Karma
I was loved and treated right by my ex. It was my first relationship so I never realize how precious it was until I lost it. I wasn’t matured enough to accept the fact that long lasting relationship includes arguments, those boring days where we also get tired of one another, forgiving and stepping backwards. I left him because I was looking for my “ideal relationship” and ofc I found it. But I’m paying the price, the price is being a chaser and still got neglected. Now I truely understand how my ex felt and how tired he was from all the efforts that he made. Though I never admit this outside but I always think about it everyday. The reason that I won’t admit is not because of the ego, but because I have to hide my vulnerability so that everyone think that I finally found my perfect man and hoping that will help my ex to move on, because before we broke up, we made a promise to look out for one another and he told me that he won’t move on unless I’m happy with my relationship. But don’t get me wrong, I am happy in my relationship but it’s like a roller coaster, some days I’m on cloud 9, some days I feel all gloomy. If you’re happen to read this, I just want to apologize for mistreating you and thank you for all the love, efforts and valuable lessons you gave me. Though we don’t talk anymore, hope we’re still cool.