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These 3 years not a single day where i wish we would end up tgt but the more i held on to u the more i realized i never meant to be in ur life so i gave up
I have my own principles and I know others have theirs as well, but my recent continuous experiences leaves bad taste to my mouth to the point that I feel like I should stop putting myself in others ppl shoes. 1. I won’t flirt or date or try to win anyone’s bf just to feel superior. I just don’t want to flatter men by bringing other women down. 2. I don’t accept cheater, the one that cheated on their gf to be with me or have the cheated in their past relationships. 3. I don’t date my close fri’s or friends’ or somewhat ppl from the circles’ exes. Or even think about waiting to be the replacements of someone after they broke up. (It’s pathetic tbh) Story time: I had a long distance relationship with one boy, which later I found out that he’s been cheating on me with at least 3 different girls during the entire relationship. And I found that out from one of the girl that dump his ass after she found out he cheated on her. He dated me and her at the same time, but she caught him dating with other girls and she didn’t know i also one of his victim, she dumped his ass. After my intense research, I finally found her and gather all my guts to ask how’s relationship with him was like, because he had ghosted me for almost a week and I saw him posting and playful cmt with his “best Fri” (from what he told me ;). Long story short I was a home wrecker to his ex and so is other girls at the time. I feel very bad for being so, because I didn’t know that bitch is a cheater. He manipulated the story as she’s the cheater that’s why he ended the relationship. As a fucking coward he is, he never responds to me finding out he’s a cheater, I reached out to that “best Fri” of his directly. I reached out with good intention and was really polite and explain the whole situation why I want to reach out to her, surprisingly she’s acting bitchy to me and confirm that him and her are only Fri they’re been Fri for over 5 years and nth more. So I apologized her for suspecting her and later them bitches feel so relieved that I ended things with him, they start going public. So they started dating around February or even earlier than that who know? And the time I asked for confirmation from either one of them is in April. That means she know exactly who I was and know exactly that bitch is a fucking cheater. So, I realize some ppl are really okay with being home wrecker without guilt or shame. There’s some ppl are okay with being with the cheater who cheated on their partner to be with them. And my case also happen to my friends’ cases as well. Just because I won’t do that, doesn’t mean others will stick to the same principles as me. I was so naive. Another story time: my ex and I from the same class and friends circle. “Fri A” from the circle was always praise my ex of how well he treated me and when asked about what’s her type she always said my ex was her type. Some other “friends” often joke around whenever I had small argument or not get along with my ex in front of them, they always said that I should take a good care of my ex, if I don’t want him, “Fri A” will help take care of him. Always jokes around of how “Fri A” volunteer to be replacement. It was jokes after all I never suspected of her or let it to be the source of the arguments. One of the reason that my ex and I broke up is because I feel tired of being treated less and always second option of that group of Fri that has “Fri A” in it. I admitted I was jealous of the way he treated them compared to me, cuz I have to always beg him to treat me the same as he treated them. My feelings are never validated as he always choose the crowd instead of considering if any of his actions would ever affected my feelings or not. So over 6 months of our break up he came to ask me if we could be back tgt again but I didn’t agree but we kinda keep our relationships in a good term as a friend until one day he mistreated me by bailing out on me when I begged him that I need his company the most. I was disappointed bcuz I was considering to go back to him again as I can see his effort and he improved a lot after the break up. I stopped talking to him and ghosted him even if he trying to reach out to me. The time line here is that the last text he ever reached out to me is in July and from what I heard they dated around Sep or Oct because I saw they went on countdown trip tgt, meet his mom (in which I begged him but never happen even if we dated over a year, I thought maybe it was too soon for him that’s why rarely mention how much I want him to introduce me to his mom). Sometimes later, he and my “Fri A” dated, which I didn’t know bcuz I was on break from social media almost a year, and non of my close fri mention about it, bcuz they didn’t want me to know. I active socially media again and found out like 7-8 months later after their relationship. I feel betrayed, disgusted, and kinda funny at the same time. Not really surprised tho but it just hits me and everything started to making sense to me. It don’t affect me that much , it only helps boost my self esteem and solves all the doubt that whether I should give him a chance or maybe I was too harsh and childish at that time maybe I should take a few steps back that relationship would work smoothly. All these experiences teach me one big lesson “just because u wouldn’t do it, doesn’t mean others won’t, too”
These 3 years not a single day where i wish we would end up tgt but the more i held on to u the more i realized i never meant to be in ur life so i gave up
One important thing to remember when experiencing heartbreak is that it is okay to feel sad and to grieve the loss of the relationship. It is important to take the time to process what has happened and to allow yourself to feel the emotions that come with it. It can also be helpful to talk to friends or family members who are supportive and who can offer a listening ear. While heartbreak can be a difficult experience, it can also be an opportunity for growth and self-reflection. It is a chance to learn from past mistakes and to figure out what you want and need in a future relationship. It is important to take care of yourself during this time, to focus on your own needs, and to remember that healing takes time. Heartbreak is a sad reality of relationships, but it is something that many people experience at some point in their lives. It is important to remember that it is okay to feel sad and to take the time to heal. With time, self-reflection, and self-care, it is possible to move forward and to find happiness again.
"Why did we break up?" It has been exactly 49 days since the day you told me that you feel off and you cannot continue this. I've been questioning myself and there were a lot of question marks in my head. Back then to day one, you told me I was your everything and your life would be hell without me. I told you that my previous relationship gave me a lot of traumas and I was scared to start a new relationship because once I love you, I commit and put 100% feeling and effort into it. You promise and you were being vulnerable to me. I decided to trust you and love you wholeheartedly. Our relationship was so pure, lovely, cute, happy until the very last day. The day that another part of me collapse. The day that every promise is broken. The day that you gave up on me. How could we suddenly break up? You gave me the love that make me feel everything then suddenly it dropped to 0. It is sting no matter how much many times I am trying to apply the medicine. It's difficult to picture it without that person because we were having a dream together and I already pictured you everywhere with me. I can't help but think about you in the middle of the night. I can't help but fantasize about a time when everything was fine. Again, I am living in a trauma that haunt me every single day. A trauma that told me that I would never be enough for someone even I keep hearing you deserve better but deep inside me told me that "IF I AM ENOUGH, HE WOULD NOT GIVE UP ON ME." Thank you for giving me love that I always want to feel but never want to leave. It gave me pain, trauma, and fear but I am glad that we come across each other in this lifetime. We broke up but "Once upon the time, my heart was yours." I love you, a_y
we ended just like that. you know, when i look back on the memories we have, both the good and bad, i just realized it was the most vibrant and most alive i’ve ever felt. You said i’m a mature girl. You’d believe that i would feel nothing right now, that I’d be moving on with life. And I too, think that i would be fine for now. Maybe i’d cry later, for days on end. I know that i’ll break down every night, reliving you in my head. I would try so hard not cry when I see you. Then when i look back at this later, I’d break down all over again. I love you a lot, always will. I guess this is it. Our story ends here. I’ll wish you the happiest in life, always. L
Well....... I've been in hell loop for a while. I already accepted it as what it is. I haven't moved on, but I am indeed moving forward.🤷
So I started high school, and for the first year I felt like a total outsider. But then I met some amazing people who made me happier than I had ever been. We all became super tight in that first year, and I managed to win over one of them to the point where she fell for me. But here's the thing: I'm gay. I didn't want to fake anything, so I had to end it. It was done in two weeks, and both of us were hurt. I know it's not as tragic as some of the other stories out there, and she has definitely moved on by now, but what kills me is that I lost one of my best friends. It was tough because we were part of a big group of friends, so we kept seeing each other throughout the rest of high school. To make it even more complicated, our moms became besties. And every time we saw each other, there was this awkward invisible wall between us. I acted like I didn't care, and she didn't seem to either, but for some reason I just can't let go. Even though I'm gay, I still think I could have been in love with her. In fact, I think I still am. We crossed paths again at a New Year's party. We exchanged a few meaningless words at the start, but even after we got pretty drunk, nothing happened. I keep having dreams about her since then, where we're friends again and we're just hanging out with other people. It's such a warm and comforting feeling. But I know it's something that I won't ever get to experience again for real.
Confess ot del approve sos tang pi khae 3:D
Thought I’ve moved on. Thought u have nomo potential over me. Thought I’ve alr got u out of this place of mine which is called “heart”. But looking back at it, I still found myself searching for you everywhere I go, skimming through every picture of u I saved, imagining how we’ll be if we’re still tgt these days…..and that’s when I realized I’ve never step out to anywhere & move on as I’ve once committed at all cuz without u everywhere I go everything I do seems to have a missing hole & got me feeling empty. How we ended up still aches in me up to these days that it got me thinking why does it has to be that way when everything has solution but we decided to end it all up instead of solving it. Still friend. Still viewing each other’s stories.Still stalking.Still wondering what u’re doing, what u’re up to, how’ve u been. U are the reason I opened my heart & also the reason no one will see it again. Admitted it was indeed a bad timing between us back in the day but I still preciate how we tried to stick with it for so long even tho we both kno we won’t make it after all. As for every memories we’ve created, every step we’ve walked through tgt, every problems we’ve faced & solved, every place we went. I’ll save a spot for every of that cuz I dun want to 4get you & every piece of us. Last words for u: If there’s a day u decided to turn back, u’ll always see me here waitin for you cuz I don’t want no other shade of blue but u. #S to #R