Undeserved of Love

I was made to believe. I underserved of love - both from others and myself. 22 and never date not even once. I never understand the feeling of having another human soul connected to me cause whenever I feel good with someone, a part of me always whisper to my ear “you pieces of shit and don’t deserve anybody’s love. How can a loser fall in love? Don’t you ever see urself in the mirror? How ugly u are? How dump u are? How helpless u are?” These questions always keep repeating day and night until now I started to believe I underserved of love both from others and myself. :)

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