My Own Thought

I won’t make this long, i just wanna share how i feel to the people so that i won’t have to stuck in my own jail. i’m not an introvert yet i often do things alone rather than asking people for help. Idk if i’m straight, gay or bisexual. I did dated girls, dated boys but it won’t last more than 4 months until now I realize that i don’t need to be in relationship. All i want is a best friends that i can trust share and do things together.

Feeling bottled up?

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2025-08-14

I should stop putting myself in ppl shoes

I have my own principles and I know others have theirs as well, but my recent continuous experiences leaves bad taste to my mouth to the point that I feel like I should stop putting myself in others ppl shoes. 1. I won’t flirt or date or try to win anyone’s bf just to feel superior. I just don’t want to flatter men by bringing other women down. 2. I don’t accept cheater, the one that cheated on their gf to be with me or have the cheated in their past relationships. 3. I don’t date my close fri’s or friends’ or somewhat ppl from the circles’ exes. Or even think about waiting to be the replacements of someone after they broke up. (It’s pathetic tbh) Story time: I had a long distance relationship with one boy, which later I found out that he’s been cheating on me with at least 3 different girls during the entire relationship. And I found that out from one of the girl that dump his ass after she found out he cheated on her. He dated me and her at the same time, but she caught him dating with other girls and she didn’t know i also one of his victim, she dumped his ass. After my intense research, I finally found her and gather all my guts to ask how’s relationship with him was like, because he had ghosted me for almost a week and I saw him posting and playful cmt with his “best Fri” (from what he told me ;). Long story short I was a home wrecker to his ex and so is other girls at the time. I feel very bad for being so, because I didn’t know that bitch is a cheater. He manipulated the story as she’s the cheater that’s why he ended the relationship. As a fucking coward he is, he never responds to me finding out he’s a cheater, I reached out to that “best Fri” of his directly. I reached out with good intention and was really polite and explain the whole situation why I want to reach out to her, surprisingly she’s acting bitchy to me and confirm that him and her are only Fri they’re been Fri for over 5 years and nth more. So I apologized her for suspecting her and later them bitches feel so relieved that I ended things with him, they start going public. So they started dating around February or even earlier than that who know? And the time I asked for confirmation from either one of them is in April. That means she know exactly who I was and know exactly that bitch is a fucking cheater. So, I realize some ppl are really okay with being home wrecker without guilt or shame. There’s some ppl are okay with being with the cheater who cheated on their partner to be with them. And my case also happen to my friends’ cases as well. Just because I won’t do that, doesn’t mean others will stick to the same principles as me. I was so naive. Another story time: my ex and I from the same class and friends circle. “Fri A” from the circle was always praise my ex of how well he treated me and when asked about what’s her type she always said my ex was her type. Some other “friends” often joke around whenever I had small argument or not get along with my ex in front of them, they always said that I should take a good care of my ex, if I don’t want him, “Fri A” will help take care of him. Always jokes around of how “Fri A” volunteer to be replacement. It was jokes after all I never suspected of her or let it to be the source of the arguments. One of the reason that my ex and I broke up is because I feel tired of being treated less and always second option of that group of Fri that has “Fri A” in it. I admitted I was jealous of the way he treated them compared to me, cuz I have to always beg him to treat me the same as he treated them. My feelings are never validated as he always choose the crowd instead of considering if any of his actions would ever affected my feelings or not. So over 6 months of our break up he came to ask me if we could be back tgt again but I didn’t agree but we kinda keep our relationships in a good term as a friend until one day he mistreated me by bailing out on me when I begged him that I need his company the most. I was disappointed bcuz I was considering to go back to him again as I can see his effort and he improved a lot after the break up. I stopped talking to him and ghosted him even if he trying to reach out to me. The time line here is that the last text he ever reached out to me is in July and from what I heard they dated around Sep or Oct because I saw they went on countdown trip tgt, meet his mom (in which I begged him but never happen even if we dated over a year, I thought maybe it was too soon for him that’s why rarely mention how much I want him to introduce me to his mom). Sometimes later, he and my “Fri A” dated, which I didn’t know bcuz I was on break from social media almost a year, and non of my close fri mention about it, bcuz they didn’t want me to know. I active socially media again and found out like 7-8 months later after their relationship. I feel betrayed, disgusted, and kinda funny at the same time. Not really surprised tho but it just hits me and everything started to making sense to me. It don’t affect me that much , it only helps boost my self esteem and solves all the doubt that whether I should give him a chance or maybe I was too harsh and childish at that time maybe I should take a few steps back that relationship would work smoothly. All these experiences teach me one big lesson “just because u wouldn’t do it, doesn’t mean others won’t, too”

2025-08-14

M

called mom and told her I‘ve been struggling with my mental health And she called me weak

2025-08-14

Hi Mishi :3

I love you XD

2025-08-14

Idk

I’m wondering if he hates me that’s why he blocked me. :) loved him so much still do but what can you do when a person want to leave? And this pretending that everything is fine sucks. It’s been 6 months and I still can’t move on. Really hate this.

2025-08-14

A letter to the one that got away

You will never see this. I wish I could telepathize what I have always been hiding inside my heart to you right now. It is unbelievable that I lost you just like that. We created a lot beautiful memories together. You were my precious person. You gave me warmth. You gave me courage. You made me feel the luckiest. I was so proud to have you by my side. I was so happy. I still can’t accept the fact that you left me in the middle of the road after a very long way we had walked side by side. You left a heavy mark on me and now I have to put fences around it because I am scare to let someone get close to it. I really hope this footprint will fade away someday. Now, I am wondering. How beautiful and amazing it could have turned out if we were here together right now? I really want to see how strong and wise you could have become. I have always wanted to see the grownup version of you. We could have completed our bucket lists together. We could have had a great journey of adulthood together. Our precious moment could have been much more than this. Yet, at the end of the day, past should be left behind and life should go on. Perhaps, in the parallel universe, we are having the best moment right now. Maybe I will see you again in another life with no regrets like this. I guess, I will see you there. I hope to see you there. - owl

2025-08-14

Broke dude

We both are expecting from each other more than what we both can offer in the relationship. We go through a lot of tough times and I get upset from her sometimes and today she told me to find another one who’s better than her instead of talks things out !

2025-08-14

From the one you hate...

I know u might hate me now and don't even want to be friends with me but I'm here silently in love with you and willing to wait for you forever. I'm praying for your happiness and success and I hope you meet the right person that can make you happier than I do and if you need someone feel free to talk to me bcoz I'm always available for u.😊 Dear my ICE💜

2025-08-14

My experience being បោកby ប្រុស

My ex is feeling proud thinking he បោកmeបាន but don’t worry baby ពេលបងលួចលាក់មានគេ អូនក៏ដូចគ្នាដែរ 🥰