Same shit different day.
17.July.2022 Asking myself the same thing every single day "should I move on?" But everytime I see your notification pop up on my screen it always lit up the glimpse of hope inside me that one day we will be together.
I should let them go, right?
17.July.2022 Asking myself the same thing every single day "should I move on?" But everytime I see your notification pop up on my screen it always lit up the glimpse of hope inside me that one day we will be together.
Thanks for letting me getting this out as this is something I can't normally share with my friends. I have been together with my boyfriend for almost 3 years. He's someone I can share everything with and someone I'm comfortable to be with. We are on the same page in term of life goals and other stuff. I have no eyes for anyone else or think about having choices because my life already suffered me enough and I love him. I long for someone who share the same passion and energy as I do and someone I can RELY on. My boyfriend is great but there are certain times that I feel like if something were to happen in the future, I'll be the one who has to take control. Those certain times and little things make me doubt if I can stay with him because I don't want to be unsatisfied after I'm married, right? I don't want to leave him but personality traits aren't something I can change. It's started to build up inside me and it affects my action towards him too. I feel like shit. ដូចគ្រប់គ្នាតែងនិយាយថាការហើយអត់សប្បាយចិត្តព្រោះប្តីឬប្រពន្ធពឹងពាក់មិនបាន. I don't want that. At first, you love each other unconditionally and as times goes by, you realize that there many things to look for. Love doesn't solve the problem.
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If you and your bf live in the same borey (literally 4 streets from each other) but he never ask you out also he rarely replies your text (4-12 hours — that’s ghosting yeah??) That means he doesn’t really like you right? The answer is clear as day yeah?
I've first known him when we were studying French in the same class, we're also studying at the same university and we haven't contacted or talked to each other. One day while the teacher called him and he didn't reply , that's the reason that I chatted to him by Telegram to inform him that " Madame call u xd , why didn't u reply ? ". After that , we were in touch with each other ask and chatted to each other, I also ask for his FB account. Moreover, I also chatted with him by Messenger and talked to each other for several topics but not so frequency or everytime. I've known that he's a quiet person because of his character and his FB account and I really knew that kind of this person! We always share something to each other and ask about each other's daily life. In addition, we absolutely would like to share some informations of scholarships, subjects or exercises. I think I was so surprised because we want to take the same major and have the same plan ! But I haven't known myself that when I chatted with him , I am so warmly heart and feel so good even if he chatted to me not the long text ! At first I didn't know about this feeling because I've just known him as classmate and schoolmate and we haven't met each other before by this pandemic situation ( school was closed since the first day of started day of school ). Finally, I've just realized that I have a mood on him ( crush on him ) but I haven't shown this to him because I think I could lose this friendship ):
You will never see this. I wish I could telepathize what I have always been hiding inside my heart to you right now. It is unbelievable that I lost you just like that. We created a lot beautiful memories together. You were my precious person. You gave me warmth. You gave me courage. You made me feel the luckiest. I was so proud to have you by my side. I was so happy. I still can’t accept the fact that you left me in the middle of the road after a very long way we had walked side by side. You left a heavy mark on me and now I have to put fences around it because I am scare to let someone get close to it. I really hope this footprint will fade away someday. Now, I am wondering. How beautiful and amazing it could have turned out if we were here together right now? I really want to see how strong and wise you could have become. I have always wanted to see the grownup version of you. We could have completed our bucket lists together. We could have had a great journey of adulthood together. Our precious moment could have been much more than this. Yet, at the end of the day, past should be left behind and life should go on. Perhaps, in the parallel universe, we are having the best moment right now. Maybe I will see you again in another life with no regrets like this. I guess, I will see you there. I hope to see you there. - owl
មួយជាតិនេះ មនុស្សស្រីណាក៏ប៉ងចង់រៀបការទៅ ចូលគ្រួសារមួយដែលគេស្រឡាញ់យើងដូចកូនបង្កើតដែរ… អ្វីៗក៏ដោយអូនខំធ្វើល្អអស់ហើយ រំពឹងថាបើប៉ាម៉ាក់បងមិនស្រឡាញ់អូនទេ ក៏គាត់អាចព្រមទទួលយើងដែរ .. តែប្រហែលអូនគ្មានវាសនាបាននៅជាមួយបងទេ, អូនបានត្រឹមតែរួមដំណើរជាមួយបងហើយចាំមើលបងរៀបការជាមួយអ្នកផ្សេង ព្រោះគ្រួសារបងមិនអាចទទួលយកអូនទេ.. អូនឃើញគូគេផ្សេង គេអាចពុះពារនៅជាមួយគ្នាបាន ចុះម៉េចបានបងសុខចិត្តបោះបង់អូន.. បងមានចាំអនុស្សាវរីយ៍យើងអត់ ចុះអ្វីដែលយើងនិយាយគ្នា អ្វីដែលយើងសន្យា.. ម៉េចបានវាគ្មានន័យទៀតចឹង.. អូនឈឺណាស់រាល់ថ្ងៃ បងមានអាណិតអូនអត់ អូនធ្លាប់តែប៉ងចង់នៅជាមួយបងរហូត តែឥលូវដូចគេយកអ្វីៗគ្រប់យ៉ាងពីអូនចឹង .. តើឲអូនដើរទៅផ្លូវណា.. អូនសល់អីទៀតបង.. បងជួយអូនផង..
I reached a point where love is not that necessary to me. Idk, i feel like I'm waiting for something yet i don't even know what it is. (my kiddo back from UK, or Angel falling from a sky ? or That kretttt Sound from ATM?) seeing people i know going through from one relationship to another one- sometime i feel like i'm just a NPC in a game. i don't have to feel, whatsoever... just be there and stand still. Someone said to me " if you really love something, beside of scare being hurt- you should go for it like you used to." - it's not like i don't want to, It's just people take you for granted for so long and you tend to lose a soft spot for them and that SXXT traumatized you. To all people who like me ~ i hope you take it easy on people who want to be with you - idk give them a chance and try be reasonable with them. (esp: cancer sign woman: They are the purest people i know (alot of them but not all) - if they love you- trust me- Even godzilla can't do anything to you) All they want is just being with you ! Btw, Go stream BIGBANG- Still life ~ Thank you 🔥🤍