My Fault
-N💗 Im sorry for hurting you. It was childish of me to do that to you. I don’t expect u to forgive me. I wish I could take every ounce of pain u feel right now. I love you, always. #221020
I reached a point where love is not that necessary to me. Idk, i feel like I'm waiting for something yet i don't even know what it is. (my kiddo back from UK, or Angel falling from a sky ? or That kretttt Sound from ATM?) seeing people i know going through from one relationship to another one- sometime i feel like i'm just a NPC in a game. i don't have to feel, whatsoever... just be there and stand still. Someone said to me " if you really love something, beside of scare being hurt- you should go for it like you used to." - it's not like i don't want to, It's just people take you for granted for so long and you tend to lose a soft spot for them and that SXXT traumatized you. To all people who like me ~ i hope you take it easy on people who want to be with you - idk give them a chance and try be reasonable with them. (esp: cancer sign woman: They are the purest people i know (alot of them but not all) - if they love you- trust me- Even godzilla can't do anything to you) All they want is just being with you ! Btw, Go stream BIGBANG- Still life ~ Thank you 🔥🤍
-N💗 Im sorry for hurting you. It was childish of me to do that to you. I don’t expect u to forgive me. I wish I could take every ounce of pain u feel right now. I love you, always. #221020
This is to #KJ0605 . It breaks my heart seeing girls being guilt tripped about this topic. I hope this message goes to all girls who are hating her body regardless of you breaking up with your boyfriend or not. I hope it goes to all fathers and brothers, hopefully all the future husbands as well. Broken hymen is a myth. You may do some research on this if you like. My love, Virginity is a social construct, and your value is not attach to it. Your hymen doesn’t break, and no not everyone bleeds on their first sexual intercourse. Every hymen looks different, have different shapes and holes, some ppl are born without one. It is very important to understand your body anatomy. My love, you are beautiful and strong. If you are worried, please worry whether your beliefs on the “purity” of women is actually worth believing. Whether you are 18 or 21 or 31, whether you are married or single, you are worthy of respect. You are more than your virginity. If nobody loves you, this sister loves you❤️
Nothing was wrong with you, I swear. The one who was problematic is me, myself. As soon as I sensed that you have developed feeling for me, I tried to warn you not to fall for me several time. At that time, I was suffered from my ex-crush who got in a relationship with another man. (I loved my crush so much back then). To be honest, I didn't want you to get caught up in my pain. The one who should suffer from that burden is nobody but myself. I even told you my story (you are the only one I ever told my story) and told you not to fall for me. I knew even if I got in that relationship I won't commit completely and even if I asked you to wait, it would way too unfair for you. However, I know you are someone who love hard and you shouldn't waste time with me and you deserve something better. Back then, I took a harsh decision, I blocked you out of blue so that you would hate me and forget me (and yes, it worked). I knew that you would suffer from that, but I guess it is better to suffer in short terms rather than living in pain everyday right? It is completely ok to hate me, to blame me, it is reasonable and logical. After that incident, I avoid making friend with girl as much as possible, I don't want to commit the same mistake again and again. Recently, I did sneak check on you and I found out you are in a new relationship and you both seems so happy. That is the outcome I expected. Seeing you in your current state, I knew I took the right decision after all. You are someone who should live a happy life because it is all you deserve. Nobody should experience the same pain as I did. I will remember that I was once loved. I don't hold any grudge against you. I do respect and appreciate you from the bottom of my heart. I wish you all the best.
It’s 1am now. But my parents still fighting
One of my male colleagues and I are so close, but the closest thing I mentioned was that I'm the one who's trying to get close to him. I think I like him a lot, but I'm not daring to tell him. I don't want to ruin the relationship between us. It was good enough for me to have him during my stressful times, happy times, busy times, and anytime I needed him. I'm so grateful. Even if in the future you're not mine, I believe you will be a good husband to your future wife like how you're treating me these days. I'm a bit jealous of whoever deserves you, but if you're happy, I'm happy too. Day by day, my day becomes more and more colorful and shines since I have you by my side. You're so good for my mental health. It was so boring when you were complaining about this and that, but it is so empty without those complaints. I want you, the person who is giving me these good feelings, to feel them as well; to feel loved by someone; to feel treated well; and to be my lover, so I don't have to worry about your future wife. Thank you for being there for me during my hard times. I really appreciated every moment I had with you.
I couldn’t call it an end because we have never begun anything. We were friends, but both of us have crossed the line. He told me that he had feelings for me, that he wanted to be with me, but he wouldn’t be committed to me. Later on I asked him what were we, he ignored my question and changed the topic. I guess that’s where my insecure became worse. He always had time for everything except me. For his movies, games, football, friends... He always forgot things that he said he will do with me. From small daily things to dates. Whenever I was feeling down, he ignored me. I kept being insecure and mad over everything, and finally he fell out of love. I guess it was my fault. For being broken and unable to love properly. I didn’t know if I am to blame or the environment I’m in is. However, he was different. He was enthusiastic about everything in life. Maybe, we weren’t just meant to be. We were too different. From background to personality. Now, I think he’s seeing someone new. Honestly, I felt miserable. I questioned myself if I was that easy to forget and replace? Did everything between us mean nothing for him? Was he just lonely and that’s not love for him? Whatever it is, I wish him all the best. I hope he’s happy with her. That’s the last thing I can do for him, giving him the peace he’s always wanted. I learned my lesson here. There’s no way someone will be ready for you if they weren’t from the start. Don’t wait for them. When they aren’t sure about you, and won’t commit, leave. Turn away and run and never coming back.
I don’t know what to say about this and I maybe think negative on her or what just tell ? She always heak ke me nv muk ke ( pm pseng pseng) Tae nh kor ot tob tor tv her vinh dea tus rg she kit tah Eng tha trov tan she ot sur me tha Rg men ot . Hz one day she heak ke me Rg secret Thom me Tae me men khg klang te kron orn jit why she do like that ? I admit that Rg ng men ten dea she yy Tae men trov tan os and nh explain Sleng reang klang dea and she jab derm yy tha Mii ng lv pas lg ban hz cuz pi mun nh ot dea tob vinh term lerk nis te dea nh hean tob cuz hous hat pek . Hz jab tan pi ngai ng she kor jab derm yy akk yy klang jreang mun hz nh kor jab derm distance pi her cuz I love her so much but she yy jab derm yy derm tha me ng mean ss leng der muy pm tang Kapit me kron ot jg chlous knea muy her te and my gp leng sv yy muy me Dh mun dea but now I’m move on without telling this story with another . I have only her and now she do like that to me . It hurt so much and nh ot jg yy rg orn jit tv brab her cuz klach chlous knea klang jreang ng cuz ke kan Jerng her jren jreang nh tan dea ke ot sur me why I distance from this gp . Sorry write tan yum jg reang bak mer tic aii bong .
i saw admin's post #AdminKJ001, i kinda agree but during this time, no matter how good u did, u still get ur heart broken. somehow, i still believe in love bcuz of the way i love. yet, im better off alone bcuz love in this generation sucks. prolly, no one deserved my feelings and love anymore.