I'm lonely

I'm not a model, but I'm educated. I'm witty. I like to travel. I'm interesting. I do great things on my own, but I'm still lonely. My friends think I don't try, but I do. I ask guys out but they don't follow up. I had a good dating life...in that I dated amazing guys, but lately I haven't had relationship in almost two year. I miss it, a lot. Now and again, I have those dark thoughts of 'what's wrong with me?'. Well, there's nothing wrong with me. I'm great. But I am also alone. I feel like people in my life look to me as a source of strength, because in most facets of my life I am very independent. I feel like a fraud. I feel like I need to admit to myself that I am very lonely.

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silent…

he left at a time where i was still deeply in love with him. he silently left me without a word. he left without explaining. all my texts were unanswered and all my calls were never picked up. gosh, it hurts to be ignored. its been 3 long months and i’m still attached to him. no words could describe the damaged my heart felt. i felt betrayed i would’ve never treated him like that. i couldn’t wrap my head around why he left me the way he did. some nights, i would cry because i missed him so much. i can still see his smile , still hear his voice, still feel his warmth and still remember his words… i’m gonna wait and pray that maybe one day he’ll return back to me. i still have hope because i still love him.

Is it just me?

Everytime I see a couple, I start wondering is it just me who never had good fate in love? How do people got in love so easily, how lucky are they to be around someone they love. Look at me, I never had a chance to be in that position, I wasnt able to imagine what its like to be in their shoes. Everytime I start to commit in a relationship, all the experience I got are rejection, betrayal and ghosting. Those experiences scare me. Every time I want to commit in a relationship, my memory flashback and little voice in my head keep telling me: "keep it for yourself, love is not made for you." I hate it so much. I just want to be normal 😪

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I confessed my feelings for you and now, we're treating each other as friends. Nothing more, nothing less.

I made it <3

I am the confessor of #KJ0217 I just wanted to say that I made it. It was super awkward at first but then things turn out better. BIG Thanks to those who give me tips cuz it really helped me a lot!🙏🏻 Proud to say I am dating my dream girl ❤️

Why?

Growing up, not bragging, Ppl tell me I look decent (not ugly, not so pretty either). Those who look decent tends to have people interested in them, right? Not me though. I don’t know why and please tell me if you do. Why isn’t anyone ever interested in me? Do I look so bad? Is my personality that hard? I’ve seen others having people crushing on them and having boyfriend and all those stuff. And I look at myself and my chat box is so freaking quiet, no fling, no flirt, nothing. Trust me, I’m not that desperate, it’s just pure curiosity. Why the hell isn’t anyone interested in me? Why? I see in drama ppl be like having crush and all those fling stuff and my life is so freaking boring 😂😂😂😂. My standard isn’t that high either, just average, like others. I’m also not looking for relationship, just some flirting, just knowing the fact that someone is actually liking me, having a crush on me would be enough. What could be the problem? My problem? 🥲🥲

What if I am just the girl who comes into his life just to help him be a better man for another girl?

We werent supposed to meet. I was supposed to walk a path set out for me...i was supposed to never step a foot or breathe into your world...but a moment of recklessness brought me into a new world that made me into a happier person. And I met you. You were always like a shadow until one day i stopped, turned around, and fell immediately into your cold, indifferent eyes. You barely talked to anybody, but you were responsive to me. You tolerated my meanness, you listened to my sob stories, and you let me talked abt my drama without making me feel like i am a bother. Slowly, you opened up to me...but I know there is still a deeper part of you I might never get to know. Nevertheless, as friends, you are the best friend a girl could ever asked for. I've never had a male friend, so thank you for making me feel appreciated. Thank you for making me feel safe. Most important of all, thank you for making me realize what it feels like to fall in love with a true gentleman. I know my feelings arent mutual, but that is fine. We are still young. Our dreams are still far. One day, I will look back at us and smile. One day, when I am ready to move on, I will picture you in my head and tell myself, "This is the standard you're aiming for. Do not settle for less." Please...please dont get tired of me. I scolded you, nagged you because i care. I know you have the potential to be a succesful man that is why I do not want you to waste your potential. I want your family and the girl whom you will end up with to be proud of you. Why? Because you deserve the world. I care about you. A lot. I always do and I always will.

when to give up on someone?

i think i can’t tell my whole story… i did tried my best to make everything better but seem like it’s doesn’t work

What is wrong with me ?

It might sound stupid, but there is something i been dealing with for awhile now. Its been 2 years since i last in relationship with someone. As a man, of course i want to get into a new relationship. but, i find it hard for me to date another woman even after 2 years of my last relationship. It's not like i miss my ex but, i just don't know how to love anyone anymore. How do i descript this ? - felt like u run out of love to give to anyone and all i have left is "Sorry , I don't mind being a friend with you !" #🔥🐼