Today is a good day.
I don’t want to think negative in our friendships. But since this happened, i do feel i was ignored from all of you. I’m really disappointed honestly but I can’t tell. I don’t expect anything from you but sometimes I hurt myself. If you see this, don’t ask me if it’s mine cuz that’s mine.
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ទិញរបស់ញ៉ាំយកទៅអោយ my bf ដល់កន្លែងធ្វើការ វាមិនខ្ចីចង់ចុះមកយក ពេលមកយកវាមិនខ្ចីចង់មើលមុខឯង។ ឯងជិះមកវិញ មិនទាន់ផុត ១០០ ម៉ែត្រផង វាឆាតថា ឈប់ទិញអោយវាទៀត។ វាចង់ វាចេះទិញផឹកស៊ីហើយ។ អញ គាំងម៉ាជីវិត ហេតុតែអញកម្មក្រាស់ជាមួយហែង ហែងចាំមើល តែអញមានកូន អញទាត់ក្បាលហែងចោលហ្មង
My mental health is breaking down so is my mind. The cheerful me have gone and I wish I could have someone who stay by my side and tell me “Everything will be fine.” :)
But what if I fail? what if fail?what should I do? What am I going to do next? What's their first impression when they know that I fail?what if they hate they? disgusted me? disappointed in me? scold me? look down on me? what's going to happens? should I just kill myself right away?I don't know I just knew that if I am really fail, the next thing is I'm not in my right mind,my mental health is unstable,all I can think is die cause im scared to tell them,I don't think I have any courage to tell them,I don't think I am brave enough to see their reaction after I tell them that I fail.. If I actually going to fail ,all I want is someone I trust to be by my side,I don't need their comfort words,all I want is someone to sit by my side and stop me from killing myself cause I can't trust myself..I just can't. But I don't have anyone.None. all my favorite people are gone. They're too far away. #BacII14/11/22
Have you ever wondered about yourself that you get along with people so well, you adapt yourself into everyone's comfy zone, but they can't adapt back to you. I, myself, have been into so many situations where the person i loved couldn't bare to love me back. We both felt the same way for each other. But when it comes to relationship, It's became so weird and it gets to the point where both of us should part ways and stay friend. Things weren't like that when we were friend. It gets complicated when we both push the boundary. Was it my fault? Until thesedays i still have the same questions running around my head, living rent free. Where/What did i do wrong?.
Maybe one day, we'll meet again and explain to each other what really happened. Maybe one day we'll finally understand. Until then, I hope you live your best life and I hope you really do all the things you always wanted to do.
Where should i start with? From which part should i start telling? Hi! I am a 19 years old girl who still get beating by a dad if i ever stand up for myself, asking for my right. I am an 19 years old girl who still to all the scolding, mocking, cursing even tho i earn my own money for 3ys already. I never feel the love that a parents should be giving to their child. They only end up make me feel insecure about myself, losing confident from time to time and end up locking myself for 1 years 6months in the house. Each time i got hit by my dad my mom stood aside watching and sometime she act like nothing happen. She never teach me to fight back she only told me to keep shut and let my dad hit me and same go to my brother when he get hit by my dad. Dad often told me he love me that why he yelling and do violence on me. He never compete his role as he dad. He never even know what i am doing each day never even appreciate my success nor being happy with my highest score, rate in any competition and class..... What can i say? Ik i'm strong and smart. But i am a girl who lack of love. Tbh i sometime feeling to proud of myself bc looking to everything i did. There never a help from my parents.