How could I start it? I'm more than confused by you and felt disrespect. I've never thought your notification would matter to me. I genuinely never believe that one notification would make someone's day. But here I am waiting for your notification. For all these past years, I have never tried to open up or try to make it work as I did with you. I used to give zero effort to the guys that were trying to get close to me. For you, I check you out, I make sure to keep the conversation going. I thought maybe we could go far than this. Sometimes, I thought of how you would feel to me. Maybe, he is shy? He is not sure yet? Maybe, I don't open myself enough? or did I do something that he would feel confused. I doubted myself as well. However, your behavior ends up showing how you truly feel to me. Rather than trying to approach me back, you act as we've never had something between us. It's more than enough that a girl could approach a guy first and talk. Man up! Man up for the next girl you playing.
There a big black hole inside of me which can't be fill. That empty part even myself can't complete it. U think having everything are happinese? No! I have and able to get what i want but if u ask am i happy yet? No i don't, Do i ask for more? Also, no i don't. I don't understand either why am i like this? I think everything seem to be enough for me but why am i feeling so empty? Why is it so dry?...... How long does this feeling going to last?.... I want to feel happinese too...
I know it's been a while since we have broken up but every night I still thought of you and how you have treated me....I don't really know the real reason behind the breakup but I really want you to know that I always have your picture in my wallet as a lucky charm and also I miss you so much. if there's a right time in this life I hope we can meet again
Growing up I never want to drink and smoke. Everybody know that it’s bad for your health plus nobody likes u if they know you did it. I’m a female , friendly and well educated. Nobody suspect me for smoke because I’m well behaved but deep down I’ve been addicted to smoke and drinks for 2 year already :( it help me release stress. I remember the first time I tried to smoke after cutting myself and it help me it make me realize that instead of killing myself I should smoke. Yes it’s a bad decision but I have no choice. School and family matter I can’t stand it plus my mental health. I hope nobody judge me for smoke and drink beers when they know it. I’m afraid everyone gonna find out about it and hate me I’m scared. Sorry for my bad English
Should have known u never loved me cus u never said “i love you” it’s always “love you”. U said I was controlling, stalking, when all I did was ask for your social acc to follow. U never go out with me until it’s our fifth months together and it was only that one time that u hang out with me. U don’t care when it’s my birthday, u don’t care when it’s our anniversary. U always ignored my chat for hours, days and when I asked abt it u always get offended saying ure busy and stuff. I stopped starting convo cus my texts were ignored anyways. And when I ignored u the same way or worse, u get mad? Did u consider my feeling when I sent 5hrs ago but last active 5mins ago, sent 6 hrs active 30mins..? It was always like that. I endured it all, all of ur bare minimum, breadcrumbing, cus I love you too much to let go. And in the end U decided to abandon me. What’s the point of a relationship when ur partner can’t even discuss anything with u and saying they don’t like conflict? And whats the point when ur partner trust others’ words instead of yours? I wanted to know whether U trust me and u chose to trust them. Did u think I don’t know what they were doing? I just wanted to find out whether u trust or love me at all. And I got what u’ve been thinking all along, u never wanted me. :) U just obeyed. :) Should have noticed when I said “I love you” and u replied “I like you”. And I should have trusted my guts and ended thing earlier when I had to spend Christmas and new year alone. Well guess that’s an experience I should have as I have never been in a relationship. Honestly, I really hope u get ur karma. I hope ur daughter meet s’o exactly just like u so u know my father’s feeling when he decided to let u have me but that’s how I got treated. Not sure if u know who I am but I really hope u do. :) From we’re soulmate to our personalities don’t match.
why is it too hard to be myself?
"Have you ever love someone and want the best for them? But you realized you aren't the best for them." This is what i can recall from your story quote. I don't have courage to tell you directly but i do know that you like to read here. If that post refer to me, i just want you to be who you are because that's the best of you to me.
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It’s hard to “just be friends with someone you fell in love”…#S🪴