Reply to #KJ0382

I used to be that type of person too tho:). I find it easy to cope stress on my own but one day you might just losen out for a really big time. So, it's better to let your friend know even if it's hard for you to open up. Just spit a bit even if it's seem nonsense to your friend. This is weird for me to share my experience with a stranger xD.

Feeling bottled up?

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To the guy I love most, Sophea.

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changed

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I was chasing for someone love than I was lost in game.

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