Is it hard to find someone?
It’s hard to “just be friends with someone you fell in love”…#S🪴
One upon the time, there was me and a guy. A guy who I could lose myself for him even my life. And also had another guy who always there when I need help. Let back to reality, when you heard a word “ love “ what was the most meaningful come cross to your mind? To me that was the a beautiful cloudy day which is became to bad storm with sec. The beautiful didn’t last, you are the one who was been in love one side while he wasn’t. I don’t know what zone we have been through but sometimes we looks like a couple and the other we became a sibling and not too long we became a stranger. It hard to blame on me while he was made me confusing all the time. The way he was taking care the way he treated me those actions ghosting me every night. I tried to talk to him about our relationship, he just pushed me away stopped not to talk. Before I have the feeling for him I have asked him many time about his personal life I mean doesn’t he dating someone yet, the answer I got he is single who not having much time to thing about loving stuff. I trust those with and I could not find anything about his love life on social media also. We talked we laughed we chitchat, hanged out, eating out but we never called that was dating. Even we went on the trip together just 2 of us. I was thinking about does man always doing those stuff with a girl he not even like a bit!?! Does he like me?!? If not why he took me here while these are couple usually did. I was talking to myself everyday thinking all about his attitude. And now I realized I have been used, I still have no idea that he was dating someone or not but I just no that he just using me to comfort his loneliness life. Honestly I knew that he was being nice to everyone he known, but there are some point made me think he like me by the ways treated me differently from other.
It’s hard to “just be friends with someone you fell in love”…#S🪴
I just started to talk with others so I could forget you but the more I do the more you cross my mind, I hate it that I always compare them to you. And I would still choose you. :) I couldn’t believe that you chose to trust others’ words instead of mine who’s supposed to be your partner who’s supposed to spend the rest of our life together. You know I actually cut others off just for you, there are some friends who told me bad things about you and I don’t even hangout with them anymore because I know you, they don’t. I was alone for quite awhile but then I make new friends at school. But you betrayed me, you listened to others and decided to end things with me. I was so disappointed but there’s nothing I can do because it showed me the amount of trust that you actually had in me. I don’t know if you hate me now or that you never actually love me in the first place because now you already blocked me. Plus the last day (BD) that we saw each other (as couple), you didn’t even want to talk to me or even sit near me. I feel like I’m such a fool for loving you, I saw many red flags from the start , since the time you don’t even tell me your socials to the time you talked about posting each other and many more but still I decided to act blind. I told you I was never in a relationship before so I was so clueless not sure what to do, how to act. And the first serious relationship? Now you just make my anxiety and trust issues worsened. You should have look at your cousins as example in how they treat their girls you know. See the difference from how you treated me? “If they wanted to, they would.” Also, whenever I told you what I don’t like about your behavior, you always got so offended and started to send me texts after texts when all I wanted to do was to communicate how I felt. That’s why I just started to become silent cus I hated arguing with you (bad choice right because we stopped talking to each other since then). Anyways, I really hope you treat your next partner right. Take care. My former ❤️🔥
It sounds stupid of me but I still want to share it. First of all, i dint know that he had a gf, and I dint mean to like him as well. But he always tried to be close to me. I didn’t know when I started to like him. From day to day, I liked him more and more. One day I got to know that he already had a gf. Yeahh!!! I was shocked when I first heard. Yet, I couldn’t stop this feeling even I know it’s a Kama to love s.one else’s bf. You know, he acted like my bf. Always called me even he had nothing to say, made a video call to show me what he was doing, teased me, helped me with a little thing and etc…He even showed me of his younger pictures and his family members. At that time, I felt like I was in a relationship. I knew that it was impossible to go further but you know I just went with the flow even I knew it would hurt me but I still wanted it. I admit that I was selfish cuz sometimes I also wanted him and his gf break up and I always thought he would choose me over his gf. Unfortunately, he disappeared without noticed. Since then, we had no longer contacted to each other for almost two years now. Since we hadn’t followed each other on social media, so now I don’t know anything about him. If this message is happened on his new feed, I hope he would notice it. And I want to confess my feeling for him right now that I still have feeling for you but I don’t expect anything from you. I just want to show my feeling. That’s all from me. And lastly, I just wonder did u have any feeling for me a little bit?
One Tip I have learnt and I wanna share: Before you let someone into your life, ask them this question “ Do you love yourself enough?” Because only the people who love themselves, can give love.❤️🙂 If they couldn’t love themselves, all they can do it depends on your love to have their happiness and they couldn’t give you the love you deserve, and if you couldn’t satisfy them, they will cheat by finding other to full fill their need ❤️🖋 Hope everyone find a significant other and treat you right, don settle for less❤️🌟
How could I start it? I'm more than confused by you and felt disrespect. I've never thought your notification would matter to me. I genuinely never believe that one notification would make someone's day. But here I am waiting for your notification. For all these past years, I have never tried to open up or try to make it work as I did with you. I used to give zero effort to the guys that were trying to get close to me. For you, I check you out, I make sure to keep the conversation going. I thought maybe we could go far than this. Sometimes, I thought of how you would feel to me. Maybe, he is shy? He is not sure yet? Maybe, I don't open myself enough? or did I do something that he would feel confused. I doubted myself as well. However, your behavior ends up showing how you truly feel to me. Rather than trying to approach me back, you act as we've never had something between us. It's more than enough that a girl could approach a guy first and talk. Man up! Man up for the next girl you playing.
Long distance relationship between us can’t go any longer. Isn’t our fault but we decided to end up this relationship. I am okay, I hope you find a person who understand and love you the most .❤️
I'm sorry that you have to deal with my bullshit. I didn't realize I have a lot of bullshit. I'm not that type of person, I swear. You raised your voice saying “ I'm dealing with your bullshit everyday, dealing with your bullshit is tiring. I thought you were not that type of person.”. I'm sorry, I was just telling you how my day was like how you always tell me about yours. I didn't mean to rant on you or maybe I sounded like one and if so, I thought you would listen to me and comfort me like other couples do but it's okay as long as you still love me, I don't mind. I was blinded by the illusion of you that I created in my mind.
I should let them go, right?