Confess ot del approve sos tang pi khae 3:D
If I’m honest, I’d say it hurts me too. It’s like something is stuck inside my chest that I don’t even know how to get it out. It hurts even worse when I ended it and you didn’t even bother to ask for explanation as if you were waiting for me to leave all along.
I have a secret that I need to tell. A secret that has made me live in hell. It was quite a long time ago, I was s€xual harassed by someone I trusted and thought of as family. I alternated between guilt for let it happened, feeling dirty and unable to get clean. I haven’t told my parents or his parents because I’m sacred of victims blaming culture in this society. I don’t even told my friends about it either not because of victims blaming but I just can’t talking about it. Lately, something so miniscule triggered me and it’s unbearable. It ended up being connected to my nightmare again and it changed my quality of life. I thought that it was no longer bothered me anymore but it doesn’t. I’m terrified every time I smells the same cologne that he used. I went through “I hate all men” phase. It’s certainly changed my view of men, I’ll be never be able to look at men entirely the same way again. It’s my first time to talk about it since it has happened. Thanks, admin for letting me share it with KnongJit.
Do you know how I came here? I’m trying to forget you. It took me five hours to bike here, a coffee store in the middle of a mountain. I was running away from you for six months. I tried so hard to not thinking about you, avoiding your social media, ignoring your favorite meal, when it appears in front of me. Why do you not fade even a little? How could you show up here so easily? and You forgot me so easily. So~ Why can’t I... 😢 This is killing me. Answer me [Why is it so easy for you?]
I don't think you lied when you said " I love you " You meant it, but the love is not strong enough. Not strong enough to care about me; not strong enough to ever afraid of losing me; not strong enough to change for me; not strong enough to ask me to stay. And you let me go. I should have asked you when you said you love me. How much is the love...? 'cause now I'm suffering in the consequences of loving you too hard alone... I don't regret meeting you... But sometimes I wish I should have turned away the first time I met you... I wish I didn't choose to trust you. I wish I hadn't let myself fall for you. I wish.
I'm not sure u'll see this post or not but it always simple like the way u never see me too ;( I know that was along journey between us, being with you as I always wish but I know I went too far from what u never want to, feel like I'm the only once, It a bit hurt but I could understand we can't push someone to love us back it because u also have someone special in your heart someone that u feel different way from me, still I'm asking myself why I'm jealous since I'm not him. It okay to be hurt like this because I can feel your feeling too to be with person we don't want to, I always want to be just like him the once that u always take care of, the once that u never ignored ... look how stupid I think this never gonna happen stupid me. Ur happiness was always my happiness even with or without me :))
I would say that I’m a well reserved kid and always think it through before I take action. I’ve always thought that I’m strong enough to deal with all the problem. I’ve always thought that I am not jealous of anything or anyone around me. But, I realize I do care. I’m jealous that other family is having fun with their children. I’m jealous that their parents are always be there and give them the support. I’m jealous that others don’t have to deal with mental pressure. I’m jealous that things have never been well no matter how hard I try to fix. When will this end? I’m tired…..
I crush on someone who I met in online app. At first he add friend to me. In
Even the title is “ Our Story “ but you have no idea about it. I wrote it my own , you are the main lead who, the main actress which is me fell in love with every piece of mine whereas you don’t know you are the main lead who the main actress adore so much. No matter how cold or heartless you’ve been to her. You mean a lot to her and for you , we just mean to meet. I was a barely page in your book but you filled every space in mine. This is the end of the story that never start but here I am still admiring you from far apart.