My ex is my crush
I still love him....
To a person whom I met online, Since I wasn’t brave enough to send you this paragraph directly, so lemme just leave it here even though I have no idea whether you’ll see this or not. You’re someone whom I didn’t expect I’d meet, then fall for you this hard. There’re a lot of kind people in this cruel world and in my world you’re the kindest one. I may be a person who rarely say NO when people ask for help, but still I never offer anyone the help first if they don’t ask except for my family and my small circle of friends. But you, yes you! We weren’t really close but every time I was struggling, you were the one who helped me even though sometimes I didn’t dare to ask for it. Tbh, I’m the type of person who easily get tired of texting and sometimes it takes me days to respond or not to respond at all, but you’re the exception. For the nine months that we’ve talked, I’ve never once gotten tired of having conversation with you even though sometimes I don’t really know what to talk about. I have no idea when I first started to have feelings for you nor the reason for it, bcuz there is no such reason for liking someone. You’re in every song I listen to and there are always the fake scenarios of us being together that I always make when I’m about to sleep. I didn’t have any courage to directly tell you that I like you, but I think my hints have been telling you enough that I really do. I really hate myself for being the only one who lowkey got my hopes up then ended up disappointed again and again. I want to ask you what you think of me so that it’ll be easier for me to move on, but I’m really afraid of rejection since I already know what the answer will be. Since these days you’re really busy with school work, I know that you’re exhausted and stressed, and sorry for not being of any help but to remind you to not forget to rest. I might not know how to comfort nor cheer you up but I’m always rooting for you and will always be here by your side if you don’t mind. I can listen to your unexplainable feelings any time. Last but not least, I’m so thankful for everything you’ve done and I truly appreciate your presence in my life. You’re the main character in my 2021. I was so enchanted to meet you.
I still love him....
“The World IS Just Awesome” sentence on his t shirt
Now, I understand what is mean BFF. Since from 2019-2021, I had 2 friends ( Girls ) as my BFF . I love them as the persons that I can share every story with them and trust them that they not gonna tell to other peoples. Back to 2019-2021 , we are really close to each other. We went out to eat something, we call on phone tigger , talk about our problem , listen to each other . It seem like we are really Love each other. You know I put two of them as my beloved one . I always think them first . I want to make their birthday special. And I thought, they will love me as I love them. Because my action never change for someone that I love and call them BFF . BUT since 2022 , both of them are far away from me . We are not close friends as before . I don’t know why , why they do that action to me back . I really sad , mad , cry and hurt because of their action. I really unexpected 🙂. + For Person A : From 2019-2021, all the time I chatted to her, she always replayed me on time or late just around 1h -2h -3h or more than 4-5h . But since from 2022 when I chatted to her , she replied me in 1-2 days . Sometimes in 20h . Sometimes in 10h . She so changed. All the time I asked her to go out with me eat something. She always busy. First I thought that , maybe right now she are more busy with her study in university. But her action keep doing again and hsuan until today . I thought that she is my BFF . But right no . Because she never asked or chatted to me go to eat out . But she can go with other friends. Yessss , she have new friends. So their New fri is important than me so far . I chatted to her ask her to go out 20 times . She never chatted to me and me to go out even 1 times . I am the one who chat to her , because I want to keep in touch and our relationship friend forever. But her action it seem like she so cool that everyone like her , be good with her and always get good luck and gift from other people . And right now when end conversations or though that chat is not important. They just read my notifications messenger and not seen my chat till I chatted to them again . Your action so Perfect my friend. + For Person B : she also the same as person A . Since 2022 , she never read all my chat and seen my chat . But she can post story and share news or status on FB . But she couldn’t reply my chat or seen my chat since our conversation is not really end . I don’t that she totally forgot or she totally busy so much . But at least you have a Icon on app that show you which your chat you haven’t seen . I don’t know what she think who am I . Her action so me that I am not important friend anymore, because she have many friends that care and stay with her all the times . I am her BFF nearly 7-8 year but she never post a story with me or tag me . Sometimes she never mention from me when I tags her . But she can post story with her new fri in university. She can mention her friend when they tag her . But she never did that with me . So This is how we call BFF ? . Dear to my both Friends. That for teach me how to understand words BFF and thank for let me show how good and bad you are with me . You didn’t respect with and see how I love both of you . I hope you enjoy with your new friends and have a good relationship till last . #thanktotheownerofpageknongjitforleTmesharemystoryThathurtmesomuchfrommyBFF😃. #thankbeforehandadmidforpostthis.
A fictional character, who was inspired by a stupid kid with zero commitment. And now, that character is having some mental crisis. The problem is that she’s been doubting her life decisions and kinda want to end every sh*t including her own L… And as a writer, shall I just finish her or let her live fearing those uncertainty?
On the bed, there were my friend, my ex boss and I. They were kinda drunk and I’m kinda tipsy. We sleep on one bed. He went to the toilet then I kinda wake up as I’m the light sleeper but I can’t wake up cuz the of many shots tequila. He came back to the bed hugging me and laying his hands on my body. Then he started to move his hand and slowly touch me (my hands and my shoulder only). His whole left arm was my boobs while holding my hands so I hold his arm and and place his hand on boobs (he got big hands and I’m fucking weak for that). Not long after that, we got into cuddling position. He put his chin on my shoulder and softly touch my other shoulder then move to my collar bone then my neck. I was uncomfortable as my friend is on right side and he’s on left side and I can’t move but I decided to move and turn my back to him but I still hold his hand and stick to my boobs (I swear I don’t love him, I just like it when something is on my boobs when I sleep). He moved his arm slowly while laying it on me (we still in the cuddling position but this time is spooning). His face behind my back, he keeps moving his face that has newly grow mustache on my flesh. It felt good, really. Then suddenly he let go of me and went back to normal sleeping position (I was like oh shit, why but I think nvm I’ll go back to sleep). A few minutes later he came back, his leg on my body, his arm on my boobs and went back to cuddling position again. He hugged me from behind, his face next to me. (There’s more but I can’t finish it cuz I’m sleepy asf now)
If it were you, will you go to help ur ex if she/he ask you for a help even she/he alr had someone else ?
We broke up and you found someone new. It was a dark time for the two of us. I got my problem and you got yours. Yes, we start spending less time together because life keep throwing us lemon and make everything sour between us. Deep down in my heart, I still love you, I still miss everyplaces we went together, drink, eat … The parking spot that i park my car and we shared about problems… I missed all of that. Now that you left, I try to avoid all the places that we been to together… every time i when there, in my head, I saw shadows of your and flashbacks of you every details your orders, your favorite drinks… it hurt me.
Is my hint not clear enough or you are just not into me? Are we talking or you just replying my text? Are we gonna talk again if I don’t start the conversation? Do I ever cross your mind?