Dear My Little Seth <3

I hope you doing well my little Seth. I miss you so so bad. I miss the way we talked. I miss how lovely you are to me. I miss how gentle you are. I miss the way you called me my little Junn, Junn Junn, baby Junn... and I also miss your questions, are you tired? where are you now? what are you doin? have you eaten?... Even though we met by online but i admit that i like you for real. and yeahh, if we are meant to be, we will meet each other again someday. Please be safe, take careeeee, get some rest and dont forget to drink water a lot naaaaa. Sethh San, Anata ga koishī.

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Respect my boundaries.

A couple days ago I accidentally see my boyfriend’s liked video on TikTok and surprisingly that most of them are girls. He also followed them on instagram. I thought they’re his friends, classmates…but I as wrong. He saw them on TikTok and then started following them on instagram. To be clear, this isn’t about liking the pictures, it’s about the fact that I’ve asked him to stop. Clearly it crosses some boundary to me. He also told me that “ it’s not a big deal, I’m being insecure, every guys did that “. Does all the guys do the same ?? Following random girls on instagram after they have seen them on TikTok?? P.S we’ve been dating for a decent amount of time and I regretted that I checked his following on instagram just for a sake to break my heart…

I’m afraid to be selfish

My significant other deserves the world. They were there when I was at my lowest and had nothing. I’ve always put them first, pour everything from my heart and be the selfless person that I am. I can feel that we mean a lot to each other, but sadly when I am speaking of this, I can only continue with past tense. The passion for me has already long faded, only traces remain of it’s former glory, whereas theirs still shine so brightly. An age old saying goes that if it no longer brings you joy, then let it go. In my case, I am not holding onto a rose with thorns, but simply a flower I no longer wish to hold. So it’s okay, for I have already picked up this flower, it is my duty to continue to hold and protect it, for I am afraid to be selfish, and let this flower go.

It’s alright

I’ve seen a lot of post about suicidal thought and people trying to commit the act. I just want to tell those of you who are struggling out there that “it’s alright”. It’s alright, I’ve been through this before as well. Although I’ve never been that suicidal, the thought of “if my life ends, then many problems and burdens will be solved” did cross my mind. It takes a lot of willpower and strength to get through this phase as I would shut myself inside my room all day and night and on social media during my high school years. There were times I was upset with my parents, of them blaming me, and scolding me for various mundane things that happen in our everyday life. However, I want to tell you that it’s alright to run to your parents and hug them with all you have, they would not mind it even if you guys are currently in an argument. It’s alright to tell your friends and others “I cannot do this anymore. I’m tired and wanna be left alone”. It’s alright to feel overwhelmed and go through this phase, I believe we have gone through this teenage and young adult phase at least once in our lives. I am not telling you that suicide is wrong and you shouldn’t do it, I am trying to say that it should be your very last option. Wallow in your tears, your sadness, your stress, your burdens, your self-pity all you want. Most people blame themselves for not being good enough rather than actually addressing their fears and inhibitions. Perhaps it is easier to ignore all that is happening around you. I am not entertaining nor romanticizing suicidal thought, but if you still cannot find a better option or a better way to live your life, then it is alright to end it.

Do broken people deserve love?

I went over to a camping trip sometimes ago and I felt in love with this one girl. We still meet each other sometimes. She was spectacular, the most amazing person I've ever known. She was compassionate, kind and understood me more than anybody ever did. She has shaken the my wall I've built up to never love anyone too much so I can never hurt. I want our relationship to develop further but I'm not sure about myself. I'm just a broken person, depressed, wasted. I don't want to fix this issue by having another person to fix me because that's not the right way to do. Any advices?

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Wrong love

I know we both are girls but I don’t know why I fall in love with you and always fell harder every time I see your smile your laugh . Thinking about it’s again I know it’s only me the one who fell and even harder.

Farewell little squirrel

Guess It’s time that we parted our ways. I’ve really tried everything I can for you. Things I was never willing to do for anyone else... but I’ve been feeling so tired... I couldn’t see where I stand. I couldn’t see if things between us are going to be better. I couldn’t see your commitment, and I’ve waited for you long enough. So I give up. To protect the little pride I have left. Hope you meet someone better and has the same love language as you. We’re not made for each other. Farewell, love.

a message in the bottle, hope it gets to you.

Hi, we haven’t talked for awhile. You’ve been moving on with your new life while I am still stuck in the same place. The same place that used to have you here. You haven’t told me yet but I heard that it’s nearly your engagement day. Hope you’re doing well. I am indeed still care but it’s not my place to take care of you anymore. I had said “i love you” many times for the past months just in case you know...it would change your mind. From “the one” you told that no one will ever replace her place;