i wish i could only be poor to the point i can handle it.

Waiting…

We broke up and you found someone new. It was a dark time for the two of us. I got my problem and you got yours. Yes, we start spending less time together because life keep throwing us lemon and make everything sour between us. Deep down in my heart, I still love you, I still miss everyplaces we went together, drink, eat … The parking spot that i park my car and we shared about problems… I missed all of that. Now that you left, I try to avoid all the places that we been to together… every time i when there, in my head, I saw shadows of your and flashbacks of you every details your orders, your favorite drinks… it hurt me.

1 is not enough

Sometimes I questioned your mind. You’re in one healthy relationship, yet you can’t be loyal. How’s it that you can do this so easily? How would you expect me to react to your text with others, you replied their story with such enthusiasm, asking how they’re doing, what they’re doing? You kept on telling me how you don’t mess around with other. So what is this? Work related again? Or were you being friendly although you said you’re friends? I thought I was special. I’m so disappointed in you . #S

Secondhand embarrassment

Well, I had a feeling for someone who’s I never met in my entire life. But idk I feel wrong at some points cuz I alr confessed to that person. Um, it was actually the most embarrassing moment of my life to reveal what I actually think n rlly want that person to know even tho we’re just strangers. We agreed to be friends by now but it’s feel weird after that stupid confession. I wish I didn’t send that cuz it’s better to be strangers who don’t know each one exists. (Ik its vol n I’m sorry.)

2025-08-14

Unexpected change

...when it comes to a long distance relationship, communication is the key, they said. as students, we both have a lot of works need to be completed, but at the first few months it kinda work well, we both put efforts, make time for each other, and share almost everything. Times passed, people changed, they start to take things private, talk less or not even talk to each other for weeks,sometimes :), hmmm from every late night call to a good night message, no time for the one that is waiting for their messages and their presence, the one who wants to know whether it was their good or bad day, the one who wish to listen to everything and cheer them up with the sense of humorous>.<. The feeling of one-sided love comes, yet one still trying their best to keep the relationship even they've been through many sleepless nights. People changed with time, but the way you have changed is really far far away from my expectations. Goodnightmymoon❤️

I'm starting to lose track of my feelings...

I'm not sure what's wrong with me at the moment. I used to expect my lover to be concerned about me, to adore me, to be childish and clingy in the same way that I am. And it didn't even happen on the day I expected it to, and my lover doesn't seem to mind what I said. Most of the time My lover alway keep me waiting , late text or call and even leave me alone for long. And am so upset with this attitude. My lover’s gone from being a don't care to wanting to spend time with me, talking with me, and appreciating me a lot now. And I'm not really that excited and happy anymore. I don't feel as if I'm excited anymore, which seems normal to me. Is this because I used to have high expectations on my lover, or because I'm gradually losing interest in my lover ?

i wish i could only be poor to the point i can handle it.

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