I'm lonely

I'm not a model, but I'm educated. I'm witty. I like to travel. I'm interesting. I do great things on my own, but I'm still lonely. My friends think I don't try, but I do. I ask guys out but they don't follow up. I had a good dating life...in that I dated amazing guys, but lately I haven't had relationship in almost two year. I miss it, a lot. Now and again, I have those dark thoughts of 'what's wrong with me?'. Well, there's nothing wrong with me. I'm great. But I am also alone. I feel like people in my life look to me as a source of strength, because in most facets of my life I am very independent. I feel like a fraud. I feel like I need to admit to myself that I am very lonely.

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Goodbye Mr. Panda 🐼

I have crushed on him for months and one day I decided to confess. As a result, he didn't reject me and said "Let see how it's going on." It was the sentence that gave me hope to work harder to take his intention. But next next day, he told me that he didn't want to think about something yet and I said okay even my inside hurt me a lot. I cried for whole night and felt like the whole world was collapsing. After this hard situation has gone, I kept talking to him as normal and acted like nothing happen. After then, I have invited him for a gathering but he rejected since he had his personal matter. I also understood about that situation. However, since that day, I didn't text him anymore plus he also didn't text me so I decided badly to MOVE ON. It is so hard for me to suddenly give up on him but I know clearly that no matter how hard I try, I still can't be good enough for him because I am not his type and his intention is not for me. Anyway, sorry for not saying Goodbye and telling you that I have give up on you because I afraid that when I text you, I will fall for u again. I hope you meet someone who you love and she will love you the way you love her. Time will cure everything. 🥺🥺🥺

To the one guy I used to confess...#s

Since I broke up with my ex bf in March 2021, I never had any bf until now. Not because I didn’t fall in love with anyone else. It’s because I used to asked s1 abt feeling during I broke up. And the answer is “ death both side”xD. And yeah at the time he’s the only person that I chatted with, told him how’s my feelings, sometime cried while sending my voice to him. Then we haven’t chatted for awhile. Currently, And he just text me and get on with each again.

dear you...

Trust me, if I could turn back time to the moment we're together, i would hold you longer, hug you tighter, kiss you more and tell you how I feel. Our moment might be short but trust me, you have a special place in my heart, always. Because everytime I look into your eyes, i could still see "us". I dont regret meeting you, i regret not be able to tell you how i feel toward you. Thank for all these moment we had. And in the end we're just stranger who know each other a little bit more than anyone else. A stranger with memories. </3

Trade-off

This is a story of a unpopular boy who barely made any friend amount his classmates. One girl noticed him for being himself. Destiny brought them together then the boy have to leave the girl for 6months.However, the girl was still waiting for his return and carrying on their relationship. Good things won't last long, the time had passed by the boy's career had started to get busier and busier that's why he barely made time for his love's one. Because he wanted to achieve his goal by getting promotion so he could have more time for her. Then the boy had finally achieved his goal yet his relationship had already ridded apart. At the end he was able to achieve his dream but not his love. He had more time but had no one to spend with.......... someone who always supported and motivated him to catch his dream was gone. So that is an opportunity cost between trading off your heart and your dream : )

Comeback

Please don't ever come back to me when I finally forgot you and has moved on. Please don't let me experience all the pain again. Please don't ever mess up my life again.

Dear roommate

Since we finished our examination I just wanna tell you that I think I like you at the first sign.nh ot yul klun eng dea mix ban 2ngai ng mean ney mes pel exam u jes jeang nh tea u nv baeb kroy mor yy muy nh sur nh tha Tver hx nv ey jg hx subject muy dea Tver oy nh jam ot plex ker math ng pel morning last day nh som u merl and then nh merl pi u ban klas klas dea tea nh jong rkun u klang nas dea tver oy ka exam 2ngai bos nh mean ney tang dea puk yrg ot dea tlop skol knea pi mun mor te terb tea pel exam ng te dea puk yrg ban skol knea lerk dombong mg tea ber ke krob knea merl mor doch puk yrg tlop skol knea jg ahh cuz puk yrg sneat muy knea doch pm tlop rean or tlop skol knea jg. Tysm my best roommate and I think I can’t confess how I feel for you right now since I found your fb account and I saw you was in relationship since 2020 so I decided to move on.nh som oy u sl knea ban yu hx good luck with last long relationship nahh som trem see u sby muy relationship bos u kor roommate mnak nis ot som ey jren dea nah.thanks 😊 #chaktomuk09210

Don't lose yourself.

Sometimes you really love a person eventho they have done bad things to you and Sometimes you've been holding on to it for so long that you forgot yourself. That you've lost the value of your worth, I know it struggling sometimes to hold on to something that you are trying so hard, But if it hurts you, you also have to let it go. There's no point of holding on to it, it will only eat you up and keep you insecure. I am a guy who's badly devastated by a few person who did the same thing to me over and over. I'm the one who is trying to hard to keep things like before, eventho i know so damn well that it's not gonna work out for both of us. Coming home from work getting to talk to your favorite person, yet that person doesn't seem to care at all, cold replies, short text, late replies. I kept convincing myself that it's probably just one of her bad day. But that's when i realized that bad days doesn't goes on for 4 months straight. I tried talking about it, one week, ONE WEEK, everything is back to square one, cold replies, short text, late replies. That's when i started asking myself "What am i holding on for?", "Was it love?", "Was it that i've stayed with that person for so long that i can't live without them?", "Was it the time we spent together that i don't wanna let it all goes to waste?", "Was it to the point that staying with that person is apart of my habit?". Those are all the questions that keeps popping in my head. I've lost pieces of myself staying with that person without realizing it until it was too late for me and now I'm lost, i couldn't find myself anymore. I've lost myself trying to be with you.

Sunflower

This sunflower is wilting… so love you, for me. Take care of your heart and soul. Some couples just don’t work out and… that’s okay… I guess…. as long as your life works out fine. At the end of the day, you are still a part of me. Thank you for showing up back then… I enjoyed my time with you… hope you did too. If ever our path crosses again, I want to know that you’re succeeding in life. I want to hear about your dream come true. My darling, you are not cursed nor broken. You are just bent as you were adapting to life circumstances. You are perfect the way you are so let nobody tell you otherwise. Love you, for me.