Love
Is it even real?
I have been in relationship for almost 10 months with my sweetie, and I always call myself “Nhom” instead of “Bong”. Some times I called myself “Bong”, but I didn’t get the response with the word “Oun” so I feel shy. Will it make my love faded away? Do you think it will make our relationship be apart ?
Is it even real?
It's been a while since our last conversation, at first I've gone through many hardships and confusion, wondering what was the real reason. After some time have passed I've come to the realization stage where I realized many things. I realized what is the thing that makes you upset, the words I could say, and the actions that I could do to make things better. I understand why you always want me to change. I'm so happy to see that you're doing well with your life journey right now. I wish that one day you can open up for me once again and I'll make sure that you meet a better version of me. I don't want you to build me for another person.
It's 12 a.m., I'm staring at the lamp right above my bed, trying to think of a reason why i never receive back the same effort i put on anyone. I've been in a relationship many times, and never in one of these have i ever feel like I'm receiving love from my significant other. I'm either abandoned, ghosted, or being taking for granted. There are lots of things in my chest that i just want to scream it all out right now, but i couldn't. I really wish my current relationship would last, but it seems like I'm being ignore more and more from one day to another. I'm really tired, I just don't understand why you treated me this way after I've give you everything I can. To my gf, I really hope you're not the "good boy ain't fun" type of girl, because I'm almost fed up right now. So done that one day i would walk away and never wish to ever see you again. Please, be good to me. I deserved to love too.
I may be not lucky to meet a right person, but I’ll try to be a right one… a right one for you. Even though you can’t love me back, but I hope you can see my worth and appreciate all my attention that I have for only you. And one more thing, if you’re tired of me, just tell me and I promise I’ll never bother you again. It may be painful at first but yeah I have to accept the truth anyway.
Perhaps power is letting go of the grips of the past and standing empty handed in the future. It all come down to the last person i think of at night. That’s my heart is. The people that are quick to walk away are the one who never intended to stay. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that given us. And then we decided to distance between us define our love. And once my bestfri said “my standard is not to ask anyone to stay , If they want to leave , let them . Even we broken but im still support u behind ur back if u success one day. Maybe in the future we cross each other path and grow a little more so we can be tgt again , im hopefully. Anyway im more me now like im matured. I love myself more than before. I can say im better. I know my value. Im stronger. I did everything for myself and for u. So friendly reminder: Dont give all your love to only one person because u should love urself first before others , if u won’t, u will hurt in the end.
Don't hate someone because they don't love you or leave you. Let's clear all the hatred, and replay all the moment that you are laughing, smile and loved. You need to know and understand yourself, Do you want her smile or her tear? Do you want her to be happy without you or it need to be you?
I know we probably won’t talk anymore but I want you to know that I’ve a lots of things to tell you but I always left it unsaid because every times I wanted to tell you, you would act like i annoyed you. Every times we talks , there’s always been things left unsaid; day by day,I realized that we’ve lost interest in each other and the things I’ve left unsaid doesn’t matters much. I know I probably don’t cross your mind anymore but I hope someday, you see something that reminds you of me and our memories that we’ve shared. I can’t bear the feelings that you gets irritated with me and I don’t even know what did I do wrong. Lastly, no matter how things between us ends, thanks for being there once.🫂
It's okay for you to miss the person who hurt you, but it's not okay for you to let that person hurt you again. It's okay for you to talk to the person who doesn't deserve you, but it's not okay for you to give that person another chance. It's okay for you to think about the person who lied to you, but it's not okay for you to believe that person can be trusted. It's okay for you to be friends with the person who played you, but it's not okay for you to hope that this person is capable of being loyal. It's okay for you to be there for the person who made you more miserable than happy, but it's not okay for you to expect that it's gonna be different if nothing ever changed. It's okay for you to still care about the person who took you for granted, but it's not okay for you to put yourself back in a position for that person to make you feel unappreciated. Don't let someone who did you wrong make you feel like there's something wrong with you. Don't devalue yourself just because someone didn't know your value. Know your worth even when that person doesn't.