now or never
I'd say that I've been in this relationship for almost two years now. Everything started great; it is something that I've always wanted. I was really happy back then with the occasional phone calls, going on dates, and those fun things we did together. But things took a turn after we graduated from high school and covid hit. We didn't do those things anymore. I started pointing out the issues and asked him to put more effort into our relationship. He never bothers to change and always has excuses to the point that I no longer nag him about it. This went on for a year until today, and although I wanted to end things a couple of times, I couldn't bring myself to do it. I am unhappy, yet I am too afraid to break up with him. Recently, I discovered that I like someone. I haven't felt this I-got-a-crush-on-someone kind of feeling for so long, and to be honest, I feel so alive. My gut feeling told me he might like me as well, and I kind of feel guilty about this. I don't want to hurt anybody, but I also want to pursue my happiness.