Wish we were a happy family
I have been through almost what life could have put me through, but dealing with the family members, are really the tough one. I wish we could have been warmer. Wish you were here with me, my dear sister.
មកដល់ពេលនេះ វាប្រហែលជាមានរយៈពេលជិត ៧ឆ្នាំហើយដែលខ្ញុំលួចស្រលាញ់អ្នក។ តាមពិតទៅខ្ញុំក៏ធ្លាប់ព្យាយាមកាត់ចិត្តពីអ្នក ធ្លាប់ទៅកន្លែងមួយឆ្ងាយដើម្បីកុំអោយជួបអ្នក ធ្លាប់ព្យាយាមមើលអ្នកថ្មីជាច្រើនសារ ប៉ុន្តែមនុស្សដែលខ្ញុំនឹកដល់មុនគេនៅតែជាអ្នក។ រយៈពេលកន្លងមកនេះ ខ្ញុំពិតជាចង់ដឹងណាស់ថា អ្នកទុកខ្ញុំជាអ្វី?ដែលមានចិត្តចំពោះខ្ញុំទេ? ហេតុអីក៏ធ្វើល្អដាក់ខ្ញុំយ៉ាងនេះ?ហេតុអីក៏ពេលនោះអ្នកមានគេ?ហេតុអីពេលដែលមានគេ អ្នកម្ដងក៏ជាន់ឈ្លឺខ្ញុំ ម្ដងក៏លើកតម្កើងខ្ញុំ? ដែលមានអារម្មណ៍ថាខុសចំពោះខ្ញុំទេ? តែខ្ញុំពិតជាគ្មានភាពក្លាហានដើម្បីសួរអ្នកឡើយ សូម្បីតែជួបមុខអ្នកក៏ខ្ញុំមិនហ៊ានផង ខ្ញុំសង្ឃឹមថាថ្ងៃណាមួយខ្ញុំនឹងមានឱកាស យកសំបុត្រការគប់ចំកណ្ដាលមុខអ្នក ហើយក៏សួរថា មានអារម្មណ៍យ៉ាងណាដែរ អតីតមនុស្សជាទីស្រលាញ់
I have been through almost what life could have put me through, but dealing with the family members, are really the tough one. I wish we could have been warmer. Wish you were here with me, my dear sister.
Life is too short to keep love locked in. Don’t trying to reject the truth and your true feelings to somebody. You lied when you told them that you did not love them. But you did. And now that is something you’ve to live with for the rest of your life. That is something you’ve to leave in the back of your throat. Imagine. Loving someone but not showing them how much you love them. This is the burden that arrives the moment you're gone. The weight you have to carry on your shoulders. The burning you feels over your skin when someone mentions their name. forever. You loved them but did not show it. And maybe you wanted more but was too distracted to do anything about it. You lost them. Some people can’t see the the good things in front of them because they think that they have time for it later but you know what, sometimes later become NEVER. How many “what if” in your life? If you have too much ” what if’s “ in your mind then what if your feelings are returned? You have to try for things even when you don't know the outcome. After you tell them the truth they can smile, say you they feel the same or simply go away, disappear and don’t talk to you anymore. All of these are still better than talking with a person and not telling them your real feelings. We never know what will happen tomorrow or in next few hours. Bear in mind that the pain of rejection and the awkwardness of feeling vulnerable is nothing compared to the regret of not saying something when you no longer have the chance. “Better is open rebuke than hidden love”
I hate how I'm too soft and emotionally weak. I cry over things that normal people would just brush off and move on. Little things can make me feel down and once I'm down, I don't really know how to pick myself up. When I see something that hurts my feelings, I would think about it for several months. I've been spending way too long trying to move on from someone I've only known for a short period of time and doesn't even care about me. If the person happens to know about my feelings, they probably find me stupid and pathetic. It's also difficult for me to share these things with my friends because they would find me overly emotional because even I myself think so. But I just can't help it. Is there even a way to improve myself to be mentally strong like others? Cos I really admire those who can just brush things off and let go of things easily. I can't keep on being this way when I've entered adulthood for quite a few years already.
ehh pretty! u're such a good girl, u've met. once upon a time, u gave the feeling that u're really caring, but i was wrong. ur sweet voice, ur soft tone, ur beautiful eye sight are melting my heart everytime. btw, oh my sweetest, u're with lots of person, u kinda did the same way as u treat me. I don't know why u r into that person, before i figured out i think that u r such a lovely girl, soft hearted, but u failed me. u used everyone to help u most of time, and for me, i'm happy to be in used ^^ but not everytime. when i yeah share this scenario, just a scenario, to my fri, they said that the boii is being shxting used, hahahaha. and i'm yeah, ok XD tbh just a few words to u, pretty, please dun be like that, one day u'll lose them <3
#firstandlastpt1 Everything start from me, it was my fault that fall in love with him. It was me who start to message him first everytime and he really friendly that make me feel he has feeling for me too. I spent 3 year to know his information and start to message him in 2019.I don't except he really talkative in message and I have good memories with each other since 2019-2020. As a girl who never had experience in love, I was so brave to proposal to him first and he reject me and said sorry. It's hurt me alot but I pretend to be okay and text him we still can be cousin like before. After that moment, I only text him whenever it's related to family issues. Someday I really miss how funny conversation I had with him even I start it first. 2021 I start to move on because I learn some advice through the book , listen to music and start to working outside cause I was a junior now. It's really work for me, I'm happy with book and my friend, we go out and had fun time and I thought I'm not into him fr. But in 2022 March, He start to message me first and I start to ignore but after 2 day ago, he talk about his family issues related to me. I decided to reply short message and he ask me to join his sister's wedding. I said yes cause we're cousin and live next to each other now. But....he make me disappointed in him again. I'll update next part 🔜
ខ្ញុំបានទៅហាងកាហ្វេមួយកន្លែងនៅក្រុងភ្នំពេញចំនួនបួនដង ហើយបានជួបនារីម្នាក់ទាំងបួនដង។ ពេលដែលពួកយើងឃើញគ្នាគឺពួកយើងតែងតែសម្លឹងមើលមុខគ្នាគ្រប់ពេល ថ្ងៃមួយខ្ញុំក៏មានឪកាសអង្គុយតុក្បែរគាត់ ខ្ញុំតែងតែលួចសម្លឹងមើលមុខគាត់រហូត ដល់ពេលមួយគាត់ក៏បានសួរខ្ញុំថា បងមានម៉ាសសល់មួយទៀតទេ ខ្ញុំក៏បានឆ្លើយថា អត់មានទេ។ ហើយគាត់បាននិយាយថាចឹងចាំគាត់ដើរទៅរកនៅក្រៅហាង តែខ្ញុំឃើញគាត់អត់មានម៉ាស ខ្ញុំក៏បានប្រាប់គាត់ថាចាំខ្ញុំទៅរកអោយហើយគាត់ក៏ព្រម ពេលដែលខ្ញុំរកបានហើយក៏ខ្ញុំយកអោយគាត់ គាត់ក៏អរគុណខ្ញុំ។ ហើយពួកយើងក៏មកផ្ទះរៀងៗខ្លួនទៅ។ តើនេះជានិស្ស័យ រឺក៏ជាអ្វីទើបខ្ញុំនៅតែនឹកឃើញរឿងនេះក្នុងចិត្តខ្ញុំរហូត?
I cant stop thinking about suicide. I don't know. There's nothing much about the problem i've got but i just dunno how to solve it and i cannot think how to too. I cant tell anyone anymore, just like they'll just judge me and thinking im attention seeker. (Even here now, i have no confidence writing this without thinking they will judge me) Stuck on anything, and my mind keep telling me "if you die that'll be solve cuz it's you, you are the problem." I really am maybe... I'm sorry if I ruin your day, really sorry.
ទិញរបស់ញ៉ាំយកទៅអោយ my bf ដល់កន្លែងធ្វើការ វាមិនខ្ចីចង់ចុះមកយក ពេលមកយកវាមិនខ្ចីចង់មើលមុខឯង។ ឯងជិះមកវិញ មិនទាន់ផុត ១០០ ម៉ែត្រផង វាឆាតថា ឈប់ទិញអោយវាទៀត។ វាចង់ វាចេះទិញផឹកស៊ីហើយ។ អញ គាំងម៉ាជីវិត ហេតុតែអញកម្មក្រាស់ជាមួយហែង ហែងចាំមើល តែអញមានកូន អញទាត់ក្បាលហែងចោលហ្មង