That is my very first kiss and that person is my best friend. I don’t know whether it is wrong or right but that kiss still stuck in my brain 🤧
i really hate myself for doing things out of my own control sometimes. my red flag always chasing people away because they cannot handle it. my relationship end because of that, my few talking stages end also because of that. really hate myself for being a major problem here!
After I got disappointed for many times until I decided to give up without any caring about him. He suddenly came to me and said "He has the same feel as me". It was a great moment for me after failing the confessions for many times. Start from that day, I can considered it as our first step being in relationships so in any special occasions like Valentine or Birthday or something, he is always in my first checklist. Normally, I am not kinda sweet girlfriend as the other girls but for sure all the things that I prepare for him, it comes from all of my efforts and from the bottom of my heart. From month to month, I feel like I am the only one who try to put effort in our relationship while he has no any action. And I start asking myself "Does he really love me? Does he really consider me as his girlfriend? If so, why don't he keep texting me? Does he want me to text him first as I used to be? Do I have to do this forever?" All the questions keep appearing in my brain. I am so tired with this relationship recently. I don't change my mind on him, I just can't put more effort to push myself to make this relationship go smoothly while I feel I am the only one who try my best to make this happen. 🥺🥺🥺 I can't find any solution instead of getting upset and thinking a lot at night alone. Miracle, please help turning him into another person of my dream 🥺🥺🥺 I really want our relationship to work well.
People said that your friends are the one who help you with emotional support, but why do I feel like I have no one yet I have a lot of them. Flashbacks keep hunting me and it turns into nightmares, which I can’t escape. I can’t find even one person to talk to. I can’t find the solutions to solve the problems, but believe me I’m trying. I felt so angry and stupid and just unmotivated. I have no energy to continue doing what I should be doing. Got any suggestions to help me, please comment down. Thanks in advance and appreciate your help!
I used to be mad. I used to look back and wonder where I went wrong, and took all the blame. I wondered why would you ghost me like I never mattered. One day our friendship was flourishing–filled with laughter and late-night text messages and venting–the next, it was gone. I used to wished that our long/ funny conversation will come back. It hurts to know that we used to be so close, and now it’s like I don’t know you at all. I feel as though you don’t want me anymore. What do we all talk about, do we talk about past things to catch up on, or do we just act like no time has passed?. We’re not as close as we were before. There are days when I am so happy and that the person I want to talk to you is you. I want to tell you every detail, the entire story, and I want you to listen. There are other days where that high isn’t there when I feel low, and I just want you there to listen or to talk about anything else. Those days are when I miss you the most.There are some secrets that I could never tell another person, but I can easily tell you. Some days I wonder if we will ever be that kind of friends again. Sure, I look back and still smile on the times that we have had, the moments we had shared, the jokes, the laughter that filled our friendship. I have no idea how you feel about our friendship right now. But I am here, in case you make that step back. I am also here, wishing nothing but the best for you: laughter, that all your dreams come true, and all the happiness in the world. I’d like to let you know that our friendship meant everything to me. Thank you for the good memories that you leave behind. I hope wherever you are, you’re happy with yourself. I hope you have found peace with your problems–the people who had hurt you in the past. I hope you finally find something you love and let it consume you. I hope you find a guy who truly treats you the way you deserve.
If my mind could be read, you would be surprised how deeply my feeling is for you. Thanks for all the nice things you've done and I do appreciate your presence. Knowing you was a great coincidence and I wouldn't ask for more.
I was made to believe. I underserved of love - both from others and myself. 22 and never date not even once. I never understand the feeling of having another human soul connected to me cause whenever I feel good with someone, a part of me always whisper to my ear “you pieces of shit and don’t deserve anybody’s love. How can a loser fall in love? Don’t you ever see urself in the mirror? How ugly u are? How dump u are? How helpless u are?” These questions always keep repeating day and night until now I started to believe I underserved of love both from others and myself. :)
You deserve who you love not me I'm a bad person as they know
If you and your bf live in the same borey (literally 4 streets from each other) but he never ask you out also he rarely replies your text (4-12 hours — that’s ghosting yeah??) That means he doesn’t really like you right? The answer is clear as day yeah?