From the one you hate...

I know u might hate me now and don't even want to be friends with me but I'm here silently in love with you and willing to wait for you forever. I'm praying for your happiness and success and I hope you meet the right person that can make you happier than I do and if you need someone feel free to talk to me bcoz I'm always available for u.😊 Dear my ICE💜

Feeling bottled up?

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Behind this Cheerful person.

Under the mask of this cheerful person, there a thousand of things that no one could see! She's been hiding and just keeping thing to herself because she don't want to bother others and afraid that no one will listen to her. She has been asking for help but no one can see it because people only notice the cheerful her, while inside there million of pieces that been broken. She feel so helpless and mentally drained. She hate herself for being so cheerful and bright even thought thing is not okay for her.

Is it even possible to like someone only years later?

Just as the title. We've been close friends for years, and just recently, I've realized that I may have started to see him as more than a friend. I really enjoy his company. I feel safe around him, and he's my go-to person when I'm feeling happy or feeling down. In fact, I'm a person with a plan, and when I was thinking of my future, he comes to mind too. I know it may sound very cliche but that is the moment I realize I may have liked him more than a friend. However, I'm still very confused because I've known him for so long, so why now? Is it because we've been there for each other because we've been abroad through difficult time so we comfort each other? Is it because I was worried that he may feel lonely or even depressed during the lockdown so I kept on checking up on him? I don't have any answers to this and I hope I can be sure of my feelings soon. Just want to share this in case anyone has also experienced this.

Dear My Little Seth <3

I hope you doing well my little Seth. I miss you so so bad. I miss the way we talked. I miss how lovely you are to me. I miss how gentle you are. I miss the way you called me my little Junn, Junn Junn, baby Junn... and I also miss your questions, are you tired? where are you now? what are you doin? have you eaten?... Even though we met by online but i admit that i like you for real. and yeahh, if we are meant to be, we will meet each other again someday. Please be safe, take careeeee, get some rest and dont forget to drink water a lot naaaaa. Sethh San, Anata ga koishī.

What should I do next?

I’m sorry but I don’t freaking know what to do anymore. I don’t know whether he has feeling for me or he is just being nice. I don’t know whether to move on or keep holding into this one-sided love. I want to move on before I fall for him harder than this, but the love I have for that man right now is already deeper, deeper than you can ever imagine. I don’t want to be friend with someone I love, also I can’t accept the fact that one day we’ll be stranger again. A man who I’ve never expected I’d get closed to, a man who I’ve never expected that I’d fall for this hard, a man who I’m really happy to be around…

To PetPet

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U still here?

“Are u gonna miss me, when im gone?” YES, DEFINITELY. U tried to come back for many times, but I rejected u b’cuz of the all the guilt. I regret everything but I don’t want to go back. I really wish things to go back as before, but I don’t want u back. This may Sound like I’m complicating my feelings, but one thing I know for sure is I still love u, I can’t move on but I don’t want to go back. Sometimes when I miss u, I want to reach out to u so bad but I don’t want u to see how miserable I am atm. U also knew that and always trying to reach out to me ask me if u need any help when I’m on my own and I really appreciate that. One question I wanted to ask u rn, do u sympathize me or are u still here waiting for me as u promised me after we broke up?

The never coming date we planned

Remember when we used to say we will meet? Remember when you said you were so eager to meet me? Remember how we were happily discussed about this so call date and plan it all out perfectly? Remember how you and I both had our hands on our first date gift for each other? I still had those photos of our gifts which we had sent to one another. But now, where was it? Where had it gone to? Where are you? Just how cruel are you leaving me all alone in this world before we could ever meet. Just…why? Why did you have to leave so soon? It’s been 1 year and a half since you’re gone from this world. May your beautiful soul be at ease. You are the most beautiful human I ever meet.

A day my heart torn into pieces.

Your last text! Hi I have something to say.... I want to make something clear about something that I assume we both know.... i saw your video and i am pretty sure that I am the one who cause you to become like this... i am so sorry if the action that i express may lead to your wrong interpretation, that on my side. I want to make things clear as soon as I realize you don't think me just a friend, however it might ruin our friendship which i am not looking forward to.... you are a great person you deserve someone that truly for you, you don't need to wish that you were others.. you are great the way you are. You might not meet the one yet. But for a person like you, you deserve this whole world and someone that you truly deserve. I felt really guilty to be honest that we came to this point that you are suffering, effecting you mentally which I have never intended to..., i should have told you earlier than this... sorry but we could be no more than friends. If you don't mind I would be prefer if we remain just like before. I can not stand to see someone suffering because of me. this might hurt now but hopes it fade away as time goes by. Hope you understand and i hope i made things clear for both of our sides. Thank you for being the best supporter, helper, friends and adviser.