So close, yet so far

It was all started in grade 12. We have been friends for almost a decade already but we were only get close when covid 19 started. Just friend but I feel so lonely when ur gone. Feel weird, right? We always hang out, on phone call, arguing over small things and update each other on everything we do. To be honest, I feel safe I feel warm I feel good when I’m with you, I like to have you being around even we’re doing nothing and all my sadness are gone. I like how you tell me about your bad day, when u did sth wrong, about the girl you like and everything. I like your presence I like all the attention you gave me but you always made me feel stupid, guilty when sth happened and my toxic trait is that I always distance myself when I’m mad and that where we were apart from time to time. Yes, I was always the one who run away because If not I will end up crying. I don’t say it’s my fault or your fault because we both don’t have any commitment in this thing, we were just playing around but still, I wish you The Best! P.S. If you want to come back and hang out sometime. Call me :) -See you next time 👋

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