What I did, I do and I’ve done.

I asked you to move on and find someone who would give u the love that you deserve. U did. I promise that we still be friend afterwards. And I keep our promise. Lastly, you have found your happiness as my will for you has been fulfilled. Everything goes as planned, but why I’m still hurt?

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2025-08-14

your presence

it's so weird to no longer have someone in your life. whether it's a friend you don't talk to anymore or a partner you've broken up with, it's so weird to be left with all of this knowledge of someone else and have no use for it anymore. like the way they drink their coffee, their favorite meal when they're sad, a story they told you abt their childhood when you both saw something that reminded them of said story so now you're reminded of it too when you see that thing. and to have someone out in the world with so much intimate and casual knowledge of you and you wonder if they feel happy or sad or uncaring when they see something that reminds them of you too.
2025-08-14

Hatred

What would you do if you found out you're just an alternative or a shadow to his ex? Do you feel hurt? Angry? Hatred? Because I do. It was not wrong to not love somebody. What's wrong is how you keep telling me how much you love me, then keep going back to your ex. What's wrong is how you told me to forget the past and start it all again, then betray me and do all those things again the next day. What's wrong is how you told me to put my heart into trusting you, but you're using my trust against me. You kept saying you love me, but that's not love. There's no way you can love me when you still keep everything from your past. There's no way you can love me when you can fall in love with another girl within a week. There's no way you can love me when you regret being with me and hope you have chosen her instead. The funny thing is, people hurt me, but I'm now the bad guy. I hope all those people who did me wrong, who invalidate my feeling, who blame me for reacting the way I did, will all get their karma very soon. I have all this rage in me because I'm the one that has been suffering. To the people that said that it was normal and I was the one that overreacting, I hope you will be treated like this for the rest of your life. I was never someone who hold a grudge and be so revengeful, anyone who knows me knows how I always forgive people, but not this time. I choose to heal in hell.

2025-08-14

Remember to love yourself, hot mama

1. Your body is more than just what it looks like. Your body has kept you alive through a pandemic - how amazing is that? It works so hard everyday. Your body enables you to run, to do daily activities, to study and work and do the things you love. So remember to love and take care of it, and nourish your body and soul. Don’t punish it. Remember to eat, because food is fuel. There’s no bad food or good food. 2. Your clothes fit you, not “you have to fit into your clothes”. It’s okay to gain or lose weight, to go up or down clothing sizes. You probably don’t look like your high school self anymore because you’re not supposed to. Remember that some of us are growing boys and girls, and our bodies will change, and that’s totally fine ❤️ Remember to embrace it :) 3. There is no “perfect” body (long legs, flat stomach). Everyone’s body is different. You might see pictures of models online looking all slim and fit, their bellies flat. But no one looks like that *all the time* in real life. Poses, tensing, edits - you see the highlights, what they want you to see. You can unfollow accounts that make you feel bad. It’s okay to have fat, to have fat on your belly; it’s a food pouch that holds happiness!! Your perfect body is whatever you want it to be, as long as you’re happy and healthy and comfortable. You’re beautiful and anyone who tells you otherwise can shove a porcupine up their ass yeehaw. 4. You can love yourself just as you are now. You don’t have to wait until you’re prettier or thinner or more successful, more worthy to start loving yourself. You are worthy of love, right now just as you are. 5. If you don’t think you look good in pictures, maybe it’s because you have the kind of beauty that moves :) - a reddit comment I saw years ago I’ve struggled with body image issues for a few years now, and these are things I have to keep telling myself. I believe them some days less than other days, and my relationship with food and my body still isn’t the best. But that’s okay. Self-love is a journey. I hope these little reminders can help anyone out there struggling with their body too ❤️

2025-08-14

I miss me, being with you

Throw back to yr 1, I think I had the most beautiful moment crushing on someone. She's my first love, I'm just not lucky enough to make her mine. Plus I crushed on her knowing she got a boyfriend. We became close, probably because of our personalities match and had alot of things in common. I think she is a type I always ask for. We got the same age, but she is so much more mature. She cared and noticed every little thing about me. She always make me feel special. Sometimes, we hold hands in the mall and during class. She used to called me her soulmate. We are lovebird in our class. I kept rejecting, saying no when our classmates talked about us as a couple.(inside, smiling and wishing it was true) xD I really miss me being with her. I miss reading book, paying attention in class, finishing my homework, learning new things, improving my grammar, caring my own health, going to gym, eating healthy food, being kind to other, fullfiling my commitment, keep things under control, keeping my promise, calming down my anger, being a reasonable person, being okay to say sorry. I miss being a better person, just to catch her attention. I miss trying to be a person that come in package. Being an understanding, a sweet, responsible, respectful and a romantic boyfriend, that she always wanted. I remembered days, the first thing I do when I got school is looking for her white scoopy and pink helmet. Everytime I saw her motor at the parking lot, I was so happy going to class, knowing I'm going to see her in any minute soon. Till today, with a little pain in my heart, such a warming one, I still can say I'm glad not telling her about my feeling toward her. We are now still friend, kinda close as before. I got a girlfriend, and sometimes I run to her when I fight with my girlfriend. She's still the same, being an understanding one, giving advice and comfort with care. I'm glad, staying in her life in a position that I able to hear everything about her, everything she wanna talk and going through. I'm glad being a shoulder she can cry on, playing her hair, stabbing her head gently anytime I want to. I am now graduated 3yr already. If I can keep it this long time, I really wish this can be forever. I think I am now being selfish. The thought of losing her is really scary. PS: I am gay.
2025-08-14

Hope someday we will meet again

It has been 2 years and 6 months since we broke up, but I still miss those days That, hours of chatting, Fighting over little things , Late night talks , Sharing secrets , Weird dreams , Being possessive , Attitudes , Waiting for your texts, Watching our pics and texts over and over , Smiling for no reason , Trusting you blindly , Your hugs and kisses , Your innocent wishes… And now it's just having Blank inbox , Hours of loneliness , Unshared emotions , Late night thinking, Heartbreaking secrets ,Shattered dreams, Deleted memories ,Broken trust, Devious heartaches I don’t know why I Am still waiting for you , still hope someday we will meet each other again .
2025-08-14

What is forever?

What does it mean when someone used to promise that we will be forever together. But then how long is that forever? Maybe I define it wrongly by myself….. his meaning of forever is different from mine…… Maybe I’m too dumb to believe in such words, such promise.

2025-08-14

We're more than friends and we both know that.

We're been friends for years. There were sometimes we ain't interact during the years. I don't know what happened as well yet we're back to talk with each other and more deeper than normal friends do. We support and stay with each other whenever one has the hardest time. We held hands; we hugged each other. We told each other about our days, where we are, what we eat, whom we go with, and when we arrive our own destinations. I don't know why we both keep doing this way everyday but like a couple does, but we are just FRIEND. By the way, I myself would prefer this way. don't want to into relationship because I don't want to lose you one day. Hopefully, other person could take you a great care instead of me. FRIEND 💓
2025-08-14

Have you ever missed me once ?

From someone you didn’t talk to anymore. It’s been almost 3 years since we met each other in China . Everything went smoothly for us until we got back to our home country. You started to change all of your attitude toward me, the text became emotionless as cold ice. Anything reminds me of you even your favorite drink, favorite dessert, favorite food and all the things we used to do together. Have you ever thought about how we spend there ? How we talked? How we explore the Chinese food ? How I walked you to your school gate ? Have you ever missed me even once? Did anything remind me of you? #KNT01.