. I am just still live by my parents, accomplish nothing but troubles. My parents spent nearly a million of dollars for my education somehow i feel to learn n.th useful to make them proud. My friends at this point, they made the name for themselves, they have a family. I feel like i am a lose. i fail as a child, as brother, and as a friend. I do a lot of things to disappoint my family. I know my family is well-known but this burden has pressure me more since i have a lot of expectation from people. In life, i want to have friends to hang out with but no one want to be near me, i had friends only in high-school that was because i see them everyday after that we cut off the contact. Even with my parents, i seem to grow distance, i could not do anything to help them. I want to be near them but i do not know how or where should i start. People might see me as out-going, friendly, extrovert but inside i am just a boring guy, emotional sh**, loner. I feel like darkness is my favourite place, like Batman but Batman is rich while i m poor. I just want to run off from home, and cut off the contacts just to free everyone's burden. I see myself with no real skill or ability even now i am just too afraid to be in love too, i know no one wants a useless guy. When people ask me, why do not i hang-out with my friends? I do not want to answer them, just because they do not like me, i do not blend in, or i have no friends. I know nothing beside being in the gym, fashion, and beauty. They are useless since I am not a model. It contributes nothing as incomes, only splurging. I need someone to understand me, lend me their shoulders, and telling me "Everything is alright", and somehow i just want to be alone. I sometime feel numb from sarcasm. I am also afraid to be in love since i got rejected on every of my confessions, i feel like i am not good enough for anyone, i just afraid to be in love, afraid to hurt someone too. I am just too insecure about everything. so far, i think i have reached my opinions. I do not know what to say anymore Thanks for reading

2025-08-14

Final Chapter of Your Character in My Life

Regret? I'd say no. Because deep down I know you chose the right path. Pain? I'd say no. Because when I see how happy you are without my standing beside you, 'who am I to say "It's hurt." if you're happy?'--I ask. Miss? I'd say no. Because it would make no sense that someone, who hurt you, approaches you and say "I miss you". Love? Oh lord, No. It doesn't make any sense to love something you shattered, right? The only question to which I'd say yes is: "Is this the last time we talk to each other?" I'm not in a position to regret, miss, love, or even complain about the pain I've been going through. But at least I'm happy. I'm happy to know that I can no longer hurt you, and you're happy--even if someone else is the reason for that happiness.

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Dont know what the title should be, I just want to get it off my chest

Im not sure where to start this and i don't want ti write a-lot either but I feel like I can’t tell or discuss anything with my best friend anymore … the thing is whenever I told her about something I want to do or what im planning to buy, she’d always do that that thing or buy those thing before me and act like I’ve never told her about it before, and it happens a lot (stupid me just notice those action when I told her i really like this short and planning to buy it (she doesn’t say anything like she wants those too) and next two or three days she bought those without asking whether we should buy it tgt and even do a mirror selfie and send it to me, like i know it’s small thing but it still hurts… even with dudes… (fyi im a shadow), if i told her there is dude I’m interested in, she’d like oh I’ll add him too or let me a game or two with them too and then they talk and become close… like i don't know whether this is normal thing to do so im not sure what to think anymore.

2025-08-14

Farewell little squirrel

Guess It’s time that we parted our ways. I’ve really tried everything I can for you. Things I was never willing to do for anyone else... but I’ve been feeling so tired... I couldn’t see where I stand. I couldn’t see if things between us are going to be better. I couldn’t see your commitment, and I’ve waited for you long enough. So I give up. To protect the little pride I have left. Hope you meet someone better and has the same love language as you. We’re not made for each other. Farewell, love.