for my kitty

2025-08-14

Some of my point of view in these past few years for hiding from the reality.

Dope I am a kind of person that would build the walls instead of the bridge because I used to experience some trauma events in the past. [newLine*] [newLine*] They used to call me “ sensitive, dramatic, self victimized, stupid, etc.” And here I am, being a cold hearted person ever in my life. I don’t like the version of today’s me yet, I am still glad that it kinda makes me stronger and be more careful around my surroundings. Running away from my own feelings is one of my coping mechanisms since it is the best way to do so when it comes to expressing emotions. I wanted to open up and have the healthiest relationship with others but the dark inner part of me is still keep telling me that they will judge me in every possible way that they could also the people that I expect then to be will be leave me eventually anyway so instead of being my real self, I just show them what they wanted to see from me.[newLine*] [newLine*] Losing the ones that I love is also a tragic cause for my mental health too. My mom passed away since I was 6 years old and I hadn’t had the mother-daughter moments yet and it really broke my heart ‘til nowadays. So instead of crying, I usually hide my true emotions and keep moving forward when I was still not healed from what broke me in the past. I used to held grudges, always get jealous when they got what I wanted, they have the best relationship with their families, they have a strong self confidence and many more. Very toxic person I could possibly find. [newLine*] [newLine*] But here I am, after all what I have been through both mentally and physically. A cold hearted b*tch also I am still keep finding out who I really am and what is my purpose of life. I still feel guilty when I hurt the ones that love me so, but nothing is permanent anyway so I’ll live the best of my life instead of pleasing other people. [newLine*] [newLine*]From, thyka. ♡︎

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2025-08-14

ជាអ្វីនឹងគ្នា?

ការចាប់ផ្តើមដំបូង ដោយសារការប្រលងឌីប្លូមធ្វើអោយពួកយើងស្គាល់គ្នា.បើគិតទៅ4ឆ្នាំហើយដែលយើងស្គាល់គ្នាហើយក៏4ឆ្នាំហើយដែលខ្ញុំតែងតែមានសំណួរមូយនៅក្នុងខួរក្បាលរហូត តើពួកយើងជាអ្វីនឹងគ្នាអោយប្រាកដ?4ឆ្នាំហើយដែលខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៌បែបចម្លែកៗដូចជាខ្ញុំកំពុងតែព្យាយាមចាប់យកអ្វីដែលដឹងថាមិនអាចទៅរួច!ខ្ញុំតែងតែចង់ព្យាយាមសារភាពការពិតដែល ប៉ុន្តែខ្ញុំមិនអាចហាមាត់និយាយវាចេញមកបានសោះ ខ្ញុំកំសាកណាស់មែនអត់ សារភាពក៏មិនហ៊ានបែបនឹង?អាចថាខ្ញុំកំសាកក៏ថាបានដែលមិនចង់បំបែកបំបាក់ស្នេហ៍គេ ត្រូវហើយគេមានមនុស្សដែលគេស្រឡាញ់ហើយ ខ្ញុំត្រឹមមិត្តចង់ឃើញគេមានក្តីសុខនឹងមនុស្សដែលគេស្រឡាញ់ខ្ញុំសុខចិត្តស្រឡាញ់គេតែម្នាក់ឯងក៏មិនបំបែកគេដែល ក្តីសុខរបស់ខ្ញុំគឺឃើញគេសប្បាយចិត្ត.មិត្តម្នាក់នេះអរគុណរយៈពេល4ឆ្នាំដែលអ្នកតែងតែធ្វើល្អដាក់ខ្ញុំរហូតមក ទង្វើល្អរបស់អ្នកអោយខ្ញុំកាន់តែបាក់ចិត្តស្រឡាញ់អ្នករាល់ថ្ងៃតែយ៉ាងណាក៏ខ្ញុំចង់ឃើញអ្នកសប្បាយណា ហើយ ឆាប់ចូលគេងណា ព្រោះខ្ញុំដឹងថាអ្នកមានបញ្ហការគេងតិចកុំគិតច្រើន ហើយឆាប់គេងពីមិត្តម្នាក់នេះ😊😊

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2025-08-14

Always You!

To you my priority, since the day you left, I’m certain that I’m not the same person as I used to be. I’m sure that my feeling right now isn’t okay and it hurts me the most. I wanted to let you know that, you’re the only one who made me know what love is, you’re the only one who made me feel warm and secure while I was with you, you’re the only one that my love for you is still the same since our first day until now, you’re the only one whom I have any plans for the future. All of the sacrifices, efforts, and times that I put in, I didn’t expect anything in return, other than your love and dedication. I did everything just to make you feel that you’re the only one that got all of those things from me, not everyone else. I did everything just to make you feel happy, warm, and comfortable. I’ve never stopped daydreaming about how I’m going to build my life, buy my first house, first car with you, and marry you one day. You know what? I see you every two weeks, and when I return home I feel as if I've lost something that no one or nothing can replace. I had the feeling that I was leaving something behind that would never come back. I miss you, I'm upset, I didn’t want to return home, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. You’re the only one, when I’m having fun and all I could think of is what if you were right here with me? I’d go on trips and while living in the moment, I allowed my imaginations to get ahead of me and I was able to picture you beside me and I got that feeling of “how nice would it be for you to be here with me”. To me, you’re perfect. To me, you’re beautiful as always in my eyes. I’m grateful you came into my life, I’m grateful for everything you’ve done for me. My love for you hasn't changed, and no one can take your place in my heart, my mind, and my brain. And I’m so sorry for what I’ve done to you. Sorry that I can’t keep you by my side. I’m still hoping everyday that you will come back to me again. You’re special to me. I’m so proud to have you in my life. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Your photo is still in my wallet, and your picture is still on my lock screen wallpaper. I wrote these letters with a song that I used to sing for you, When you’re home - Tyler Shaw. It’s 3AM now and I’m still thinking about you. I hope you will come back to me! #NL

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2025-08-14

Wait

ខ្ញុំមានរឿងក្នុងចិត្តមួយមកនិយាយខ្ញុំមានអារម្មណ៍ខុស បន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំបានធ្វើទង្វើអាក្រក់ដាក់អ្នកជាច្រើនប៉នែ្តមិនមែនខ្ញុំមិនស្រលាញ់អ្នកទេខ្ញុំស្រលាញ់អ្នកស្ទើរលេបទៅហើយប៉ុន្តែដោយសារតែខ្ញុំខ្លាចបាត់បង់អ្នកទើបខ្ញុំធ្វើបែបនេះព្រោះពេលនោះខ្ញុំមិនទាន់ស្គាល់អ្វីទៅដែលហៅថាការស្រលាញ់ខ្ញុំដឹងត្រឹមថាការស្រលាញ់គឺការប្រច័ន្ឌហួងហែងគ្នាទើបហៅថាក្ដីស្រលាញ់ប៉ន្តែបន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំបាត់បង់អ្នកទើបខ្ញុំដឹងថាការប្រច័ន្ឌហួងហែងគ្មានបានអ្វីក្រៅពីរឿងឈ្លោះប្រកែកគ្នានោះទេការដែរស្រលាញ់ពិតគឺជាការទុកចិត្តគ្នាទៅវិញទៅមកការដែរដឹងសុខទុក្ខគ្នាទៅវិញទៅមកការដែរយល់ពីគ្នា... ខ្ញុំទើបតែយល់ថានេះហើយគឺជាការផ្ដល់សេចក្ដីស្រលាញ់ឲ្យគ្នាពេញលេញ។ ខ្ញុំគ្រាន់តែមកសុំទោសនៅរាល់កំហុសដែលខ្ញុំបានធ្វើខុសដាក់អ្នក😊។ បន្ទាប់ពីពួកយើងបែកគ្នាហើយខ្ញុំនៅតែមានអ្នកក្នុងបេះដូងខ្ញុំជាប់ជានិច្ចនៅតែគិតនៅតែខ្វល់ខ្វាយប៉ន្តែមិនអីទេប្រហែលអ្នកបានជួបអ្នកថ្មីនោះគេល្អជាងខ្ញុំហើយ😊។ បន្ទាប់ពីខ្ញុំឃើញអ្នកនិងសង្សារថ្មីអ្នកសប្បាយខ្ញុំក៏មានអារម្មណ៍ថាសប្បាយដែរប៉ុន្ដែបើថ្ងៃណាមួយគេធ្វើបាបត្រូវចាំថាខ្ញុំនៅទីនេះនៅចាំលើកទឹកចិត្តអ្នកជានិច្ច។

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2025-08-14

A bestie

Hey Bxtch! I kinda miss the way that we joke around, go everywhere tgt, advising each other, caring each other, worrying each other, informing each other most of the time. til the day that we kinda officially separated, i dun think that it was a great way to be like that for both us, i think we might hurt both side. yess bestie! It alr long time ago, I think i can forget u, but i dun think so. everywhere we went, it left the footprint, even i date s1 and i saw that places, it left us behind. it's such a great time that we spent tgt, i literally miss everything we've been done. And I wish to say sorry to u for not catching up with u for so long, but i dun mean so. I can't help myself for not to be inlove with u, that must be the reason. yeah! but sometimes i do stalk u, and i dun feel too, yap, actually it is. I know u r with a great person, and i hope that he takes care of u better much better than i used to. From a good fri...

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2025-08-14

Unexpected dream

Dear mystery man, I still remember the trace of your hands that was slowly embracing me into your arms. It was such a wholehearted moment that I ever experienced, even though it was just a dream. The moment you hugged me, I immediately felt warmth from you already. I do not understand why nor remember your face however, the touch that you gave me in that dream was the best thing that ever happened to me.

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2025-08-14

To the toxic and low value ex boyfriend

You are the one who said breakup, and also you are the one who cut of the communication and relationship. But then after half fucking year , you came back like talking to me like nothing happen and saying let’s មើលចិត្តគ្នាសិន before we turn into relationship again, what the fuck are you thing about? Especially while talking to me, you are chatting and flirting with another person? What the fuck are you? Why are you still living in the earth? You doesn’t deserve even little good things in life. I wonder why am I ជាប់កាំពារ this much with you. You are really the world most fucking cheap person, you deserve the every worst things happen in your life. CHEAP PERSON EVER

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2025-08-14

Should we consider about the past?

My bf… I need you guys advice… Everyone around me been telling me that he a walking a-red flag… what he did in the past… hurt many girl cheat on many girls… flirt with many girls… however currently, he been treating me really good.. like literally everyone in his school knew him about what he did in the past.. i’m sorry i’m so stress i’m rambling around… i need your advice

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