Bullied? Anxiety? - T

I used to be considered as “ugly” (got bullied for being overweight, etc. even adults used to do that to me :D ) that really destroyed my self esteem. Although, I lost weight and take care of myself and is considered as pretty now but still the permanent mental damages are there. I had developed eating disorder, social anxiety, etc. I fake being confident but the anxiety, the trembling, and panic attack always happened. And because of that anxiety that fear of being judged I think a huge misunderstanding was made. Sometimes I really wish I could just communicate better instead of always being quiet. :)

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Crying Every night

Let me tell you about my nightmares. The most things I am Afraid of , it is I am gonna lose my man once day. It hurt so much. The man I love the most more than myself. But we still can’t be together. We are still in relationship as a girlfriend and boyfriend until nowadays. We fall in love since we are in Highschool. Day by day, when I grow up , I getting more scare . The more I grow , the more I scare . You know what ? Because I know that my parents won’t approve us. Yes. I know that is not easy to get through that situation. To make the reader more Easy to understand : ( Rich & Poor ). I know that is too hard . Really hard to fight it . To my man ❤️, he was working so hard day by day . He was thinking so much day by day . Everything he did just wants to get me and live with me . I know that he won’t give up until we still strong to fight. But time fly to fast and the hope are less . The thing has change . And I asked myself , if I didn’t agree to love him . Maybe he have more freedom than with me . If I didn’t love him , maybe he not really get too hard for me . If I reject on that day , maybe he not get too much pressure , too much stress and too much overthinking. He also know that , it too hard to get me . But he will try again and again until he give up. He still try too hard for me . I didn’t regret because I love him . But I regret that I love him and make him more difficult because of me . Everything is my false. We have been talk each about that situation. And I still can’t accept it . That why I always cry every night I went to sleep. It too hard to stay far aways from the man I love the most. Our story are too complicated and too long. But I hide that feeling for many years . I didn’t told my boyfriend about that but he knew that I am stress about that so much and overthinking . But he didn’t knew that I had cry so hard every night . I really t hope that I can stay with him❤️. I love you so much 💕. Note: It quite too long about my story . And I am sorry if my English not really good . Because I am poor with English. Thank for those who read my story. Big thank to this page that help me to talk about my story out. Even not help me 100% . But at least 50% help a lots to share my story and let them know my story . #Thankeveryone. #Thankknongjitpage
2025-08-14

Im still in love with her

since we broke up, i have always missed her no matter whose im with. i used to be so happy that we broke up but i guess not anymore when i see her with someone new, we have been broken up for more than 2 years but i still can't forget her. Can somebody tell me what's wrong with me ?

2025-08-14

How to choose

How to choose BTW the one who take care on you and they will come when we need the warm vs the one who advise us e.time but they didn't know how we need people to warm up us.
2025-08-14

If you are happy, I’m happy.

One of my male colleagues and I are so close, but the closest thing I mentioned was that I'm the one who's trying to get close to him. I think I like him a lot, but I'm not daring to tell him. I don't want to ruin the relationship between us. It was good enough for me to have him during my stressful times, happy times, busy times, and anytime I needed him. I'm so grateful. Even if in the future you're not mine, I believe you will be a good husband to your future wife like how you're treating me these days. I'm a bit jealous of whoever deserves you, but if you're happy, I'm happy too. Day by day, my day becomes more and more colorful and shines since I have you by my side. You're so good for my mental health. It was so boring when you were complaining about this and that, but it is so empty without those complaints. I want you, the person who is giving me these good feelings, to feel them as well; to feel loved by someone; to feel treated well; and to be my lover, so I don't have to worry about your future wife. Thank you for being there for me during my hard times. I really appreciated every moment I had with you.
2025-08-14

3years of us

We met at 2019 but now look at us , we’re just strangers with some memories . First I really want to be his girl best friend , but once upon a time I think I have feeling for him not just friend . I am distancing myself from someone I love. Until now I just can’t get you out of my mind . Thank you for being there for me when I needed you the most . 🫀
2025-08-14

I think I started to have a crush on my friend.

We’ve been hanging out together about 4 years now but he and I never think of anything more than friend. I like to tease him sometimes before about being in relationship but it doesn’t mean I have that kind of feeling with him and I think he feel annoyed about me teasing him but who care lol. For some reasons, I think he’s really hate me at some points because I’m kinda immature and of course annoying and always mad and yes he never ទ្រ me because why would he care if I’m mad? Lol. However, we both still talking and still friend. It just this recently (read the title), just maybe, let’s just put it like this. I don’t think he has feeling for me because he doesn’t really care about me and doesn’t really care to reply to my text for all these years only if he wants to. He probably chat with others because I used to caught him. Or he probably study. He’s smarter than me too. But well even if he also has feeling for me I’m not sure whether it’s possible for us to date too due to some reasons which also include my knowledge, I think, because I’m not as smart as him. And other reasons.

2025-08-14

Those days

One day, we were mentally and physically inseparable, and today, you are trying to avoid me. All the good days we spent together, I hope you still remember those days like I do. The days we shared our personal feelings and daily lives’ activities. I hope those days wouldn’t be forgotten in just a short period of time. If I were to be granted one wish, I wish those days happened once again. Even though what comes after hurt both of us and could potentially hurt people we are with, those days were the best days I could ever ask for.

2025-08-14

The final date of us

My girlfriend and I had been dating for more than a year, and we shared a close friendship beyond anything else. We always understood each other and had a deep love that remained strong through all the ups and downs. However, our relationship came to a halt eventually as we realized that we were in different places in our lives. While she was only 20 and looking forward to getting married and having children soon, I was 21 and had different priorities in mind. I wanted to spend more time dating her, and I was thinking about starting a family around the age of 30. It was a tough decision, but we both knew that it was for the best if we went our separate ways. On the last day of our relationship, we decided to have one last date night. I took her out to a romantic restaurant that had live music and bought her flowers that she loved. We reminisced about our favorite moments together and talked about all the things that we would miss about each other. We discussed how we had impacted each other's lives in so many positive ways. Later in the evening, we went to see the Hobbit, which was one of our favorite movies. It was a bittersweet experience to watch the film together knowing that it would be our last time doing so. We hugged and kissed for one last time as we said our goodbyes and went our separate ways. Although it was an incredibly tough decision to make, we both agreed that it was the right one. It was the perfect end to our relationship, and it allowed us to move on with our lives. While we went our separate ways, I will always cherish the memories that we created together.