What would you do if you found out you're just an alternative or a shadow to his ex? Do you feel hurt? Angry? Hatred? Because I do. It was not wrong to not love somebody. What's wrong is how you keep telling me how much you love me, then keep going back to your ex. What's wrong is how you told me to forget the past and start it all again, then betray me and do all those things again the next day. What's wrong is how you told me to put my heart into trusting you, but you're using my trust against me. You kept saying you love me, but that's not love. There's no way you can love me when you still keep everything from your past. There's no way you can love me when you can fall in love with another girl within a week. There's no way you can love me when you regret being with me and hope you have chosen her instead. The funny thing is, people hurt me, but I'm now the bad guy. I hope all those people who did me wrong, who invalidate my feeling, who blame me for reacting the way I did, will all get their karma very soon. I have all this rage in me because I'm the one that has been suffering. To the people that said that it was normal and I was the one that overreacting, I hope you will be treated like this for the rest of your life. I was never someone who hold a grudge and be so revengeful, anyone who knows me knows how I always forgive people, but not this time. I choose to heal in hell.
To all those who in relationship out there. Have you ever ask your partner everyday or every time whether they still like you or love you? Like “Do you still like me?” What make you ask that? And for those who receive this question from your partner, what do you think when your partner ask this question everyday?
When the relationship was new and your partner alr said “if yerng ot trov knea kit Mex” instead of mean rerng ey should communicate and solve the problems. Saw many red flags since the start but I just went with the flow now it’s really hurtful. Shouldn’t have played with fire :)
មួយជាតិនេះ មនុស្សស្រីណាក៏ប៉ងចង់រៀបការទៅ ចូលគ្រួសារមួយដែលគេស្រឡាញ់យើងដូចកូនបង្កើតដែរ… អ្វីៗក៏ដោយអូនខំធ្វើល្អអស់ហើយ រំពឹងថាបើប៉ាម៉ាក់បងមិនស្រឡាញ់អូនទេ ក៏គាត់អាចព្រមទទួលយើងដែរ .. តែប្រហែលអូនគ្មានវាសនាបាននៅជាមួយបងទេ, អូនបានត្រឹមតែរួមដំណើរជាមួយបងហើយចាំមើលបងរៀបការជាមួយអ្នកផ្សេង ព្រោះគ្រួសារបងមិនអាចទទួលយកអូនទេ.. អូនឃើញគូគេផ្សេង គេអាចពុះពារនៅជាមួយគ្នាបាន ចុះម៉េចបានបងសុខចិត្តបោះបង់អូន.. បងមានចាំអនុស្សាវរីយ៍យើងអត់ ចុះអ្វីដែលយើងនិយាយគ្នា អ្វីដែលយើងសន្យា.. ម៉េចបានវាគ្មានន័យទៀតចឹង.. អូនឈឺណាស់រាល់ថ្ងៃ បងមានអាណិតអូនអត់ អូនធ្លាប់តែប៉ងចង់នៅជាមួយបងរហូត តែឥលូវដូចគេយកអ្វីៗគ្រប់យ៉ាងពីអូនចឹង .. តើឲអូនដើរទៅផ្លូវណា.. អូនសល់អីទៀតបង.. បងជួយអូនផង..
You know what is the most exited things about high school? Obviously the freedom to show the true colors of yourself with your best friends. I mean real friends. My favorite people are starting to reveal their new version and I’m happy for that. But there is something that is lingering on my mind. Why the group is so incomplete? I really need that spirit that brings up everyone happiness upon the atmosphere. The way we bursted the laugh and almost throwing up the whole meal from tummy. Sometimes, I really wish they wouldn't grow up to be somebody that I feel odd to be around. Somehow, all I can do is to wish them a better environment. And yes most of us now are tearing apart and we didn't know what to do than indulging for what the hell is happening. My regret is that I don’t feel appreciate till the day I had received plain smile without the taste of happiness. New Day, isn't it?
2020: WE are friends 2021: We were friends Reasons: Maturity #U0001F951
I used to be considered as “ugly” (got bullied for being overweight, etc. even adults used to do that to me :D ) that really destroyed my self esteem. Although, I lost weight and take care of myself and is considered as pretty now but still the permanent mental damages are there. I had developed eating disorder, social anxiety, etc. I fake being confident but the anxiety, the trembling, and panic attack always happened. And because of that anxiety that fear of being judged I think a huge misunderstanding was made. Sometimes I really wish I could just communicate better instead of always being quiet. :)
Been in many toxic relationships. Been as a please person. Been loving controller, narcissist, and who doesn't value my love for them. I'm tired but they said "Keep being nice, loyal, and faithful in relationship and soon you will find someone you deserve". So have you found her/him yet? Would you stop being faithful cause of how you been treated? Or wait until the "better" one coming?
You pretend nothing between us. I'm still waiting for you as you gave me hope in the beginning,but until now you didn't explain. You didn't give me answer. I keep telling myself, no waiting you, no expected you, but you're still in my mind.