We broke up and you found someone new. It was a dark time for the two of us. I got my problem and you got yours. Yes, we start spending less time together because life keep throwing us lemon and make everything sour between us. Deep down in my heart, I still love you, I still miss everyplaces we went together, drink, eat … The parking spot that i park my car and we shared about problems… I missed all of that. Now that you left, I try to avoid all the places that we been to together… every time i when there, in my head, I saw shadows of your and flashbacks of you every details your orders, your favorite drinks… it hurt me.
I feel like everyone keep avoiding me and I have no idea why would they treat me like that. I keep wondering what did i do wrong? Is there anything i've missed out ? And I really don't know. And you know I now can feel the lyrics" I think I've seen this film before, and didn't like the ending" because yes, I used to be treat like this too and that's what scared me most. And I scared I keep seeing it and it repeat time too time, again and again.
I wonder how does it feel like to be loved and spoiled by someone? I wonder how does it feel like to have someone care and protect u at all cost? I wonder how does it feel like when someone say “ you are the world to me “ “ you are the reason I smile” I wonder how does it it feel like to know that after a long tiring day you actually have someone you can whines to? BUT I really can’t imagine someone actually love me . I can’t imagine someone having a crush on me. I can’t imagine someone thinking about me before they waking up or fall asleep.I can’t imagine someone getting butterflies in his stomach when I talk to or smile at him.I can’t imagine my presence make someone day brighter or happier. I can’t imagine someone smiling at their phone or get excited when we are talking . I can’t imagine someone want to see me everyday especially when their bad day. Cus this is ME. Why would they do that to or with me? I’m just ME. BUT IF I ever find someone someday. I can’t wait to spoil him too. I can’t wait to spend all the loves I have been saved for many years. I can’t wait to tell him how thankful I am for him. Maybe someday , Someday I can understand THESE kind of feeling too
It’s painful. How people does not notice if I wasn’t alright. Does my existence ever matter in this family? Why do you have to make me question myself every time to see if I really belong in this home? Does the thought of me going crazy ever cross your mind? Why do I have to suffer alone like this? I never get the answer. And I kept sinking down the hole of darkness. I used to tell people I’m so scared of the dark but now it can almost take control of me. I see no light. How am I supposed to keep going? Will there be someone who shade the light to me? I’m tired of trying alone. Trying to please everyone, when my whole damn heart is breaking down. 💔😓
Hey, I don’t know whether you’ll see this but I hope you won’t. Anyway, I just found out that u muted me on social media when I did literally nothing to you. Why ? I just completely on my own space but when I found out about it, my heart just break into pieces. I don’t know who am I to you, whether I’m annoying to u or else. I’m completely not okay as you muted me and treat me this way. I cherished our friendship so much we’ve been friends for many years, we spent our wonderful teenager life together. I remember I had you, and u know u had me too. It’s just a friendship they said, but to me it’s a really pure and beautiful one I had with you but since you did this to me I might be somehow annoy u therefore, I will no longer post or share anything on social media… so if u see this it’s up to u whether u want to unfollow or block me whatever makes you happy but remember one thing, as I figured it out I can’t stop myself from crying as I don’t know that is how u treat me as friend for years, as someone who used to comfort, help, and yeah u helped me a lot too. We shared tons of memories and it left me heartbroken and speechless of how 2years of miscommunication lead us to this. You know I have trust issues when it comes to love but thanks to you now I have trust issue in friendship too. Good luck!!!
he left at a time where i was still deeply in love with him. he silently left me without a word. he left without explaining. all my texts were unanswered and all my calls were never picked up. gosh, it hurts to be ignored. its been 3 long months and i’m still attached to him. no words could describe the damaged my heart felt. i felt betrayed i would’ve never treated him like that. i couldn’t wrap my head around why he left me the way he did. some nights, i would cry because i missed him so much. i can still see his smile , still hear his voice, still feel his warmth and still remember his words… i’m gonna wait and pray that maybe one day he’ll return back to me. i still have hope because i still love him.
We got back together last month and m trying my best to confront my feelings for him because he didn’t like my cold hearted behavior and now yeh I feel like m the one who try harder (completely changed myself) and been waiting for his late response messages while himself hanging out with his friends and completely ignoring me and very funny right?
I'm not sure u'll see this post or not but it always simple like the way u never see me too ;( I know that was along journey between us, being with you as I always wish but I know I went too far from what u never want to, feel like I'm the only once, It a bit hurt but I could understand we can't push someone to love us back it because u also have someone special in your heart someone that u feel different way from me, still I'm asking myself why I'm jealous since I'm not him. It okay to be hurt like this because I can feel your feeling too to be with person we don't want to, I always want to be just like him the once that u always take care of, the once that u never ignored ... look how stupid I think this never gonna happen stupid me. Ur happiness was always my happiness even with or without me :))
Your friend left me and let me live with anxiety, and you has the audacity to wishing me a miserable life? You should have know by now that your friend left me alone when I need her the most 🤣 I wish you and your friend live the best life you guys always dreamt of