I am the problem
Why am I the problem? Even if your know how they treated me? If I’m always the problems, there’s no reason to stay alive.
I wonder how does it feel like to be loved and spoiled by someone? I wonder how does it feel like to have someone care and protect u at all cost? I wonder how does it feel like when someone say “ you are the world to me “ “ you are the reason I smile” I wonder how does it it feel like to know that after a long tiring day you actually have someone you can whines to? BUT I really can’t imagine someone actually love me . I can’t imagine someone having a crush on me. I can’t imagine someone thinking about me before they waking up or fall asleep.I can’t imagine someone getting butterflies in his stomach when I talk to or smile at him.I can’t imagine my presence make someone day brighter or happier. I can’t imagine someone smiling at their phone or get excited when we are talking . I can’t imagine someone want to see me everyday especially when their bad day. Cus this is ME. Why would they do that to or with me? I’m just ME. BUT IF I ever find someone someday. I can’t wait to spoil him too. I can’t wait to spend all the loves I have been saved for many years. I can’t wait to tell him how thankful I am for him. Maybe someday , Someday I can understand THESE kind of feeling too
Why am I the problem? Even if your know how they treated me? If I’m always the problems, there’s no reason to stay alive.
We got back together last month and m trying my best to confront my feelings for him because he didn’t like my cold hearted behavior and now yeh I feel like m the one who try harder (completely changed myself) and been waiting for his late response messages while himself hanging out with his friends and completely ignoring me and very funny right?
What if you later realize that your boyfriend is not your type after dating for a while?
Thanks for letting me getting this out as this is something I can't normally share with my friends. I have been together with my boyfriend for almost 3 years. He's someone I can share everything with and someone I'm comfortable to be with. We are on the same page in term of life goals and other stuff. I have no eyes for anyone else or think about having choices because my life already suffered me enough and I love him. I long for someone who share the same passion and energy as I do and someone I can RELY on. My boyfriend is great but there are certain times that I feel like if something were to happen in the future, I'll be the one who has to take control. Those certain times and little things make me doubt if I can stay with him because I don't want to be unsatisfied after I'm married, right? I don't want to leave him but personality traits aren't something I can change. It's started to build up inside me and it affects my action towards him too. I feel like shit. ដូចគ្រប់គ្នាតែងនិយាយថាការហើយអត់សប្បាយចិត្តព្រោះប្តីឬប្រពន្ធពឹងពាក់មិនបាន. I don't want that. At first, you love each other unconditionally and as times goes by, you realize that there many things to look for. Love doesn't solve the problem.
I'm not sure what will you and others valued on this name "important sister". Sometimes, I feel abit down but whatever happens, this name won't change. I'm still keep you as my important one, no one understand it but I'm really hope you can feel me trust my speech. I used to hope that one day we separate then we go our own path, but your voice always feel heard by my soul. Whatever happens, we changed but I won't forget what you advised me. Distancing doesn't mean the soul break. Love you, all the best to my important sisters ❤
The late night messages I used to receive from you. The restaurants we went to together. The time we spent chatting with one another. All of these are just memories now. You always stared at me, and when I asked why were you staring at me, it caught you off and you just finished with a smile and said nothing. My heart beat faster than usual whenever you smiled because it somehow made me feel nervous not knowing what you were thinking about me when we sat in front of each other. I always wondered if you felt the same way I felt about you. When you confessed, I was on cloud nine. You were a gentleman, and you constantly showed me what all boyfriends should be doing to their girlfriends. Everything turned into a dream. You already have your lover. All I could think of was how good it could be if our relationship were possible, and how would she felt if she knew how nice you had been doing to me. You made me fall madly in love with you, but at the same time hate you. I hate that you were lying and not telling me the truth. I hate that you were being so good to me. I hate that I think about you all the time even knowing that you already have your significant other. I hate that I still miss you.
sorry for asking you for take a break from you for awhile , but doesn't i stop loving you or i stop care about . I want to text you daily asking how was your day ? did you eat ? we both missunderstanding sometime , sorry for telling you that i'm tired , I do tired how to make thing right for you and it make myself feel so dump everytime we fight about that . i knew the world is so hard for you and i want to be your safe place enough that you can take a rest with me I hope you understand about that i gave you everything sorry for take care of me i'm love you still . I'm glad see you smile from a far . I MISS US
I lost my virgin at the age 21 years old. Do u think it is so fast? And How do all of u guys think of me? ភ្លើតភ្លើន? សប្បាយភ្លេចខ្លួន? ខុសប្រពៃណី?I lost it to my bf and he never think about future with me. Emmmm! Now I feel like I dont want anyone anymore beside building myself to be strong and I am sorry for my family that I am not a good daughter! Really sorry.