#HLVT Ur happiness also mine <3

Thanks for always taking a good care of me Thanks for always stay by my side when time get hard Thanks for understanding me Thanks for loving me Thanks for everything U’re the best . Yet u leaving me now and I still didn’t know how to move on yet . IF leaving me made you feel good , DO IT baby . I pray for ur happiness everyday and night . I’m glad by Seeing you happy even with or without me 🙂

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2025-08-14

To the woman that dated my ex,

I'm sorry. I should've told you what he's like. I was in your shoes, yet instead I watched you be his next victim. It might be too late now, but know that whatever he said is not true. You were not the reason. When he said it's in your head and that it's your insecurity, know that he meant you're close to catch him. Your instinct was right; he was gaslighting you. When he said it is your fault that it's over, know that he meant it is your fault for realising that you're not the only girl on his chat list. Your gut was right; you deserve better. It might be too late, but I hope this give you closure. You're not the problem, it's always been him. To his new girl, I hope you can escape being his next victim.
2025-08-14

Why mom?

Why mom? Why do you have to make me feel this way? What have I ever done so wrong? You know, it is very hurtful and very tormenting when you, my mother, care so little of me. Why is it that when my younger brother got a minor cold, you would rush me to buy him medicine, to take care of him, and so on, but when I got tested positive of covid-19 because I have to go to work, you didn't even seem to care about it as a matter a fact, you didn't even want to buy me covid med, you told me I don't need covid med and just take normal coughing med, you thought paracetamol is enough? Just why do I have to feel all this unfairness? Should I just do you and everyone a favor and just take as much paracetamol as I can and just die? Would that have been better for everyone?

2025-08-14

Another lost battle

I build a dream to be free, to write my own story, to dominate my destiny. I lose my sleep fighting for victory, gather my energy to outrun difficulty. But fate has never favored me and luck has never served me. I know my tears and dedication and the struggle to reach my passion. But my ambition and expectation crush down to disappointment. Now I'm all broken. In dark moment, I'm getting away from the sky like I never ever gonna fly again. Will I discover my light and light up my dark night? Will all my trial someday win over all the fight? Maybe someday, I will reach the peak and claim my championship. Cus with new hope, my faith in me is reignited.
2025-08-14

How to decide?

I told you to wait for me, it only 10 months and I will come back. But thing doesn't turn out as I planned and Im stuck with my life decision right now. So our relationship started when I moved to a country for my Master Degree. She is my junior in my faculty and we been dated for 1 year and half. She was the best thing that ever happened to me, she was everything I ever imagine in a girl. My friends told me that my life is like a k-drama series because I was never been that happy before. After almost a year of dating our relationship getting hard, you accused me as a cheater while I just did exactly what u asked me to do. You was telling me you want to get married and live a normal life like other girls and told me to start looking for someone else. My heart broke into pieces everytime I heard those words from you, I couldn't endure the pain somehow. So I was started talking to someone else while feeling really guilty to you. You caught me texting with someone else, guess what now u feel what I feel now? You asked for a break up but does not we already broke up? After a series of drama we made up ,thanks to Covid-19 for made up stuck in a house together. But the problem now I almost finished my study and I need to get back to my country. I told you I will continue my study, just wait for 10 months I will get back after I get a scholarship. I didn't understand my self y I have to grind so hard for a relationship that already broken. Even I know at the end you will not choose me, even I know u still keep texting other person. I still remember ur sobbing face when u send me off at airport, our last hug, our last meal at airport. Now 6 months had passed, I has moved to my country and it was very hard in the first few months when I was the only person who wanna keep this relationship. Even I used to get " I miss you" text from u a few times and It made me very happy but deep down I knew things changed and we ended. You told me to move on and be happy since you alr start dating someone. I don't know how to feel happy hearing this. After a severe heartache, I tell my self I wont go back to that place again and I wont let anyone hurt me again. Now I moved on, happy with my life, I able to imagine my life without u in it until I got an email telling me that I was offered a scholarship. It is a great news yes it a scholarship I prayed for before , it was a dream come true and it is a ticket for me to find you. But my head mess up, I can't decide should I accept or reject? Should I leave things I have built here and go back to suffer again? PhD is sound fancy but it also a very lonely journey and suffocation. Plus I want to build my life without u involve in it, I don't want to feel those pain again. But this time I will made a decision for me, a life decision without u involve in it... PS: We both are girls.

2025-08-14

Ex-Lover 2018

It’s been so long. I don’t think you might see this, but at least I should say what I have kept in my mind so long here. Well, there’s sometimes when I looked back to the past and I saw us. I started to wonder what went wrong. Then I realized thing that we both were so young for thing that called “ Love “. I was loving you too much, but it was never enough just because I loved you. I just loved you without trying to understand you for once. I was craving for too much attention, I was over thinking everything without knowing what you’ve been thru. Everything was just too much for us. I was so young for this rls. We can called it “ toxic rls “ too. We tried to fix it and it never worked out. At least we tried, right. I guess we’re not meant to be. We hurted each other without knowing, because we were busy blaming one another. I resent myself for blaming you after breakup when it’s also my fault. We were so immature not knowing how to communicate clearly. At least you were a person I once loved, I only pray all the best for you. We are moving on with our life now, I just wanna tell you that thank you for all the good times and I learned from our relationship alot. I’m sorry that I was never good enough. I don’t regret loving you even abit. if we cross path again, I would love to see us become the best version of ourself. I’m happy to see you’re doing okay. To you : #S
2025-08-14

Am I falling in love with him ?

I've first known him when we were studying French in the same class, we're also studying at the same university and we haven't contacted or talked to each other. One day while the teacher called him and he didn't reply , that's the reason that I chatted to him by Telegram to inform him that " Madame call u xd , why didn't u reply ? ". After that , we were in touch with each other ask and chatted to each other, I also ask for his FB account. Moreover, I also chatted with him by Messenger and talked to each other for several topics but not so frequency or everytime. I've known that he's a quiet person because of his character and his FB account and I really knew that kind of this person! We always share something to each other and ask about each other's daily life. In addition, we absolutely would like to share some informations of scholarships, subjects or exercises. I think I was so surprised because we want to take the same major and have the same plan ! But I haven't known myself that when I chatted with him , I am so warmly heart and feel so good even if he chatted to me not the long text ! At first I didn't know about this feeling because I've just known him as classmate and schoolmate and we haven't met each other before by this pandemic situation ( school was closed since the first day of started day of school ). Finally, I've just realized that I have a mood on him ( crush on him ) but I haven't shown this to him because I think I could lose this friendship ):

2025-08-14

Advices to all heartbroken people

One important thing to remember when experiencing heartbreak is that it is okay to feel sad and to grieve the loss of the relationship. It is important to take the time to process what has happened and to allow yourself to feel the emotions that come with it. It can also be helpful to talk to friends or family members who are supportive and who can offer a listening ear. While heartbreak can be a difficult experience, it can also be an opportunity for growth and self-reflection. It is a chance to learn from past mistakes and to figure out what you want and need in a future relationship. It is important to take care of yourself during this time, to focus on your own needs, and to remember that healing takes time. Heartbreak is a sad reality of relationships, but it is something that many people experience at some point in their lives. It is important to remember that it is okay to feel sad and to take the time to heal. With time, self-reflection, and self-care, it is possible to move forward and to find happiness again.
2025-08-14

Unrequited love or One-sided love

Definition of one sided love is a feeling of loving someone who doesn't feel the same for you. Yess, just a short title you can feel how much it hurts. "Destiny" this word we use it as an excuse to make it look like a bridge that guide me to you. Do you remembered how we first met? How great that we study at the same faculty and together as a classmates and more greater is that we always work together as a partner of the assignments. So since than we started to talk about lectures, study together, and help each other. How fun when we flirted with each other and it was a great feelings when our classmates started to pair us. However, at the end, I am the only one fallen into that trap. Why? Have you ever had a good feeling towards me? How about those flirting messages we had? You knew how I felt to you. You pushed me away. You ignored me. Finally you stopped chatting with me. And currently, I am just someone you used to talk to. They said stop chasing people who doesn't love you. If they love you, they will, you don't have to try so hard to get them. I am FINE ❤ Just please remember that this person always cares about you from here where you pushed me behind.