Just as the title. We've been close friends for years, and just recently, I've realized that I may have started to see him as more than a friend. I really enjoy his company. I feel safe around him, and he's my go-to person when I'm feeling happy or feeling down. In fact, I'm a person with a plan, and when I was thinking of my future, he comes to mind too. I know it may sound very cliche but that is the moment I realize I may have liked him more than a friend. However, I'm still very confused because I've known him for so long, so why now? Is it because we've been there for each other because we've been abroad through difficult time so we comfort each other? Is it because I was worried that he may feel lonely or even depressed during the lockdown so I kept on checking up on him? I don't have any answers to this and I hope I can be sure of my feelings soon. Just want to share this in case anyone has also experienced this.
I feel that every single day and I hate it. I hate myself for having that feeling when I'm supposed to feel so grateful for whatever I have right now. People around me are all so successful and smart and everything and I look like a clown by existing everyday. I freaking hate it.
I really miss you and It doesn’t matter how long I have to wait for you 3 months,5 months 1 year, 3 years it doesn’t matter. I want the dream that both of us dreamt of come true. I know everything seems cloudy for the both of us… But remember everything is going to be fine…. Until we meet again…
Sometimes, happiness is only a cloak to hide one sorrow.
We been together almost 2 years. Everything went well until you adjusted yourself to someone else that I don’t know. I hate me for being annoying to get your attention, to get your caring and love. I hate me that I always want to meet you. I hate me that I can’t let you go even tho you ask to leave more than 10 times and I still asking you to stay.
I used to be that type of person too tho:). I find it easy to cope stress on my own but one day you might just losen out for a really big time. So, it's better to let your friend know even if it's hard for you to open up. Just spit a bit even if it's seem nonsense to your friend. This is weird for me to share my experience with a stranger xD.
So, a few months ago, my girlfriend's granddad passed away. And now, her grandma, who's getting up there in age, has been losing her short term memory. It's really sad because she's still torn up about losing her husband of 60 years. What makes everything even worse is that every morning when she wakes up, she forgets that he's gone. She makes him breakfast and brings it to his study, but he's not there. So, she ends up wandering around the whole house, going from room to room looking for him. Eventually, she calls up one of her kids to ask where he is, and they have to tell her what happened all over again. And then she cries for the rest of the day like it just happened.
Hi! Yeah it's weird when I have to express this feeling, but it's kinda worse if I don't speak it out and keep it in my head a little longer. I know it's only 3 or 4 months that we've known each other, and it even started from a complete stranger who have connection only on social media. However, the feeling I had for you were real. I really wish that it could work out for us, or maybe we could do better than this, or at least we have a better ending. I regret for the action I did without the consideration of your feeling, I really do. Until these day I still feel sorry for doing those dumb things. I chatted to you because I miss you, I care for you, I don't want bad stuff to happen to the person I care so much about; but it broke me to pieces when you told me that you're dating someone now. I'm happy to see you smile, really. I'm happy for you that you're with a better person who will provide what you want and what you need. But at the same time, I was sitting in the corner of room thinking about you all day. I couldn't focus on my working and studying. Everything were bad for me, it left the scar on my heart. Yet, I still have the urge to look at our old conversation. Just to find out and tell myself that I have lost the person I love the most to a stupid mistake, and there's no way I can reverse or go back in time to erase what I had done but to accept the truth that you're gone. One last thing, it's close to your birthday and I still have the gift that I bought for you months ago. I hope I can give it to you, but I don't wanna make you feel uncomfortable seeing me. On top of that, I don't wanna be a conflict between you and your partner. Goodluck with your new journey, and yeah last long.
I am depressed, insecurities filled my mind, anxiety consumed my daily life. I am filled with hate and resentment towards myself. I want to be happy but I just can't seem to be, I put on a fake smile in front of everybody but I am getting very exhausted doing so. I want to keep going but I feel like I am on the edge of the cliff and I am about to jump...! I cried for help but my family didn't seem to care, not many people seem to care, am I worthless? What is my purpose in life? Why am I here? Somebody help me!