As we fall apart.
Pretty as flower Cold as the wind breeze You will always shine, Our memories will stay but neither of us will be together.
I grew up in a very dysfunctional family. Even though it was very clear at a young age to me that mommy and daddy absolutely hated each other’s guts and only got married in the first place cause of my birth, they refused to divorce. “Staying together for the kids” is the absolute worst thing you can do to a child. Mom and dad, What did I do wrong?? my existence??? [newLine*]Personally, it effected my general self esteem and the way I formed and behaved in relationships for the rest of my life. I was diagnosed with PTSD, (yess PTSD) as growing up in a house that was literally a battlefield. I always blaming myself for being existing. I thought my family was normal. It wasn’t until i turned 15 when I had friends whom I would go visit and then I started seeing something completely different. My friends had normal parents. Before that, I thought a dysfunctional family was normal. I still suffer from anxiety to this day and self-esteem. My problems are a constant fear of getting too close to people, including friends. As I grew older I became more quiet. It’s effected my relationships and friendships to a point where I end up pushing people away. I like being alone where there’s complete silence and nothing can bother me. I think I came to this point due to growing up in my parents house and constantly hearing them scream at each other, doors slamming. My self-esteem problems are mostly from being ignored and neglected through out my early life. My parents whose were never involved with anything of my childhood despite us living in the same household. The cause of their arguments has always been about me, and still is to this day. My dad came home from work and fighting with my mom because of me, it became worse with age. I feel embarrassed or ashamed to even talk about this with my close friends. My family was of the type that everything happened behind closed doors and out in public. If I had friends come over, they became entirely different people in front of my friends. They could actually act right and tolerate each other when they had company- (why the hell can’t you be normal like that all the time?) For this reason, I never opened up and told my friends what happened in our house cause I feared they’d never believe me. It wasn’t until my early adult years, I finally opened up and started telling my friends what really going on at home but some of them told me that no matter what it is, they’re still my parents and they loves me but they don't seem to loves me nor even care about my feelings except for their own. I always want to get away from them and living my life without them. Sometimes when I opened up about it not because I want empathy nor attention but I just need someone who listen to me, listen to me without judging me. Don’t get me wrong I do appreciate my friends and understand that they’re just trying their best to comfort me.
Pretty as flower Cold as the wind breeze You will always shine, Our memories will stay but neither of us will be together.
We broke up and you found someone new. It was a dark time for the two of us. I got my problem and you got yours. Yes, we start spending less time together because life keep throwing us lemon and make everything sour between us. Deep down in my heart, I still love you, I still miss everyplaces we went together, drink, eat … The parking spot that i park my car and we shared about problems… I missed all of that. Now that you left, I try to avoid all the places that we been to together… every time i when there, in my head, I saw shadows of your and flashbacks of you every details your orders, your favorite drinks… it hurt me.
You were so easy to read because how you treat me is how you feel about me. From the very beginning to the very end, I never ask to reassure anything because you were always the one to show the efforts of keeping me. But now that I don’t receive that energy and efforts anymore, I kinda know that it’s the right time we both end it.
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Alright so……where should I even start? It’s just that the memories and all the moments we had are too much to be organized and spoken by words. U’ve gone, i should’ve step forward too, but I couldn’t because I keep looking back at all the sweet talks we had, the love we spread, the scent of yours, especially the face I once fell for. Like, How could I walk myself forward imagining not being able to have u by my side like I used to? I wouldn’t wanna be cringe and creating poetry about our stories iswtg, But ever since u’ve left, I look for u in everyone, I look for u at everywhere and that shyt sucks, cuz I should know u wouldn’t think of me that way like i do. There’s none a day I didn’t think about u. There’s none a second I didn’t miss u. We might not make it works out this time, nevertheless let’s meet again next year, next 5 years or maybe next 10 years. I would love to start things again with u and try to make it all works out like I used to dream of the two of us. I’m wondering Where did we went wrong? ✌🏻This one is for u guys who are reading this, I wantin to share abit of what i regret and I hope u guys won’t do it like I did. The reason we ended up is not for the reasons of cheating, 3rd person, or things. Looking back at it, I was also part of the problem because I realize that “a love works out when both of us love each other the same way” while b4 I was the type of “a love only work out when the guy gives love more” that was completely wrong. U girls and guys should stop if u have it that way. U love em? Show em ur all. U care for em? Just go ahead n ask em how their day went.U want em?Fight for it. I’m pretty sure a word of yours will surely brighten their days up.This is how rlts works, if u are selfish or still expectin to gain more than u give, then don’t ask for love. Last words for him: Till this day, I still miss and miss you. What if in the next few years and I still can’t get over you? I don’t want to forget you n I hope u won’t forget me too.
Nothing to share in here, just wanted to ask have you ever chatted with someone and that person suddenly show the type of disgusting, unacceptable personality… so you decided to ghosted him in a friendly way( just short and late reply to give him the hint and stop texting you) but at the same time you feel scare of him. What does it means?
Anyone know how to get over it ? From a man who’s almost achieves his dream and now he’s nothing left to lose.
I lost my friend several months ago. she was someone I talked to every day and even asked for advice. and we met when we’re studying in Australia. It still feels unreal every time I see her photos with a smiley face, I still have difficulty believing she’d do it. how can a girl who is always smiling dealing with mental illness and nobody knows about it. There were no warning signs. she is a person I wished I could be more like (not jealousy, I’m just admire her). Happy, creative, smart, perfect family status, beautiful smiles. Always upbeat and looking out for others. She texted me a day earlier before it happened. I should’ve talked to her that day a little more…why didn’t I. The way it happened was shocking. I still wonder if I could have helped her that day. It's almost like it never happened because it just doesn't seem real, it was so unexpected. As I'm typing this its just actually hitting me again that she is really gone. but looking back, yeah, there were some signs because I accidentally saw her searching about medicine but she said it was just research projects. the guilt in my guts is overwhelming. I also noticed that she was extremely exhausted and kinda isolated herself from anyone earlier that month but I was pretty naive on top of that. It really bothers me now, because she was obviously giving some signs but I was too stupid to realize what was going on. I LOVE YOU, S P.S If someone is popping up in your mind while reading this please don’t ignore them and checking on them every chance you get as the last chance you will ever have may have been yesterday. Be there when you can. Even if its just checking up on someone. If you care about someone, let them know. If someone reaches out to you, even a little... be there for them. You never know when they are in their final moment of desperation. Not everyone will have the same signs. Some won’t have any at all. If you suspect something at all... just let them know you care and that if they ever need to talk, that you are there for them. That they are never a burden, not to you. Even if they never open up to you, just hearing that can make a world of difference. And if you are struggling yourself, please open up to someone. Anyone. Even if its someone you don't know that well. There is nothing wrong if you’re going to met therapist.