What should I do next?

I’m sorry but I don’t freaking know what to do anymore. I don’t know whether he has feeling for me or he is just being nice. I don’t know whether to move on or keep holding into this one-sided love. I want to move on before I fall for him harder than this, but the love I have for that man right now is already deeper, deeper than you can ever imagine. I don’t want to be friend with someone I love, also I can’t accept the fact that one day we’ll be stranger again. A man who I’ve never expected I’d get closed to, a man who I’ve never expected that I’d fall for this hard, a man who I’m really happy to be around…

Feeling bottled up?

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2025-08-14

“Chill”

No matter what kind of questions I’m bringing up it will only lead to one thing. On how you wanna be with yourself. You can’t tell someone to stop thinking and be chill with you. You make me feel like I’m asking a lot from you, while I only want 1hour to 2 hour of your 24 hour divided into any given time of the day, to do little things that make someone you care about feel a little special. It’s that kind of thing you gave up which means a lot to her. The time that you decided to spare to make her happy, does it make you a little happy to see her happy?

2025-08-14

Am I that pathetic?

Is it wrong to have feelings for your own friend? And is it wrong to still have hope that we might end up together? Is it too pathetic to continue liking him? I can say that we are quite close, and by far, he’s the closest guy friend I’ve ever had. Close in the sense of me sharing with him about my day, my struggles, my happy moments, etc. He was very understanding, kind, and not to mention very smart. He listened to me ranting about my days very well. He also consults me whenever I’m down. We exchanged many texts. We texted non-stop until the early morning. He made me feel somewhat important and special. We also countdown together on New Year’s Eve. But, little did I know, he treated other friends (he had a lot of girl friends) the same way too…… I tried to distance myself and cut off my feelings, but no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t. Even to this day, I still have feelings for him and still hope that I’m special to him in some way. My pathetic self.

2025-08-14

08

You live in peace I live in pain.

2025-08-14

If it’s that hard.

Why don't you just say it if you no longer want to talk. It hurts me but It’s probably easier for either of us and you have to leave me alone and waiting for your replies for hours or even days. It’s so exhausted to question my own worth. Just spill it out and let’s move on.
2025-08-14

ហេតុតែបាត់គេមិនបាន

ទិញរបស់ញ៉ាំយកទៅអោយ my bf ដល់កន្លែងធ្វើការ វាមិនខ្ចីចង់ចុះមកយក ពេលមកយកវាមិនខ្ចីចង់មើលមុខឯង។ ឯងជិះមកវិញ មិនទាន់ផុត ១០០ ម៉ែត្រផង វាឆាតថា ឈប់ទិញអោយវាទៀត។ វាចង់ វាចេះទិញផឹកស៊ីហើយ។ អញ គាំងម៉ាជីវិត ហេតុតែអញកម្មក្រាស់ជាមួយហែង ហែងចាំមើល តែអញមានកូន អញទាត់ក្បាលហែងចោលហ្មង
2025-08-14

#URMYPGB

Idk where to start so, 2018 the new term start and i got to meet her. She changed into my class with her friends. Her group and mine are two different world from eachother. Actually ik her even before she got to know me. We started studying in the same class, and extra classes. I really like her and i really wanna get to know her more. One day i reply her Instagram story and we got to talk. Later on, she replied my story, and here the our conversation started. We've been texting in Instagram for like about a year. We sometimes flex to messenger. I always asked her to send me lesson as an excuse to talk to her. At that time, those conversations were just normal but i was damn happy because i like her so... Her group and mine are still not boning together idk why but prolly idk lol. We were such a good talker in chat but in person lol awkward affff So 2020, COVID. We were still texting intelegram, messenger and Instagram. She always sent me her fav songs, what she watched on YouTube, forward me food or place or meme content from Facebook to messenger, and also send me video and meme, sth cute on Instagram. I did the same too. Ik you prolly can't feel the feeling from reading this but ... Sorry I'm not so good at expressing So here let me continue Idk but tbh covid got us both close to eachother. We talked everyday, she texted me just to tell it time for extra classes, or else send me food. She sometimes went out and when she's back, she always told me about her day tho i don't ask. Tbh i confused. I myself i know i like her, i mean i have feelings for her but what about her? She did like we're sth. Idk how to explain it all here but later on when 2020 about to end, we don't talk anymore, she just went silent on me and i have no clue what to do till now. My friends all know i like her, they also said they bet her group also know about this but no one dares to say. One of my friends said, I'm too obvious whenever it comes to her, she prolly knows but pretend like she doesn't. Hmm but it doesn't matter anymore. Right now i only wish she and i can still be friends. The thing is i only got to see her like 3 to 4 times in this 2021. And the last 2 times, she didn't even talk to me or even look at me. Heartaches lol. I was there like...? You didn't see me? Or what? She has changed... I mean she's not that excited to see me like before. Before whenever she saw me she always comes to me amd hit me as a greeting hut now lol, even my face she didn't even look at. You might wonder what happened between us. Seriously i have no answer cuz I don't even know what's wrong, she just gone silent and ... You won't see this anyway so imma just write it here

2025-08-14

Doubt

Girl! You do experience and have a long lasting realtionship but how could you do this to me? Remember when there is stranger who try to talk to your man. You act up and blow it on social media about how disspoainted, sad, anger and how much you hate or dislike girl who behave like this. Then how should i react? When it is just a one time meeting but you try to stick around, try to fit in to the circle. I know it is just about friendliness, you have it toward me too. However, I got driven away and you got a place to stand. Not just a place you found one for your friend too. That is how I got repalced. I don’t know how to feel or react. How could I being treated like this? And You too girl! I do know love can’t be forced but I can’t make myself believe that you are not related in this. Even if it was just a one time gather but you sure know the history of me and that person. Then why do you still let one of your ally in? Standing in my place? I mean if there is no you or just don’t be too friendly or just stay in your circle maybe thing won’t turn out like this. I just feel so stupid or maybe I am one. That why even after you saw me, knew everything you still find a place for her because I am just something that is already thrown away anyway and that space is empty so it got to have a replacement? I mean don’t you understand what attachment is? Or am I a narrow minded who still dwell about the past? What if you were me can you stand and watch calmly without anxious, curiosity and wonder how could it happen if you are not between it? But I am happy for you. You don’t have to imagine yourself in this situation because you got a good person by your side! Still how could you take my good person for your alliance? I felt so insecure, regret of open up and afraid of getting to know new people. But maybe I shouldn’t feel like that anymore becuase now I got nothing else to lose.

2025-08-14

I want her back,we already breakup for to long and we have a lot of memories with other and 2 times already that we breakup and now I just want one more chance to take care good of you even you can't give me a chance but I'll remember the time we made before at least I wanna said I love you and I hope we will meet one day hut we a stranger </3

3th time