I deserve to be loved!

Sometimes I just want to get the feeling of love from someone because I never receive that at all. đŸ˜¶ when you love someone and they never love you back and it’s hurt so bad it’s been twice for me already and actually I never been in any relationship

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2025-08-14

To all the girls who are hating their body

This is to #KJ0605 . It breaks my heart seeing girls being guilt tripped about this topic. I hope this message goes to all girls who are hating her body regardless of you breaking up with your boyfriend or not. I hope it goes to all fathers and brothers, hopefully all the future husbands as well. Broken hymen is a myth. You may do some research on this if you like. My love, Virginity is a social construct, and your value is not attach to it. Your hymen doesn’t break, and no not everyone bleeds on their first sexual intercourse. Every hymen looks different, have different shapes and holes, some ppl are born without one. It is very important to understand your body anatomy. My love, you are beautiful and strong. If you are worried, please worry whether your beliefs on the “purity” of women is actually worth believing. Whether you are 18 or 21 or 31, whether you are married or single, you are worthy of respect. You are more than your virginity. If nobody loves you, this sister loves you❀
2025-08-14

A broken child.

I grew up in a very dysfunctional family. Even though it was very clear at a young age to me that mommy and daddy absolutely hated each other’s guts and only got married in the first place cause of my birth, they refused to divorce. “Staying together for the kids” is the absolute worst thing you can do to a child. Mom and dad, What did I do wrong?? my existence??? [newLine*]Personally, it effected my general self esteem and the way I formed and behaved in relationships for the rest of my life. I was diagnosed with PTSD, (yess PTSD) as growing up in a house that was literally a battlefield. I always blaming myself for being existing. I thought my family was normal. It wasn’t until i turned 15 when I had friends whom I would go visit and then I started seeing something completely different. My friends had normal parents. Before that, I thought a dysfunctional family was normal. I still suffer from anxiety to this day and self-esteem. My problems are a constant fear of getting too close to people, including friends. As I grew older I became more quiet. It’s effected my relationships and friendships to a point where I end up pushing people away. I like being alone where there’s complete silence and nothing can bother me. I think I came to this point due to growing up in my parents house and constantly hearing them scream at each other, doors slamming. My self-esteem problems are mostly from being ignored and neglected through out my early life. My parents whose were never involved with anything of my childhood despite us living in the same household. The cause of their arguments has always been about me, and still is to this day. My dad came home from work and fighting with my mom because of me, it became worse with age. I feel embarrassed or ashamed to even talk about this with my close friends. My family was of the type that everything happened behind closed doors and out in public. If I had friends come over, they became entirely different people in front of my friends. They could actually act right and tolerate each other when they had company- (why the hell can’t you be normal like that all the time?) For this reason, I never opened up and told my friends what happened in our house cause I feared they’d never believe me. It wasn’t until my early adult years, I finally opened up and started telling my friends what really going on at home but some of them told me that no matter what it is, they’re still my parents and they loves me but they don't seem to loves me nor even care about my feelings except for their own. I always want to get away from them and living my life without them. Sometimes when I opened up about it not because I want empathy nor attention but I just need someone who listen to me, listen to me without judging me. Don’t get me wrong I do appreciate my friends and understand that they’re just trying their best to comfort me.

2025-08-14

What should I do next?

I’m sorry but I don’t freaking know what to do anymore. I don’t know whether he has feeling for me or he is just being nice. I don’t know whether to move on or keep holding into this one-sided love. I want to move on before I fall for him harder than this, but the love I have for that man right now is already deeper, deeper than you can ever imagine. I don’t want to be friend with someone I love, also I can’t accept the fact that one day we’ll be stranger again. A man who I’ve never expected I’d get closed to, a man who I’ve never expected that I’d fall for this hard, a man who I’m really happy to be around


2025-08-14

Freedom

Being in a relationships mean to understand each other’s need, love, affection and the freedom they wanted. But sometimes I wanted you to understand that I also need your love and affection back. There are days where I just felt like I’m in love alone. Everybody is busy, and I tried to understand that. And yeah, sometimes I know you’re just fake busying, I knew about it but I just stay silent so that you can have your freedom. But I don’t get why the type of freedom you’re doing is just to go around and flirt others, following new people on sns, text with them while you’re just ignoring me, who patiently waiting for your text. Should I let you go?

2025-08-14

â€ïžâ€đŸ”„â€œB” - T

I think you don’t even know that “B” is the nickname I put for you, it’s like 3 in 1 “Babe, Bong and your name”. Now you’re just “Bong” like everyone else, you’re not my “B” anymore. You know I actually notice how you started to lose interest. I’m a person who always stay quiet so when I see that you act like that I started to detach myself but still it hurts, it hurts so bad when you finally decided to ask me for a breakup. I prepared for it for months but when it really happened, I still can’t quite grasp the situation. Honestly, I’m so jealous of other couples they share with each other everything while you.. you’re so closed off. Whenever I ask about sth you always divert the topic or just ignore the questions. FYI, when I asked i alr know the answer. (“FBI friends” I have them too đŸ€·đŸ»â€â™€ïž) I act like I didn’t notice tho cus I hate arguing. Well, whatever I hope you’re happy. And I hope you’d at least give your next girl the bare minimum. Please treat her well. Don’t let her beg for your time and attention like I had to do. React on her posts, post her, take her out, you know the simple little gestures. From: T đŸ„°

2025-08-14

Pain

Since you left I never had a good day. I changed. The pain change me. I let the pain control me. I keep compare myself to others. I can't make myself happy. I lose interest in everything. I tried to find someone to replace you. But I just can't get over you. My heart still want you. But ik I have no more chance. I couldn't even have a second chance. I'm trying to love myself. But why is it so hard? I never been like that before. I want myself back. I regret that we used to date each other. But I never regret the time that we used to spend together. I missed you. But I don't want to miss. I want to forget you. I just wish I could end up my pain. It's really annoying. I'm still love you as always.

2025-08-14

"best thing"

I dont know how it started and why it turn out this way. I wanna keep you at any cost even as the closest friend but it seems like I could never be enough for anyone. I dont want you to call me "best friend" since the last time someone called me best and all they do is ghosted me and I dont think u want me to be ur best friend too. I dont even have a chance to ask what is going wrong since I respect their space but you know deep down inside I wonder about all those memories, all the hardest times I have faced and shared with you, is it real. I dont know but I feel ache every time ppl say I was the best thing that happened to them, did they really mean it or just bc I was there for them whenever they needed me. I miss every game we used to play, meme we used to share, chessboard when u ask me to play chess. I could not listen to our fav song anymore, could not open up to anyone anymore. I wonder is it for character development since I never dare to go out of my comfort zone,u know how hard it is to go out and make a new friend at this age. no one pay attention when i say words only you pay those small things. can we just go back to those old times?

2025-08-14

A bestie

Hey Bxtch! I kinda miss the way that we joke around, go everywhere tgt, advising each other, caring each other, worrying each other, informing each other most of the time. til the day that we kinda officially separated, i dun think that it was a great way to be like that for both us, i think we might hurt both side. yess bestie! It alr long time ago, I think i can forget u, but i dun think so. everywhere we went, it left the footprint, even i date s1 and i saw that places, it left us behind. it's such a great time that we spent tgt, i literally miss everything we've been done. And I wish to say sorry to u for not catching up with u for so long, but i dun mean so. I can't help myself for not to be inlove with u, that must be the reason. yeah! but sometimes i do stalk u, and i dun feel too, yap, actually it is. I know u r with a great person, and i hope that he takes care of u better much better than i used to. From a good fri...